Meh, Mondays.

Meh, Spanish, boring. Houston, newscast thing. Assembly was alright, I guess. Lunch, LOOL and you girls wonder why I don't hang out with y'all. This is exactly why. You have nothing better to do than talk about boys and other girls. Goodshit though. xD Gym, walked around the field. Then Kelly told me Kenny Wonton was in our class. That's him? WTF, it looks like he got shorter. Holaday, dinosaur movie. We already watches this in Houston's class, daang. Didn't want to go to Theatre today. Talked to Jason, then walked. Got there and it was so warm. Omg. Smelled like popcorn though. .__. Mireya had the hot pink and black rockstar bottle thing and i told Jason i wanted yesterday. Omgg. She bought it only for the color too. XD Class was alright. Nothing interesting enough to blog about. But then again, no part of my day was. Ohh, my bestfriend talked to me and called me bestfriend. YAAY. Usually, it's only one-sided. Ahaha. Other than that, funny stuff. Nothing serious is happening yet- sadly. All the little stuff counts too, i know, i know. Ohh, and i met this girl who said she liked my shirt. And we started talking about Mayday Parade. Foshooo. Finally. :D LOLOL.

You girls are hilarious though. My quote for ya'll, "It don't matter if they don't like me. As long as i like me. And i love me." No publicity is bad publicity, as they say.

Peace, sweethearts.(:

"I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me."

Chill day with bestie hottie mc hothot. (:

So i was planning on staying in bed the whole day but JasonWong hit me up and told me he was getting his hair cut at this place close to me. And when i say close, i mean close. It literally takes me two minutes to get there. Met him up at the bus stop and walked there. Flipped through magazines and made fun of hairstyles. Then he got it cut, i sat and read/watched/eavesdropped. Apparently, the lady said i was cute and should go out with him. WTF. LOL. There were three girls in there gossiping and after we left, me and Jason made fun of them. xD And how he couldn't understand the lady who cut his hair. LMAO. We didn't want to leave yet so we decided to go to 7/11. I haven't been there in a long time. Walked around for a long time then decided to get icecream. Heartbreak buddies. :D He got skittles and nachos. The cashier guy was helluh in a hurry or someshit to him. O__O LOL.

Left and started walking. We decided to go to my place to hang out for a while. He ate his nachos and i ate dinner. My mom loves him cause he said she was young and shiet. Ahaha. Played Uno with him and my sister. He would lose. LMAO. Played guitar a bit. Then went in my room and messed around on facebook. Then we decided to go camerawhore cause he never did that before. I had to force him though. LOL. It was pretty fun. We kept finding more things to do and camerawhore with. Man, he's like the only one i don't mind looking ugly in front of. XD Then we went back to my room. Talked and watched spongebob. Fun stuff. :D

"And lately I've been the girl i swear i'd never be."

May i please just stay in bed all day?

Kaythanks.

Terence's house. :D

Chill day at Terence's house today. Was running late, but it was okay since everyone else was too. Sprinkling. Put my guitar and uke at Terence's house went to Bal. Met up with Diana and walked to Terence's house again. Everyone was already there. It was sprinkling outside so we didn't film. We only filmed one scene; the waking up scene. LOL i was wearing these Asian ass slippers. xD Benny and Tim came over. Then we just chilled. Played music. I play too fast. ADEWfqwpewpv[pWE{E. Tried to learn Dark Blue on guitar while Terence does on piano. DUDE, why are there no guitar tutorials? What the hell is the strumming pattern? -__- Ate donuts, watched TV, played music, talked. Chill ass day. :D And then at the end, we started talking about scary things. And we watched subliminal message stuff. Right when we got really scared and freaked out, we had to go. LOLOL. Sorry Terence. :D We were hella paranoid though. My guitar case, the closet, ect. Ahaha. Then headed home. Left my tuner at his house. D:

Goood day. We should do it again sometime! :D

"And i must've said the right things, cause you instantly felt warm."

But I'll admit,

I do it all for the attention.

"One of the keys of failure is trying to please everyone" -Rick Warren.

What?

I don't know what to think of you anymore. I don't understand what you're trying to do. I've already learned my lesson and I won't forget it because I learned it the hard way. But still, I don't understand you at all. I can never hate you or dislike you, no matter what I say to people. As much as I'd like to, I can't- I don't. Does this mean its been bothering you? Why'd you decide to ask? So many thought running through my mind. How do I get into so much guy stuff when I'm avoiding it. There's you- the guy that hurt me, him- the guy I'm hurting, and him- the cute guy I barely know at all.

I hate being alone with my thoughts.

Mayday Parade- Three Cheers for Five Years. I almost forgot how beautiful this song was.

Food fair, boring day at OoS.

Spanish, alright. Irregular verbs. Houston, Roots.(: PE, volleyball. WTF at Leti yelling me "Thanks for trying." First, you do not have any authority so WTF. Second, I actually did well, unlike you. Third, what's with touching my arm while saying that?-__- Lunch, food fair. I held up a poster and just watched the whole time. You would play guitar, makes you so much more attractive. Helped clean up after. I don't think we made a lot, but even like 5 dollars is good. Went to Brown's room to give him the stuff and get a pass. Holoday, she didn't even need to see my pass. LOL. Reviewed for test tomorrow. Gonzo, had a sub! So Jasmine asked who I thought was cute and I said that guitarist. Then Leslie was like "You think I'm cute?" Uh.. Not really. LOL. Then Crystal brought up Valentines day and told him to ask me. OMG. .__. LOL. In the beginning of the year, I joked about that but he got hella annoying lately. Do not get me a rose, please. D: He was saying how he could get me a gorilla plush with a heart in the middle. STOP NO.

Afterschool, Jason smacked my ass so hard. ): LOL. OoS, boring. I wanted to fall asleep. Found out something shocking and i was like wow. Overall really boring today. Got in the music room with the old people and some of the newbies. We had to get chairs inside and i didn't want to go get a chair. So Jesse offered me his and I'm like AWWWH. But then he quickly sat on it when i was about to. Alfie- "That's how they all start, Jessica. They're all sweet and nice and all smiles. It only goes downhill from there." LMAO Alfie. :D Thanks for letting me know. xD But the other guy got me a chair, dammit, i forgot his name. Thank you though.(: Me and Jesse tried to be normal. "How was your day?" :D "Normal people don't say that, we aren't married." "..yet." LOL Alfie! But yeah. Anyway.. that's pretty much it.

"Remember to let her into your heart."

So I've been listening to the Beatles a lot lately.

I finally understand. This is what real music is; music that's made from passion, not greed or fame.

Strangers.(:

Our sub never showed up for Spanish. Houston, quiz and Hitler stuff. Cossick, art project again. GSA, didn't talk. Gonzo, notes and stuff. Afterschool, met up with Terence, Diana, and Kelly. Went to Terence's house and jammed. :D Sang and stuff with Diana. We need to play "Your Biggest Fan". You on guitar, me on uke. FOSHO. :D After a long while, we decided to film. It went well. Got some bloopers. Got half our filming done. :D Then went back to Terence's house. Dude, i love it there. I liked it so much, i was tempted to skip Theatre to stay there. :0

But i went and watched part of the game. Lick's black guy was beating our Asian guy so badly. Class, alright. I didn't get any attention today. ): LOL. One thing i hate, not being center of attention. Ahah. Lunch, went to wrestling but they were already done. Walked back out and talked about being pedophiles with Johnathan. Ahaha. Back to class, did more improv. That Jessica girl. URG. I don't like her.

After, took the 8x then 14. So on the 14, this guy randomly asked me about my guitar. And at first, i had my judgments about him. WHICH I SHOULD STOP DOING cause he ended up making my day. So we talked about guitars a little bit then the friggen bus stopped at Lowell so we got off. And it turns out we live really close to each other so he ended up walking me home. We talked about how college life is like and how high school is. And how he is from Guam and every knew each other and talked shit about each other there. Good talk. Thanks for making my day better, Harvey. :D Ironic cause i was talking about how there were no nice strangers around here just a few hours earlier. I was wrong.

"Take a sad song and make it better."

Should i? Should i not?

Should i join Alfie and his band and do Carnaval? I mean, i'd be honored to, but everyone is so damn pro and I'm.. not. It'll take away my Saturdays and I'm gonna have to be up early. Then three hours of practice.

What should i do?

More like old times. :D

I am so amazing for finishing the script for my group, I swear. In the morning, saw Alan and took the bus with him. Rappers, yee. I'm skittles and he's ..damn i forgot. I think it was riddles. Ahahha. Spanish, I let Kelly and Jasmine see it. :D Gym, fail volleyball. .__. Homeroom, read over script and changed some things. Holoday, reviewed. Lunch, sat with Kelly, Terence, and Kayla. :D Cossick, why the hell do we need to have a mentor? -__- We were doing just fine. Gonzo, he is so mean to me. LMAO. But it's cooool. :D Afterschool, talked to David for a bit, then took the bus with Andy.

Jack is back! YUS. You got so tall!! :D No one remembered if Alfie had a beard or not. Ahahha. Jesse drew him on the activity wall. Played on the djimbae with Harry for the first part. I'm so clueless. Omg. LOL. It's cause i keep spacing out and playing half heartedly, then when he stops and calls for a break, i keep playing. D: Hopefully no one except for Harry noticed. LOL. Break, hung out with Jesse and Jack. Did.. what was it called? Jesse had a name for it, but i don't remember. It was like climbing on stuff and doing random things on them poles. NOT in a dirty way. In a little kid way. It was so funny and fun. xD "CROTCH IN MY FACEE!" LMAO. Jesse, get yo crotch outta my face! Ahahha.

Went back inside. Jack and Christian playing with the drums like a drumset. As interesting as it was, i watched Jesse play PS3. Ahahah. Played again, snare this time. Yay. Why you got to be so pro for? D: Then the guy asked me for my snare so i gave it to him. It was cause he was cute and sweet to me. I loved the snare. Played the middle instead. One of the drumsticks were ugly and sticky. Jack saw and offered to switch but i declined. Then Louis offers too. Awh, these boys are sweet. :D I know I'm your favorite, Jesse. Don't even try to deny it. :D Talked to Jack and Christian a bit. LOL the 29 is trippy. Headed out. Took the bus with Christian. Blahblah. Saw my mom's boyfriend and got in the car. Mhm, that's it.

"And now you wish you meant something to somebody else."

Game on.

What fun is it without competition? A worthy opponent makes everything much more interesting.(: Not to mention, you try just a bit harder.

Just a girl.

Who's a little bit too in love with her guitar.

(:

Houston, new section. Gym, walked and talked with Carmen. Hrm, did Sula script. Bio, finished script then read Sula. Group activity. Lunch, met up at Library and discussed project. Cossick, saw videos of the project. I'm the leader. Aiyyah. Filming on Wed. I'm kind of excited. Gonzo, quiz. Kinda easy. Copied Harold's Sudoku. Afterschool, talked to Alan then David. Took the bus with him and Andy. Took people's pictures. Saw Jesse. :D He said he was just there to get food. And to see me, dur. :D Elisha is a loser. LOL. SHUT UP. THERE IS NO FLIRTING GOING ON. AHHHH. D:< It's just how i communicate to everyone. No flirting. Stoop. D: Did usual stuff. I don't even know. My partner made me some jeans and a shirt though. Best partner ever. :D What else happened? Not much. KAYBYE. Wait, so i was touching Elisha's thigh and he was like "Oh, stop stroking my penis." LOLOLOLOL. You funny. :D

"And I'm tired of being all alone and this solitary moment makes me want to go back home."

Doing good deeds.

It feels nice to put some faith into humanity, even if it's giving hope for someone else.

You're welcome, Sara.

Jessica.

I got no emotions for anybody else.

You better understand, I'm in love with myself.

Myself, my beautiful self.

Confidence.

Is extremely important. I have it, a lot of it, sometimes.

But modesty is necessary too. I need more of it. The thought just popped into my head and i realized i can be cocky and sometimes look down on people. Before i started any of this, 3 years ago, i told myself I'd never let 'fame' get to me. But i figured out that my head is a little too big sometimes. I'm definitely working on it.

Guys, I'm no greater than any of you. All of you probably have pretty amazing talents that are equal to 'mine'.(:

Orientation.

Spanish, said my favorite band was 'The Sex Pistols' and everyone was like :00. Houston, watched Roots. Tired. Homeroom, Wong and Paulo played 'CAT'by throwing balled up paper in the recycling. LOL. Gym, enjoyed the beautiful weather by laying outside.(: Lunch, Jason came back and told me that he was going to bring back food for me but decided against it. D: Aww. I wanted food too. He went to the hospital though.): Holaday, I hate working with partners. -_- I hella want to work alone. Lucky she likes enough to let me.(: Why am I in a class full of such stupid people? Sigh. Cossick, DEAR. Got the project assigned. Worked on poster. Afterschool, eventually found Jason and gave him his jacket. Walked with Vicente.

Got there, set up. Went over the rules and all that jazz. I think the best part was the time we were making up class rules. Me and Elisha just left and started rapping. I got a rap, but i don't remember it. I just remember "This girl is so cool." somethingsomethingsomething. Ahah. New students in our class, Jason and Vince. AKA my new best friends. Vince is a senior at Bal. :0 Never seen him around. Marcel's table won. Mhm. Not much happened. Got icecream. It was alright.

"The color lights are spilling off your face and the swaying of your hips leave me speechless."

Finally back, part two. :D

The new Spanish sub reminds me of Ballard Hanson! I like her. Houston, debates. It got so intense! Fought against democracy and women's rights. LOLOL. Hella people told me to join LAW after. Heck noo. Haha. Jason gave me the thingg. :D Thank youu. Gym, volleyball. We need girls who aren't afraid of the ball. Dangg.

So i was thinking of skipping GSA today, but in the morning, my cousin asked if Bal's GSA and her GSA could collaborate. I really wanted to brush off the idea cause.. have you seen our GSA? I was planning on just quitting and leave them in pieces, really. Yeah, screw commitment. LOL. I don't think it is a good representation of Bal, or myself, or the members who actually do care and work (which are not many because it's being contaminated with 'the group'. And Elco, theirs is extremely successful. It was a pretty good meeting though. Since we ad new people, I played the activity that we played in Theatre yesterday. The "Who started it?" or something. I don't remember the exact name. But it was pretty funny. Not to trash talk some people but WOW, are you seriously scared of being silly? Wow. But it was pretty successful. Better than last time.

Bio, quiz, worksheet, then crossword puzzle. Hate this class. Gonzo's class is going by so damn slow! Omg. Finished the work and I still have so dang much of class left.-__- Afterschool, talked to Jason a little then went slowly to Out of Site. Thanks for letting me borrow your jacket! :D

Got there and saw Jesse. We went to the gym to watch the wrestling match. LOLOL, it was intense. Watched for 5ish minutes and went back up. Got in the circle and yeah. Class, a lot of the class was just talking about backgrounds of the drums and stuff. He got new mallets and they're fuzzy and cute! :D Got on the Djimbaes with Jesse and ...Anita? Yep. Jesse told me about the quote he wrote on the Senior page of the yearbook. "Be easy or it'll be a long day." Me- LOLOLOL "To the girls?" "Noo! Thanks for interpreting it like that though!" "You're welcome. Think about it. Be easy or it'll be a long day." "Oh, cause I'll get you at the end anyway, might as well save time." "Then we can do it twice! :D" "Ooh, Jessica, you naasty." Ahahah. :D Pretty good except for the fact our hands were hurting after and Anita wasn't giving us enough to stop playing for a measure, which i did occasionally anyway. :D Jesse did too. LMAO.

Went to break. Dang, Jesse, social butterfly. Started talking with a bunch of ladies immediately. Dang. I just sat and let people come up to me. Anita started talking to me and we both thought we didn't remember each other cause we didn't talk that much in middle school. Good talking to her again though. Jesse's mango! LOLOLOLOL. Next half of class, studio stuff. Falling asleeeep. The boys are kinda sweet though.(: Jesse was laughing at me cause i was so bored. Ahahah. Blahblahblah.. I don't think I'll like this class as much. This and theater, both. The classes both more than doubled in size. -__- Carried boxes up with Jesse. He told me Kahlil won't be back and how he learned how to get at girls from him. Dude, trust me, you don't need help getting at girls. I need help talking to girls, okay? LOL except we have different reasons in wanting to talk to them.. xD Dude, when he poked my back or whatever he did i got so scared. Anonymous complainer! LOLOL. So yeah, pretty good to see these people again. :D

Christian saw me get hit on, kinda. I was waiting at the 14 bus stop and 14 was passing, there was this old man on it. I jokingly stated how the old man was staring at me. And when the bus moved again, the old man stared right at me, winked, and licked his lips. I started freaking out and laughing at the same time. Man, that is so gross. D: I felt so nasty. LOLOL. Christian found it entertaining though. .__.

"If every simple song i wrote to you would take your breath away, I'd write them all."

First day back. :D

So yesterday felt like it was going to be horrible, today feels like it's going to be good.(: Let's hope so. Spanish, meh. Vocab quiz. Houston, okay. Presentation then do now and it was over. Stupid Jason and his excuses! D: He's gonna give me a pocket knife in the mean time while he orders more pepper spray. Wow LOL. Cossick, meh. Pop quiz. ._. Lunch, Jason cares about me! OMG LOL. Bryan thinks I'm disgusting.): So the truth cones out, huh? D: Gonzo, blogged and worked. CAST presentation. Afterschool, talked to Jason a little then headed home. Saw Kevin and went with him like usual. Saw this old lady who looked like Ms.Holoday. I said she was her sister. Kevin disagreed and said she looked like a drug addict. LOLOL.

Went home, talked to mom. Ate. Talked more. Omg, why am i so nervous? Butterflies in my stomach. It feels like this is my first time going to OoS again. Agh. Got to the Bal busstop and saw Stacy. She forgot there was OoS today so it was lucky she ran into me. Ahaha. Got there. Elisha tryna break things already! LOL made my leg numb when he sat on my lap. D: Fatty. So we were imitating Ms. Holoday's accent and he was sitting on my lap. Then someone asked what we were doing and said it sounded like "Chicken sex" LOL. Went outside. Lalala. Wow, our class doubled. -__- Did a name game. Then did the 'Who started it?' or whatever it's called game. Oh my god, i got so confused. LMAO. But i got it though. :D Break, talked a little. Back, did the story thing. Partnered up with Johnnathan. Ours was random. Started out with tacos and ended up with eating dogs' and people's legs off. LOLOL. That's pretty much it. Stupid Elisha accidentally backhanded me. LOLOLOL. Loser. Then he offered me a ride home. OH YOU FANCY, HUH?! As tempting as that sounds, I already had a ride. Ahaha.

I don't really like the new guys. But i guess i shouldn't judge so quickly.

"I thought that i could tell you this two feet on the ground. But i don't think i can talk, I'm not very stable right now."

Haven't played guitar in so long, it feels like the first time again. I'm having trouble with chords again. Agh. My fingers hurt so bad. Need to develop calluses on them again.

Not giving up this time!

Pretty okay day.

Today wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Surprised myself by how cheerful I was. Beliz, this sub is leaving.): Made Jasmine a birthday card using her paper. LOL. Scented, singing, vintage. Oh my, we went all out. LOL. Funny class. I would sing "I like them big! I like then chunky!" when she opened the card. LOLOL happy birthday. :D Too bad we didn't have Houston or we could've sang black happy birthday. Haha. Gym, enjoyed the beautiful sun and walked outside. Walking with Vicente is always funny. Trying to help me get at that one guy. LOL. Telling him I'm innocent and nice and normal and basically all the things I'm not. Then he actually meets me and is like "Got played." LOOL. Lost my voice from screaming too much. LOL. I love walk days though.

Homeroom was homeroom. Bio was easy as always. Lunch was alright. Cossick, quiz then read. Thanks for haring your book with me, Ben.(: Gonzo, lalala boring. I don't understand this crap, mang. I Sony know why but I has a really big urge to laugh. Actually worked cause Jasmine left early for a basketball game.

Afterschool, went to KFC with David, and Jason.(: Dude, Jason had my pepperspray but he was too lazy to go to his locker to get it. D:&lt; Better give it to me tomorrow, dude. LOL. Went to KFC. Took Jason's chicken. :D He tried to go in the bathroom but he couldn't so he went in the girls. Embarrassing. LOL. Hung out a while then headed home. David went with Olivia so Jason went with me. Yeep.

The end.

"I've been working my whole life just to try and prove them wrong."

Swollen eyes. No appetite. Indifference. Wanting to stay in bed forever.

Hey, that's what I have!

Just me and my guitar tonight.

 

Restringing my guitar, broski. :D

I'm scared of tuning my highest E string cause I'm scared of it popping again.

(:

Montesquieu.

How the hell am i suppose to be in character when i know nothing about my character? And ya'll know i go all out on assignments like this. Gotta work with what i got, i suppose. "You're an actress though. You're make all the other philosophers jealous, watch ;)" Does this give me an advantage though? I still need to have a lot of information about him and the other philosophers, so i can know their weaknesses.

Whatever, I'm gonna beast at this, bro! Time to write my script. Or.. backup script cause it's basically improvising. Just to be safe though. Makes me feel more secure. :D

I don't even know what I'm good at anymore.

I have no food.

I'm starving and broke. So depressed when I'm hungry. I feel like I wanna kill myself.

I wish I was kidding. I'm literally on the verge of crying. There are tears in my eyes.

Mental breakdown. It's so much worse if you were witnessing it. Don't think it has ever gotten this bad.

I'll make you proud one day.

TGIF. :D

I wish I didn't have school today. Spanish was alright. Talked about intense practices with Jasmine. I'm gonna be scared around the time Carnaval rolls around. Practices are always so strict and intense. I still have scars from performing. I like them though. Battle scars. Houston, computer lab. We have to be a philosopher and debate being I'm character. I'm Montesquieu. Ok, I really don't know how to spell his name. LOL. We have to stay I'm character. Good practice, I suppose. Gym, talked with Kelly and Carmen. Glassman wasn't here.

Lunch, took Jason's food. Ew, got a little bit of bird poop on me for the first time. Took off my shirt and put on my jacket. Holoday, some activity. Had to partner up but i asked her if i could work alone and she said if i really wanted to. Amber asked and she said no. LOLOL. She so favors me.(: Cossick, sub! Sat with Terence, Diana, Lucas, and William. William- "Read the first chapter, you'll be nastied." LOOOOL. Made fun of that the whole time. Had to skim through the story because we wasted so much time. Ahaha. Then we put the book pages together in a way that that it can't be pulled apart. I didn't even know. Omg. Made me get a papercut cause i was in such a hurry to remove it. We need to get crepes sometime, forsure. Afterschool, walked with Bryan to the 14 busstop. :D I'm awkward. LOL. "My vagina hurts. I have a wedgiee," LOL.

Oh my gosh, my neighbor just had their house broken in to. They went up to the roof and broke the window from up there because there are windows up there that lead directly into our houses. That's scary.

"L-O-V-E's just another word i never learned to pronounce."

Okay.

Today was just whatever. Spanish, nothing much. Houston, quiz then Roots. Homeroom, nothing. Gym, talked to Carmen, Jacky, and Garrett. GSA, wow. They recruited but too bad they just can't focus on anything but themselves. I mean, props to Zoe and Maria. They stayed focused. All the other stupidasses are so damn useless. Lol really. Why would I waste my time if y'all don't care? People at this school are just so dang useless. Holoday, easy shit, as always. Alg, test. -___- I don't get this crap! LOL. OoS was cool. Did stamping while waiting for everyone to arrive. Then meeting was pretty good. Harry is with me now. :D Did the activity wall with him. Funny how Nic was accusing me of not knowing how to spell 'inappropriate' and he couldn't spell it either. Ahaha. Did more work then got picked up by my mama. Wtf, why do i always forget my sodas at OoS? LOL. Fail.

School sucked but OoS was pretty chill so it evened out to a okay day.

"She says that I don't take her seriously, and I don't so I guess I'd have to agree."

But darling, don't you know we just started our lives?

Boring YAB meeting today.

Spanish, basically caught up on Sula the whole time. Houston, finished the homework for tonight. The one day I ask for food, Brendan doesn't have any. -__- LOL. Homeroom, finished reading and saw Amy on BalTv. Then saw her in Cossick. She saw me applications an apparently, Cossick is gonna make me present about it on Friday. Saw this video of scene from Sula. Elisha was in it! Ahah, funny stuff though. Sigh. Lunch, talked to Jason. YOU BEST REMEMBER MY PEPPERSPAY TOMORROW! Talked to David. Gonzo, blogged. Learned new shit. Did Cossick's hw. Yee. Asked Gonzo if he was hungry then showed him the bracelet Sophia made me. The taco. He laughed so hard. LMAO.

Afterschool, saw Elisha and told him about the video. LMAO. Talked to people then had to go to Out of Site. Hung out for a while. Meeting, wow. I was zoned out. Everything looked fine to me while everyone else had something to say. I was like "Shit, I'm just gonna say something to make me seem important too." LOL. Hung around a while after that, redid the calender board thing cause they haven't updated since.. September? Ahaha. Then went to Stones. Got my sisters book. Went to eat sushi. :D Didn't fill us up though. A bit annoyed. Then left.

Pretty chill day. YAB was boring today.

"You're a mess. You're a mess. You're a mess, my dear. And it's starting to get to me."

Being ghettto. :D

Woke up all through the night multiple times because of bad dreams. WTF, i had a dream i was in China and we had to stay at this one lady's house. And she was abusive and she would beat me. My gawd. Scary, but not scary enough for me to not want to sleep. But it's all good cause at the end of the dream, it was a final exhibition for OoS and it was time to perform. Of course, performing/OoS makes everything better. :D

Spanish sub was alright. Learn more with him than with Beliz. Did English homework. Gym, volleyball. Trying to get at the new guy! LMAO. He hurt though. Homeroom, English homework. Bio, finished worksheet in 10 minutes. People in this class are so stupid. Sigh. I let like 4 people copy. Lunch, hung out with David half the time. Teaching me how to be ghetto. LOL. Then talked to Jason. YO BITC-ASS BETTA GIVE ME MY PEPPERSPRAY. LOL. Man, this fool so in love with me, he crushes girls who look like me. LOL. Cossick, 'musical chairs'. This class always goes by fast cause she keeps us busy. Gonzo, blogged and did English homework. Gonzo is an attention whore, forreal.

Afterschool was funny. So i hugged David the way i thought would be ghetto and it was basically helluh awkward. And Aileen saw and was like "Do you normally hug like that?" LMAO. Went to Popeyes with a big group of people but the people suddenly shrunk to me, David, Jason, and this other girl. The line was too long so we headed to KFC. Pretty chill. Took one of Jason's chicken. Took one of David's chicken. :D Thanks.(: Got some old men staring at me towards the end. WOW. LOL. Took the 14 home. Yeep.

It was an okay day, afterschool made it good though. :D

"10 bucks says you don't have it in you to conquer fear and quit believing what they tell you to."

Better day than expected.(:

Today was actually better than expected. I felt a little empty in the morning. But it's all gooood. Houston, quiz. Easy peasy. Watched Roots. So interesting. I turn around to talk to Brendan and the sun was in my eyes. I was squinting and was like "The suun"): And he moves my head a little bit and the sun was suddenly out of face and I'm like "What would I do without you? :00" Oh and he was eating a ManTou and I'm like "Without milk?" and we were arguing about it and Zeke asked if anyone wanted his milk. Me and Brendan looked at each other then bursted out laughing.

Gym was good. Talked to Vicente. It felt like so long since I've spoken to him. Goodstuff. He was mad at me cause I made his cheeks hurt by smiling too much. Hahaha, reminisced about last year. It was fun.(: Homeroom was homeroom. New seats. Bio, had a sub. Ms.LeMon! She's cool. It was fun and time passed by fast. 50 minutes felt like 20. Even this class was good today. Lunch, saw Elisha. :D He's such a loser. xD But funny stuff. Messed with JasonW with Diana. Pretty funny. He loves me, I'm sure.(: Cossick, didn't even finish my damn quiz. -___- Hella people didn't. Gonzo, new seats. I sit by LiYing, yay. I don't get this shit! My god. Worked the whole period, then i started to understand.(:

Afterschool, walked with BrokeBoat and them. Then talked to David. Trying to teach me how to be ghetto. He's going to take me to ChinaTown someday to get me a pocket knife. :D Cause i need to protect myself from all the pedos. Ahha. Took the 8x. Yeah. Saw Jason and Kevin. Kevin and his fried rice. LOL. And his 'porn'. :0 Then got home.

That's it. Pretty good day.

"All these dirty looks, they are right on cue."

Today and yesterday.

So for the first time in a long time, we had community service yesterday. Edmund and Evan and them didn't come.): A lot of Bal people. Cleaned with Mimi, Teresa, and Christian. Gossiped. LMFAO. Ryan confronted us about not working. Bitch, do you not see me holding a heavy ass bag filled with garbage? Dumbass. He said he was following us for a while and we didn't work. WTF. You have to follow us? We've been here longer than you and Esmeralda always trusted us because we do fool around, but we always get work done. Gtfo. Bothered Parma about who he liked and who everyone liked. LOL at who likes Mimi. ;D LMFAO. Called Bryan on Parma's phone. Mimi left, chilled for a while. You're getting kind of annoying. Man, get the F off my balls, damn. Take a hint. Bothered Parma more. Then finally left. Wow, this is going to my last year with EAG if something doesn't change- and quick.

Today, me and my sister went to Starbucks to get coffee and get some homework done. It was so nice. I got all my reading done and she finished her math homework. It was nice. Sitting in a quiet environment just sipping on our delicious drinks, occasionally sharing a few words, then back to homework. No distractions. It was perfect. So we decided to come and do this every month. So i guess i could cross off the "Bond with my sister" resolution off my list. Every month, we'll go to Starbucks one Saturday or Sunday and talk, do homework, and of course, consume Starbuck's delicious drinks. After we finished everything, we walked around Lucky's for a while because we didn't want to head home just yet. My sister bought baby carrots and we walked home. Good day.(: We will definitely go out more often.

And although there's a pain in my chest,

I still wish you the best with a FUCK YOU.

I pity the fool that falls in love with you.

This week.

Tuesday was meh. Spanish, sub. She actually taught better than Beliz though. Gym, volleyball with Carmen.(: Bio is so damn easy. I have to stop thinking so lowly of everyone. When Holaday calls on someone, i think "He/She obviously doesn't know the answer." It's so damn easy though. Cossick, i like debates. Especially when Ernie and Ben go at it helluh intensely. Even though he disagreed with me, i still respect him because he is pretty mature and smart. Gonzo, time went by so slow. Afterschool, man, that guy was so damn annoying. Like why the hell are you talking to me? -__- Then talked to Kevin and went home. My days are boring without OoS.

My thighs hurt so baad. WTF.

Wednesday. Spanish, sub again. She teaches better than Beliz. Houston, quick review then quiz. I actually knew most of it. Homeroom, saw Amy on Bal tv! :D I was like "OMG AMY!" and everyone was like O___O LOL. English, began the book. It made me feel sad because the guy went crazy from fighting in a war. Gonzo, blogged. Afterschool, hungout for an hour then went home. Ate. Blahblahblah. Should i just save these blog posts and post them as one for the entire week? Cause they're so short and pointless anyway without Oos.): 2 more weeks.

Thursday. So tired and cold in the morning. Didn't wanna go to school. Spanish, actually learned again.(: Houston, impressed him with what I had to say. He was like "Wow, you should be in a college course." :D I like that compliment. This shit is easy though.(: Gym, volleyball with Carmen, then tried to explain what we were learning in History to Kelly. GSA, discussed fundraiser. Sometimes I don't like leading them but meh, they could be worse. At least we made progress. Bio, this shit I'd so easy. My god! Why the F aren't I in honors. These dumbasses irritate me. I just don't have patience with people who are a bit slow. And to think I wanted to be a teacher. Ha! As if. Adv alg, work then quiz. I failed all my mini quizzes. 2/6 and 3/6. OHMYGOD. Kill me now. Hopefully i ace this one to make up for it. ._. Afterschool, went home. Saw Kevin and talked to him again. Ate Chow Mein. :D

Friday was actually pretty good. Messed around in Spanish and the sub said me and James could go 'early' because we were so good. And she made Mimi stay. LMFAO. It was hilarious cause she was the one not talking and me and James were drawing on walls, throwing pencils, talking, ect. LMAO. Funny. Houston, tried to write my paper but i only got the first two sentences down. D: Stupid distractions. LOL, but Brendan gave me half of his peanut butter sandwich. :D Yumyum. Homeroom, Dayana gave out kisses. :D Gym, volleyball. Trying to hit Liying. Lunch, talked and chilled. Bio, first one finished with assignment like always. Sat and waited for the class to end cause i didn't have my ipod with me. Cossick went by quick. Afterschool, bought the new itouch. Ohmygod.<3 LOL, went home. Yeah.

"There are some things I'll never understand like why a city needs a god and a woman needs a man."

Do i really have to go to school?

It's cold and I'm tired.):

Come quick, Friday.

Back at OoS.(:

Dude, it was pretty hard getting up this morning. Got my coffee to survive. Damn, I'm awkward as hell. So I saw Kahlil standing there and I went to say hi to him and he looked half asleep. So I started walking away and he said bye and I turned back around and awkwardly waved. Then I kept walking and looked back again to say something but decided against it. I'm so awkward and no, IT'S NOT CUTE. Ahem. Houston is so chill. He's like the best academic teacher I have- right next to Gonzo.(: Gym, reverse cowgirl. LOL. Bio, got a partner and made a baby. WTF, lol. I named him Hector and he's hella hurt. Lunch, talked to Elisha for a little bit. "What did you do during the break." "I just was awesome the whole break." "Really?!" "Yeah, of course.." LOL. I miss Theater! Cossick, I rambled about the origin of HIVs. Sigh. I'm do pointless and awkward. I stopped midstory cause I realized it wasn't relevant. Then I stopped and there was an awkward silence in the class. Sigh. Oh but our homework is what we leaned about ourselves this year. Sound familiar to a certain blog post? Ahah. Just gotta shorten it and I'm done. Gonzo, blogged and passed notes with Wilson. He is stupid as hell. LOL. I'm gonna keep the note and use it to blackmail him someday. :D

Afterschool, David said i was boring cause i told him i was going to work. LOL.): Got there. Started working. Then organized the kitchen with Nic. Made some small talk but it was almost all work related. ._. Hopefully we get to know each other better, that goes for all the new YAB members. Work was pretty chill though. It felt good to be at OoS again. Feels just like a second home still. After, went home w/Christian, telling him my lame stories and how awkward i was. WOW, i got off one stop before my stop. FAIL. LMAO. So we had to walk. I'm so tired.

"What a wonderful caricature of intimacy."

Day well spent.

Me and my sister got a coloring book that the previous owner never even colored in! Why you be throwing this precious thing ouuuut? Well, they didn't throw it out, but it was outside, in a bag filled with all the other children books. So while the other 15 year olds have sex and do drugs, I'm gonna be here chilling and coloring in my Mickey Mouse coloring book. :D

                  You guys jealouuus? Ahaha. What's up with my bangs though? D:

Debates regarding religion &discussions about politics.

Dude, am I this boring to talk to?

What 15 year old consciously talks about this for fun? Me.

Dreams.

I have such awkward dreams. Last night's consisted of pooping grass when you're stressed, and how some cultures save the grasspoop and use it on their farms or gardens. WTF. And dating Adam Sandler (I know, shut up! Me and my desire of older guys obviously remains) and he thought I was cheating on him. So I went outside and shouted, and I quote, "Bro, calm yo tits!" and hung up. Other shit went down too, but they're not clear so I'll leave it at that.

Oh and the day before yesterday, I had a dream about OoS. It was an unpleasant dream, actually. First, I was informed that A, S, and G would join Theatre. Oh my god, that better not come true. Then my whole Theatre class had a sleepover party at my house but I just locked myself alone in my room cause I was sick. Oh and at school, me and E were messing around and somehow joined hands for one second. And in that second, Y saw and was like "You cheating on me!" and stuff. So I said that we were rehearsing for a scene. Of course, she had to ask us to act it out in front of her and we didn't actually have a scene. So I whispered one word to him, improv. Man, actors. Ahaha.

That's pretty much it. Have a good day- good start of the new year.