LOL.

My grandma says that my sister speaks English like an old cow.

LOLWUT?

1) How do old cows speak English?

2) She (my grandma) doesn't even know how to speak English.

Oh fuck me. -__-

So I just realized that next year, i will have 2 AP classes and the hardest English teacher. Fuck. My. Life. On top of that, i will have an internship with my pathway and Theatre. So yep, I'm not gonna continue on with YAB and I'm really hoping I can do Theatre, but I'm ready to give it up if i have to. I just love stressing myself out, huh? Push myself 'till i can't handle it anymore and crack.

Why do i put myself in these situations?

Day 2, 3, and 4.

Day 2.

Basically didn't do anything the whole day. Day wasted? I guess you can say that but I'd call it catching up on doing nothing. (:

Day 3.

Went out to buy Summer Reading book. I'm reading 'The Bluest Eye' by Toni Morrison. Went to buy some snacks and stuff for our trip. Packed. I'm excited. (:

Day 4.

Woke up around 1. Haha, back to my old habits. Ate. Went to Walgreens with my sister. Didn't buy anything though. Went home, did nothing.

Weird dream.

I only remember bits of it but let me try to write it down. We were at some kind of party or gathering. Then a girl kept popping up with a knife as if she wanted to kill you. Everyone was just like "What the fuck?" So i went over to you and we just started kissing like you were going to die, because you were. That went on for a while and the party thing was over and you had your arms around me tightly. There was another party going on the next day and we would see each other then. Then everyone had to sleep in weird old uniforms in bunk beds. Me and my sister went into an elevator to change and it was weird and awkward. This lady caught us and lectured us about being insecure. What? I don't know.

Yeah. I don't know why I dreamt about him. Wait, yeah i do. Cause I said i would think about him a ton then get over it. Heh. ._.

Are you what you dreamt of becoming?

Day 1.

I spent my first day of summer in school. Haha. I went at 8:15 and left at about 3:50. Hung out with Jasmine, Carmen, Edmund, Akshay, Jeremy, Stanley, and Clark. It was pretty chill. Most people started to leave so I hung out with Carmen, Luis, Derrick, and Isabella. The boy's locker room is disgusting.. and small. Went to work, did nothing. Just talked to Mimi while we stayed in the office. We gossip way too much. LOL. My GPA is gonna suck this time around. Fuck Glassman. -__- Sigh. It feels like we still have school on Monday, like I'm gonna go to school and see everyone again. ._.

Okay, moving on now. I don't know what else to say.

Moving on starts now.

Ughh.

This is why boys don't like me.

LOL. But really..

Whatever, I'm not even going to complain.

I don't want to like you.

I don't want to like anyone. Can't there just be a cute boy i could flirt with but not develop feelings for? No strings attached?

School pisses me off.

I'm so done with this. -__-

Platoon.

Such a good movie. Charlie Sheen, man. He looked so young, innocent, and pure. Now he's... yeah. But anyway, Platoon is such a good moviee! <3

Still reppin' my dream school.

I have more condoms than i know what to do with.

UCD fieldtrip. (:

So yesterday was our UC Davis field trip. Let's start, shall we? Got on the bus and had to sit next to some random chick. Awkward. I bumped my head on the TV ahead of me. Bus ride, hecka wished i had some earphones. Wrote you half a song before i realized i said i wouldn't write any more songs about you. Got to UCD two hours later. Saw two ducks and they were so cute. They were obviously in love and they were following each other everywhere. So cute! Got split up, sophomores and freshmen. Our tour guide was Brody. Walked around. Didn't see much but it had big grassy fields where i would love to lay. The weather was pretty nice too. The cool part was the recreation room thing. I really liked the indoor track and we saw the rock climbing wall that Kevjumba shot one of his videos at. Omgosh. Didn't even realize it 'till i went home though. xD

Then we went to eat, buffet! Went with Kelly and we ate. The hilarious part was when we wanted to get frozen yogurt. So the bowls were newly washed so they were hot, but we didn't pay any attention to that. We took the bowls and put some frozen yogurt in it and it melted in like 5 seconds. My yogurt was overfilling and dripping all over my hands and on the floor. Me and Kelly were too busy laughing and panicking to know what to do. LOLOL. It was SO freaking hilarious. Other highlights were when we put napkins in the dish return and the paper towels in the bathroom. Oh my gosh, hilarious. We just fuck things up. Anyway, we went to the book store. We spent hecka long deciding if we wanted to buy a hoodie. It's so expensive but we really wanted one. We spent the whole time debating. Urg. Coco, Kelly, and I finally made up our mind to get one. So expensive. I'm broke now. ._. Okay, i can't use more than $10 this month. Need to save money.

Buying a UCDavis hoodie makes me feel like I kind of gave up on myself. We all know my dream university is and always will be UCLA. But I already had/have big doubts that I will not make it in. I can see it already, getting rejected from LA, and possibly getting in Davis. It just makes me feel like I'm giving up on myself because i 'accepted' that I don't stand a chance at getting in. But then again, i really like Davis and it's a good school too. I also really like the hoodie. Oh my god, i don't even know what to think.

UCDavis.(:

You're so cute.

My sister is making fun of the way i talk.):

Boo retainers. LOL.

Oh and..

"Mom, i can't say the letter G."

Mom- LOL.

"What if i have to spell my last name? Then I'd be like L-I-N-GIIEEEE"

Mom- "Told you that you should've told people your last name was 'Kong'."

"LOLWHUT? There's a G in there too."

My mom is pretty funny. LOL.

Fun fun fun fun.

Today was fun. Bussed to Edgar's house and called him. He said he was biking and he was 10 minutes away. So i texted my mom waiting for him. Then he and Mimi came up on bikes. Put it away, went to get Mimi some pupusas then she left. Everyone hella bailed on us. Last night, people said they were going to come but guess not. It was only me and Edgar. Anyway, we went to Safeway and took 'shots' of those sample yogurt drinks. ;D LOL. Bought some cake mix and then went and read the greeting card things. Pretty funny. Bought our stuff then walked back to his place. Racist jokes and talks of random stuff. I barely remember what we talked about. Ahaha. But i do remember, "What if i were cool?" Cracked me up. Got back to the house and his brother and his friend were there. Went to the living room and helped Edgar bake while the guys talked about bikes. No entiendo. LOL. Baked and Alan kept talking about wanting to get some 40's and getting some Boba. We baked and watched America's Funniest Videos. Funny. More racist jokes. Two Mexicans and two Chinese. I swear, Edgar's brother is just like a taller version of him. xD

But yeah, took us hella long to go to DP cause we didn't wanna get off our lazy butts. Eventually started walking to Delores. Went to a Liquor store so Alan could get some alcohol. He ended getting some 40's. "Do you want your drugs? If you want your fucking acid, get us some pizza." Ahaha. Don't worry, no one did drugs today- while i was there, at least. Anyway, we went to DP and chilled for a while. Got offered some Ganja muffins. We didn't have any money on us so we decided to leave. We were going to head to Quickly's but we got attracted by some thrift stores instead. So funny. But yeah, an hour later, i had to go. Caught the 49 then 14L. Got home 20 minutes late buy my mommy didn't mind.

Happy Mother's Day. Sorry i didn't get to spend the day with you.

I worry too much.

"Want some advice?"

"Stop carrying the world on your shoulders, Jessica. I can see it. It's changing you more and more as more and more weight is given to you. Stop carrying the world on your shoulders."

Thank you. I laughed it off at first, but this is advice i really need to take.

Amazing day,

So today. Where to even begin? I slept hella early last night, i don't know why. Woke up at 6, read FML for an hour, then fell asleep till 8:30. Woke up, got ready, took the 29 to dentist. Got my braces off and stuff. Omgosh. Met up family at ABC and ate. Went back home. Went to Safeway with sister to buy mommy a gift. Headed to performance right after. Got immediately put to work. Marcel, Jonatan, and Stacy helped me though.(: Practiced backstage. Then Mimi called me and YAB was met up. Went outside to drum. Blahblahblah. Chilled and walked around. Practiced once with Mimi. Edgar actually showed up! I was surprised because everyone said he wasn't coming. Video taped more stuff. Chilled with my two classes. Performed. I messed up, like always. It happens. Performed for drumming. Pretty good. Messed up. I'm used to that now. LOL. Chilled afterwards and hugged the drumming boys goodbye.): Helped clean up and hung out. Showed people my Friday song. :D

Gio, Quinn, Allie, Edgar, Claudia, Stacy, Freddie, and i decided to go get something to eat. We ended up going to get pizza. We had talks about how to make beer and stuff. Freddie is the best teacher ever, no doubt. Then we started talking about politics and stuff. Really intense, interesting conversation. We ate and kept talking. It was really fun and they are all so smart. Makes me even more interested in history and political issues even though i don't like getting involved with politics. After, walked half way to Claudia's house then decided to go home. It is SO scary walking home alone this late. Walked all the way from Bal Park Station to my house. It helps that I am an extremely paranoid person. ._. Talked with my mommy half the way because i was so scared. Sigh.

Overall, GREAAT day. Hanging with the loves tomorrow to make a cake for the best teacher on Earth.(:

Oh god.

Is my health deteriorating so much that even teachers notice?

I feel so bad for my grandpa

He can't even get up by himself or bathe himself now. He can't take care of himself anymore.

I've been hearing 'Sorry' a lot lately.

Just save it.

Fuck my life. Fuck everything.

Sad how i haven't updated my onlythehappythings blog in a long time. Shows how much happy my life contains right now. (: