Day 59-64.

This week sucked. Pissed off every day. My boss pisses me off. My work pisses me off. Homework pisses me off. My life pisses me off. Cried at lunchtime on Wednesday &Thursday. I hate my life. Someone should just shoot me. I don't give a shit anymore.

Good things:
My sister bought me my favorite chips. :D Thankyouu.
Going to my cousin's house tonight. (:
"Water For Elephants" is such a good book. Couldn't put it down if i tried.

I should read more. It's a good escape.

Day 63-64.

Went to my cousin's house. She has kitties! :D Soooo adorable, but one pooped on me right after me and my cousin had a whole debate on whether kittens would poop on people. I named him Voldemort. LOLOLOLOL. Voldemort pooped on me. My cousin disapproves of my names because they're ugly. Kekekeke. Camel. So cuuuuuute though! Made brownies &had some cocktails. Mai Tai. :D Omg, the 'shot' my cousin made me drink was DISGUSTING. Plus, she barely drank anything! -__- LOLOL. "This tastes like fungus!" & "YOU'RE AN ALCOHOLIC." Ahahahaha. Everything was so funny. Fire traail. Didn't try any Irish Cream but next timeee. (: Then we drank some rose tea which was soooooo good. Need some of that. Then we talked until 5am and eventually fell asleep.

Woke up around 2. Ate noodles &watched Harry Potter. Went to the pet store w/the kitties and everyone was commenting on how cute they are. Haha. (: Went back to her house &talked for a while. MM, really want to try S______. Really, sounds so yummy. Went out to eat pho, then brought Sarah back to Stanford. Went back home. Don't wanna go to work tomorrow. All depressed again. ._.

If one drink could make tonight slip my mind

I would drink up so I can forget that i haven't lived my life.

Day 57-58.

Day 57.

Just went out with mom so she could go shopping. She bought me leave in conditioner. (: My hair is soo ugly though. Pics?

Day 58.

I woke up wanting someone to kill me and wanting a big mug of coffee. Neither of which happened. ._. Went to work and whatever. I'm not going to lie, time went by fairly quickly in the first half of the day though. (: Ugh, so tired. Did presentation, then chose on CAP project. Finally. Ugh. Melaniebruh let me borrow $5 for lunch since i only had $2. LOL why am i so broke? ): Lalala, didn't do much or at least, i don't remember much. Sigh. So tired. After, it was pretty funny. We were in the streets screaming about Angelo's 'laced' donuts cause he wouldn't give us any. Everyone was staring at us, ahaha. We scared the tourists. Hehe. Then  i had to go the presentation thing on 21st street. So ghetto and awkward cause i was the only Asian person there. After the presentation, I went home. Hella craving some junk food though. .__.

I like to take pictures of me when I'm uglyy. (which is all the time LOL)

Why I so ugly? LOL.

I'm cute. LOLsike. :D

Day 56. (:

Today was so chill. Woke up at 7 with a text from Edgar from last night. Texted him back but knew he was still asleep so went to sleep again till 10. Another text but i forgot to reply &slept again till 12:01 with Edgar suggesting we go to the pier. Got up and ready and headed to his house. Chilled for 10 minutes cause he was still 'beautifying himself'. LOL. Met up w/Mireya and took the bus to the Pier. Bus ride was cool. Talked about GrrGrr's trip to North Dakota and how he's gonna cleanse his soul. &the guy next to him talked about the tribes and his experience in the military survival training. Chill. Oh and how Edgar 'brushing his teeth'. LOLOLOLOOLOLOL. &Apparently, i like to 'take showers'. LOLOMG. THESE GUYS. Went to an arcade and found $300 on the floor but gave it back to the employee who just collected money out of the exchange money for coins machine. He gave us each a handful of quarters. Keke. Got our fortune then left.

Watched like a 20minute comedy show thing with hot British men doing dangerous stuff. It was also hecka funny. MMM, I'd tap that. LOL. Went to go eat. Tried the popular clam chowder in the bread bowl thing. The cashier lady was rudee. -__- Clam chowder was okay but didn't like the the bread. I don't like sourdough. :/ Edgar was making fun of me &my clamchowder. It's not cumchowder! ): He went to the bathroom so me and Mireya talked about him. He was taking hella long so we said he was 'brushing his teeth'. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL. Then we talked about how if he came back and saw us hella hard and he did come back which made us laugh harder. God, we were just dying. LOLOLOL. After we were done laughing, my head hurt &my stomach hurt. Ahaha.

Then we walked around and went to We Be Knives. So sick. Since we were "accompanied by an adult", we were able to buy something. I bought the knife pen but they didn't even ask for ID or an adult. LOL chill. The pen is so sick. It's basically a pen that writes but also is a sneakyass knife on the other side. Went to the upstairs to get fairydust stars. :D Walked to Market &hopped on the M to Powell. Caught the 14 and stuff. We were trying not to laugh but it was so hard. Ahaha. Edgirl. Jizzica. We need to make one for Mireya. D: They got off, said goodbyes, and took the bus all the way home.

Lalala, goood day.

Do you like my fairydust star? :D

Day 53-55.

I'm going to just do them together since everyday is basically the same. It's just work, work, and more work. Yay. -__- 6 more days in our internship &we still don't how our project figured out. Fuu. Idk. I just don't know. Had a nice convo with Adriana on Thurs that lasted about 3 hours. Lmaoo. For lunch, i just go out the the grassy field to chill. I started bringing my summer reading book with me so i can read on the bus and stuff. Ugh. Need to hop on that AP homework. LOL. Coro needs to stop letting us out so late. -__- Oh and the night of day 54, we went to dinner and bowling w/Ed. :D

Day 50-52.

Day 50.

Had a self pity day with Mimi. :D Went to Safeway to buy junk food then went to her house. Frenchfriends. :D Watched PS I Love You but never finished it. Got too bored. LOL. Why am i so fat? Spaghetti flavored chips? LOLOL. Then Mimi played LoL. Whut. Trolled with my manvoice. :D Then we sand "fuck ya man" by Tila Tequila hella loud while skyping with the guys. LOLOLOLLOOL. They got annoyed with us and wanted to mute us. Did random shit, then went home. LOL.

Day 51.

Did not want to go to work. Barely remembered what happened. Just remembered they let us out 45 minutes late. Have to fucking fundraise for hoodies. -__- Gonna cut a bitch.

Day 52.

Didn't want to go to work today- like everyday. LOL. Got my itouch.<3 Went to the brown bag hearing. Tried soo hard not to fall asleep but i honestly couldn't pay attention to anything and my eyes refused to stay open. My boss was next to me too. -_- People said it was interesting. You fucking kidding me? -__- Went to Daiso afterward with my boss. LOL. I didn't even know thee was one here. Walked back to work. Did 'work' then planned meeting with boss tomorrow morning. Lala, left to go to Daiso again to get my sister and mom something cute. Went home. The end?

Me and my sister are talking in baby voices to each other. Like legit baby voices. LOL.

Am i cute yet?

 No? Okay.):

My glasses are prescription, btw. D:

Oh yaknow, just chillin'.

Day 48 &49.

Day 48.

Work went by way too slowly. Ugh. Eh, boring &annoying. And these fucking bitches let us out 20 minutes late! Bitch, i have fucking places to go. -___- Fuck Coro. Rushed my ass over to Oos. It ended and everyone basically left. If i was there 20 minutes earlier, i would've still seen people. Ugh. Fuck Coro in the ass. .__. Saw Mimi, stalked her boothang. Ew, saw Ivan. LOL. We decided to be creepers. Decided to go out to eat but i saw Edgar across the street. OMGOMGOMG. :D Talked to him and caught up. Ahh, it's been months. ): But yeah, I've been busy as shit. -__- Saw Elisha w/Louie tooo! :D Talked for a bit then had to say our goodbyes. ): Went to eat with Mimi on Ocean. The bathrooms are creepy as shit. D: Ate, then went home. Goood day- after work.

Day 49.

Woke up early and went to Ed's house to BBQ. Played Mortal Combat 3 with Teresa. LOLOLL. Pretty funny. I realized that i hate losing. LOL. Went outside to eat. Talked shit about grandparents. Keke. Then we went to ride bikes! :DDD Omg. Rode around the block. It's been foreveer. I want a bike now. Wished i lived in a safer neighborhood so i could ride bikes and be safe. -_- Sigh. So much things i want- so little money i have. I guess i have 'a lot' compared to most people. But it's never enough for the things i want. Time to save money, i guess. Ugh. I wish i could work while i go to school. I wish i could have more time during the summer. I still need to do my fucking homework for school and AP classes. -__- Kay, then went to deposit my check and got my glasses.

The end.

Day 46 &47.

I'm getting way too lazy to blog everyday cause it's the same, but so different at the same time.

Day 46.

I don't really remember what i did. I think i shadowed intake the majority of the day. So bored that i made videos of myself. LOL. I text way too much at work. D: I was craving a salad but they're so freaking expensive. I walked around so much at lunch and discovered a food court. So expensive. Man. Days are so long that one day feels like 2. By the end of the day, the beginning of the day feels like the day before. .__. &don't tell anyone but i count down the time until i get off work..

Day 47.

Shadowed Mediation today. From about 10-1. Muuuuuch more interesting than intake. Much more. In intake, 30 minutes feels like 2 hours. In mediation, 2 hours feel like 30 minutes. LOL. Its because of all the walking around from one room to the next. Interesting. Very interesting. I liked the person i was shadowing, Michelle's, tea set. So adorable. She said she got it at Ferry Building. Needa check it out soon.(: At lunch, i walked from where i work to the ballpark. Basically Pier 22 to Pier 39 and a little past it. I only had $2. Fml. LOL. Made random videos again. I'm sure a lot of my coworkers caught me texting and not doing work. Uh ohs. My itouch died pretty quickly though. ): Hmm. Meeting with supervisor. Then i was out of theree. Home, dinner with family &Ed. Ew, Asian food. -__-

Kay bye!

(:

Yeah, I take pictures in the bathroom at work..

Yeah, I take pictures in my room too.

LOLew. The bags under my eyes are horrible. ._.

Day 44 &45.

Day 44.

Went to Denny's with my mom and sister. Omgg. :D Yummy. I don't remember what else happened yesterday. What a fail. OH, i started playing guitar again and did my CAP project thing. ._.

Day 45.

Reallyreallyreally didn't want to go to work. Got my butt up and there. Ugh, what ugly weather. Don't remember what we did. So out of it. ._. Did our presentations. LOL, I'm so poor. At lunch, me and Melaniebruh had to go to McDonald's and order off the dollar menu. LOL. Went back and picked our final topic. Not everyone was happy with it, but majority rules. I really didn't care but i do agree food health would be easier and effects more people cause every single person in the world has to eat. Whatever. I don't even give a damn anymore. After work, went to 7-11 to get free slurpies with Melaniebruh, Williebruh, Ianbruh, and Natori. Yumyum. Convos about giving hobos socks. HEHEHEHE. Got home like an hour late today.LOL.

I forgot to put a picture of the birthday cake Ed got me. :D

Haven't been playing guitar.):

Lack of inspiration. Lack of motivation.

Day 42 & 43.

Day 42.

Today was different than most. Stuff happened in the morning that i shouldn't talking about or.. yeah. LOL. But let's just say that i was extremely late to work but got an excuse so i could be later. As i was going there, Mimi told me to stop by OoS seeing as I was incredibly late anyway. I did. Saw her, saw Raffa, saw Amy. Talked to Amy for a good amount of time. UGH Freddy wasn't there. The one day i visit, he's not there. -__- Okaay. LOL. Took the bus back to work and did work and stuff. Networking lunch. Interview. Presentation. Yep. After, stuck around to talk a bit and then left. Wow, I'm an idiot. But i must admit, I'm a good idiot. K whatever.

That was my day. Made me miss the OoS environment so much.

Day 43.

Woke up pretty early and had to go to the eye doctor. My vision got worse again. ._. Went to some place to eat then went back home. My mom kinda got lost. LOL. Found the way again and went home and everyone had to pee so badly. Got a call from my dad saying my cousin was come so i was gonna visit her. Got home, peed, showered, got ready, went to her house. Talked about Stanford. Then talked about music a lot, i think. UGH, i miss playing my guitar, Delilah. I feel guilty and sad that I haven't played in like 2 months. -__- Anyway, ate dinner and watched rap battles. Talked about religion a little bit. LOL. Watched the beginning of Beauty and the Beast. Played more music, played with my dad's camera. OMG, my cousin has the giant bear from Costco. WANT. I need to play my guitar more. Sigh, didn't want to go home and go to work. I have freaking homework over the weekend that i really don't want to do. And i really don't want to go to work. -__- Ughh, i need an escape.

But today was pretty fun, i guess. Nice to go to my cousin's house.

Day 41.

 
Day 41.
 
Today was a pretty busy day, Right at 9, I had to interview someone but he decided to ring me to his meeting because he was busy. I got to ask him questions on the way so it’s all good. Then after the meeting, I went to shadow Malcolm at intake and he got to tell me about what he did there. Omg,it was so interesting because we got to talking and he majored in Drama in Stanford. That impressed me. Yup. Then he had a client and I got to sit there and listen with them. Interesting at first, but once it got to the second hour, it got old. Well not him, but sitting down in a chair for two hours, not talking, and the anticipation. After that was finally over, I went on my lunch break. Basically walked around, texted, and ended up buying chips and Simply Lemonade (cause it reminded me of Luan) and went back to the desk.
 
I feel bad about not remembering peoples’ names when if remember mine. For example, this funny guy who works here and keeps messing with me. To be fair, I don’t think we had a proper introduction but I still feel bad cus he remembers my name. But anyway, he messed up my desk on purpose because I’m so OCD about it. I have all my pens are in a straight line and my papers are neatly stacked and everything has a place. He just rearranged them all for me when I was shadowing Malcolm. OMGG LOLL. He told me that he’s the same way, that’s why he likes to mess with me. Then he helped me fix it. Ahahaha. It just makes the day less boring. (:

What the fuck are you doing to me?

Day 40. Happy birthday to me.

Day 40.


So today, I had to go to a hearing where we were against some other company and we were trying to solve some disputes. I can’t go into detail but let me just tell you, that crap is boringggg. I went with two of the people who worked with me and we took BART there. They basically filled me in on what the hearing was about and yeah. Went through security and went to sit in the courtroom. I expected it to be like how it is on tv but the judge talked way too much and he kept cutting people off. And the people who worked there were not exactly nice. ._. It was so boring and I had a hard time staying awake, let alone listening. I felt my eyes constantly shutting the whole time and it was just extremely hard to stay awake.

After that, we took the bus back to the office and I checked in with my supervisor. I got my lunch break and I just went to Starbucks to get some coffee. Can I say that the boy who worked there was a cutie? Like, really. He had dimples and he had the cutest smile. And I found it adorable when he stuttered over my name. Got my coffee and then went back to the office. Spoke with my supervisor again and typed up my assignment. Went to ask my other supervisor about more of the federal process and then revised my essay. Now I’m just slacking and waiting to go home. Typing this at work? Best believe it. (;

Day 39. First day of internship.

Day 39.

So i got to my internship and texted Andrew to tell him i was there. Went up to the 5th floor to the building. Had to sit in the waiting room cause my supervisor wasn't there yet. Maria Elena came and gave me a quick tour of the place and sat me in the conference room. Then my supervisor, Linda, came and we talked. Another Linda also came and talked about suing Walmart and how there's a hearing tomorrow. Apparently, I'm going to that. Met Luis, my second supervisor, Luis, and we all talked. I was introduced to most of the people in the building and got another tour. Got a desk, omgg. Went to the storage room to get supplies and set up my desk. Dude, i feel so professional. I could've got my own cubicle but they thought it'd be better for me to be with the other interns. I'm the youngest one. ):

Got a lot of reading material and my desk is messy already. I have a pile i have to read, a pile I'm reading, and a pile I'm done with. It looks so businessy. :D All you hear around you is quick typing and papers ruffling. We sit all day, but it's better than to have to walk around all day. I never imagined I'd do this. Later, Luis and Linda came to get me and we all had lunch together at this fancyass Italian place. Then we went back to work and i got more reading material. Omg, boringg. I secretly texted Melanie a few times. Shh.(: I had more than enough time on my hands anyway. Then set up plans for the rest of the week and I was out of there.

Good day. Felt important. (:

Day 38.

Happy fourth of July. Went to my new internship with my mom and sister. Took the 14 there then took the T/K back. Just took 2 hours but it felt much longer. My mom told me I could come back tonight to watch fireworks if I wanted to. I'm spending the night watching movies with my sister instead. Hahaha. Something Borrowed and Love and Other Drugs. Not excited for my new internship tomorrow. ):

Picture time. (:

I just realized I forgot to put some pictures of the Headlands trip. My bad. Here are a few. (:

The Coro kids.

 

'Cause we troll all day erryday. (:

Working on our life maps.

Day 37. FISHING!

So today, we went out with mom and Ed to go fishing! Woke up pretty early and meditated. Felt good. Then got ready and went to Ed's house to eat breakfast. Left for the dock and got in the boat. We sucked at fishing at first but we improved so much. Caught a lot of stupid eels which weighed like 100 pounds. Ahaha. Mom decided to sleep in the boat 'cause there was a place to sleep; it had a bed and errythang. LOL lame.(: So after not getting a fish in the longest time, we decided to move and he let me drive! Omg, i was so scared and he played a prank on me by climbing on the roof and disappearing when I didn't know what to do. LOL. Then.. the boat broke down. WOW, my first time driving anything and it breaks down. Cool, bro. Panicked at first but Ed just called the towing boat people and we continued fishing.

Lame, the sharks ate all the bait but didn't get hooked. D: Teresa ended up winning first place, i got second and we split mom's prize. Hehe. Mom ended up getting seasick and we got towed back to the dock. I'm starting to feel that energy drink I drank. Then we just started to head back home.

Today was soooo fun. Time to cross fishing off of my bucket list. (; Good day!

Day 36

Went to some stupid bank to make a checking account. Fuck it. I can't do anything 'cause I'm not 18. All I can do is put money in and not take any out without my mom. The fuck? And they're trying to convince me it's mine? No. I'm just gonna pretend I don't have that money. I don't even know. I'm going crazy. Went to eat pho, whatever. Dentist, filled clipper card, blah blah blah. I don't even care anymore.

Half the time, I don't even know why I'm crying. Need some comfort food.

Day 33-35

Day 33 and 34.

I'm way too lazy to blog lately. Wednesday and Thursday, I went to the Headlands again, but this time, with the Coro kids. It was pretty chillin'. Got pretty close and trolled certain people. "You feelin' alright?" "How you feelin' now?" "What's the formula for a parabola?" LOOOL. Apparently, the boy's cabin was haunted. Awhh, I didn't even get to go to the game room 'cause I had to cook dinner. It was so yummy though. Went on a night hike, was too afraid to walk in the dark by myself. ): Went back. Oh, and i ate smores for the very first time. :DD Slept with the girls and yep. The boys claimed they saw and heard hella scary things- like me laughing, a thump, crash of drumsets, and a face out the window, and things getting moved. LOL wow.

Breakfast was pretty yummy. Pancakes, yummy eggs, and BACONN. :D Then finished our Life Map Tree things and presented it. Then went on a 4 hour hike.(: Went back to the office and got our internships. Ehh. At night, i don't even know what happened. Panic attack? Anxiety attack? Stress overload? Probably. But it was the first time I've cried in front of my mom in 3 or so years. She took me out to where my new internship was and bought me a new binder for work and I took a few pills. When I got home, I was super tired but I couldn't sleep because I still had to do Coro hw. UGH.

Day 35.

Today went by pretty quickly. Got individual talks and had to write our own children's book. Interesting. Then practiced public speaking. I speak so fast that I run out of things to talk about then I look bad. My ass needs to slow the fuck down when talking. ._. Skits, ahahah. Funny. More internship talk. Then we got our paychecks today! (: Took the BART but my card got demagnetized. Fuuuuck. It still had 20 or so dollars in it. -__- Had to fill my other one. Good thing I had 2 dollars with me. UGH. Thanks to my Melanie, Andres, Lorenzo, Julie, and Vanessa for waiting for me though. (: Got home and yeah. Oh noes, don't want to go to the dentist tomorrow. I haven't been wearing my retainers 24/7. Not even close. Fuuuck.