Today...

Today started out normal. School was normal. Well, at least the first half of it. Had to write a poem in Lam's class. People told me it was 'emo'. I don't give a fuck. Lunch was normal. Was with Mimi, we sat in the middle of the quad cause we're cool like that. And we made people do things with our imaginary powers. But they actually worked! I was pretty shocked. LOL. Health was normal. Time went by soo slowly, i just read the whole period. I sat in Mimi's seat in Mr.Ellet's to wait for her and she finally comes in what seemed like forever. Okay heres where it starts going bad. So in Physics, gossiped but my mind was somewhere else... i showed her my poem and she said it was deep.

Forgotten words and Empty promises
The lies they feed you drag you in,
like the waves taking in the sand
They make you believe all the lies
Get your hopes up just to have them die
But separate yourself from all the rest
And remember, the bad things only happen to the best.

Yep, that;s it. I struggled to finish cause i couldn't get into the 'depressed' mood. So i sat alone and finished the poem. Problem is, i couldn't seem to get out of the mood, I couldnt smile anymore. I didnt know what was happening. They wouldnt last for more than two seconds and i could feel how fake they looked. So i gave up on smiling, pretended to space out.  Tears actually filled my eyes, i had no idea what was wrong with me. All i knew was to keep it together. I wanted to get out of there.Was i having a breakdown? My smiles never fail me. The bell rung and i was outta there the fastest i could manage.

Afterschool, i was going to hang out with the Asians but i really couldn't do it. So i left and walked home alone. Just thinking, i almost cried but i told myself to hold it together. The whole way home, i just told myself that if i cry, I'm basically worthless. I cant even hold back tears. I cried a little when i got home. Ate, talked to people. Yeah, now I'm tired.
Bye.(:

"I saw you with him today. The boy who took my place."