Happy New Year's Eve!

Going out to dinner with dad's side of the family. Kbye.

Just a few drinks to get me through the night.

I'm in love.

FNQWewerB. I can't even. I'm in love with Minho from The Maze Runner- James Dashner. If he dies, i'm going to drown myself in my tears. I just can't even.

Reading The Maze Runner & watching Skins. I don't know what to do with myself.

Feeling like craaaaaap today.

fwBNrb'nWERG Fuck you, mother nature.

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A GIRL?
WHY DO I HAVE A VAGINA? WHY IS BLOOD COMING OUT OF IT? FUUUUUU-

;sB?mersb -_____-

Kill. Yourself. Please.

That's all i want. Please. Please. Please.

Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Kill yourself. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die.

PLEASE.

Hi from Great America with awkward smiles & beautiful lights.

It was extremely cold there. My hands were so cold, they felt like they were burning &I couldn't feel my toes.

EFBNWe'bnefbAWEF

I hate my hair so so much.

Should i grow it out or chop it off? Decisions, decisions.

lol It's Christmas and I'm wishing death on some specific people.

I'm a horrible person but i don't care.

MY FUCKING STUPID FATHER NEEDS TO STOP DRUNK DIALING ME AND SAYING STUPID ASS SHIT. He is a pathetic excuse for a human being and a waste of space. It wouldn't make the slightest difference to me if he dropped dead. All he does is sit on his lazy ass and get drunk all day. He's been unemployed for 3 fucking years and keeps making excuses for why he can't or won't get a job. Piss off. #endrant.

(:

That feeling you get when you read a extremely good book that takes you to another world and makes you forget your own problems for the time. When the characters in the book seem like friends of yours and it's just impossible to stop reading.

Just finished The Maze Runner. Neeed the second book ASAP!

I'd hate to say this on Christmas buuuut..

my grandma needs to die. The sooner the better. :D
Merry Christmas, everyone! (:

Snuggled up w/hot chocolate and a movie.

&just came back from seeing the pretty Christmas lights at Great America. Almost froze my hands and feet off. ): Pictures later? Sleeeepy.

I hate this stupid family.

Getting some of that Holiday cheer. (:

What makes me happy?

I've been feeling shitty and my posts have been negative lately so let's make a list of what makes me happy.(:

• Adventures with friends.
• Laughing 'till my cheeks hurt and my stomach hurts.
• Christmas songs!

or obnoxious singing in general. LOL.

• Theatre.
• Fooooooooooood.
• Pokemon.
• Tea &coffee.
• Shopping!
• Reading a good book.
• Bright, sunny days.
• Compliments.
• Good hair days.
• Animals.
• Cute things.
• Nail polish.
• Lazy days.
• Vacations.

Yeah, i can't think of anymore. Bye.

Christmas songs make me happy.

Why is it that I am sad on the most beautiful of days?

Maybe sad isn't the word. It's more of a "I don't give a shit about anything. Let me stay in bed all day and die."

I hope I don't wake up in the morning.


I'm going fucking crazy.

So Teresa.

I'm fucking annoyed with your dumbass so I'm going to vent.

It started when we were young. 
Younger one gets all the fucking attention. 
Younger one gets all the love.
Younger one gets whatever she wants. 
Younger one gets fucking picked and fought over by both parents in the divorce. Yeah, I'm still bitter.
Younger is always the favorite. Don't even try to deny it. Shut your fatass up cause you know it's true.
It's more convenient. She looks up to you. Well, she doesn't know better. Fucking bullshit.
It pisses me off when you do something that I claim to be mine. I like a specific type of music, so do you. I started playing guitar, you did too. I started singing, whoopdeefuckingdoo. Guess who else started. And now Theatre. REALLY? Oh, I got a role in the musical blahblah. Get the fuck out.
Oh, another 4.0 on my report card. Oh, I'm applying for SOTA. Oh, in going to Lowell. OKAY BITCH, I fucking get it.
I'm fucking used to being second best. 

&you're never gonna read this because although you're up in your friends shit 24/7, you never have the decency to check up on me.

Maybe it's time to get some sleep. Fuck this shit.

Whatever i do, you just have to do better, right?

Fuck you. Drop dead, bitch.

Thank god for cheat sheets.

The thing is, i wrote all that i needed to and i have the whole backside. ._.

Jessica is not a happy girl right now.

All work and no play makes Jessica a dull girl.

I am too fucking stressed right now. I'm regretting that I didn't study. There is just nothing good about today. It's cold. I don't have Theatre. Finals are tomorrow. Jeez. This needs to end. I can't wait until finals are over and it's break time. My grades are suffering. ._. I don't know what to do with myself right now.

Oh but I found something funny in Mimi's planner. LOL.

Kbye.

OoS Youth Summit. (:

Great day today.

Got there at 11:00 to help set up. Rehearsal, i was soooooo hungry. Got food afterwards and watched the performances. Children dancing. Truthtopia. Alfie tried to liven the crowd by clapping but it only worked a little bit. Some of the kids looked so happy dancing. D'aww. How precious. LOL when we were watching Trithtopia, the father was black, the mom was white, an the kid was Hispanic. I told Nick and he was like "STFU I'm filming." I'm an idiot.(: The crowd is way too dry. I cut my legs up and i don't know how. ._. Really proud of the Theatre kids. There were definitely some mess ups and room for improvement but still. Proud of myself too. I gave it my all today. Dry ass crowd though. Me &Katherine tried to liven it. Walked with Edgar &Teresa after. Teresa took some soda with her before she left too! LOL. We had good talks. From hobo piss perfume to the past and the future to socialism and the world. I miss him so much! He's so grown up now. (': He has his shit together. I wish i did. q/vfnvwQEFN. He waited for the 14L with me and then left. Teresa recorded our whole performance and I'm watching it over and over. (: Went to Walgreens then went home.

WERBNweb. Need to study for finals but I'm way too lazy. ._.

I kind of like this one.

._.

I'm too fucking stressed out.

SATprep.
YAB.
Coro.
Performance.
Finals.
Homeowork.

All in one week.

Please come sooner, winter break.

Does she look at you the way i do; try to understand the words that you say and the way that you move?
Does she get the same big rush when you go in for a hug and your cheeks brush?

Am i crazy?

I hate not being perfect.

I don't take criticism well. ._.

Are you wishing you were ugly like me?

Stage lights will be the death of me.

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like

Why dont you like me?
Why dont you like me without making me try?

Let it snow.

So me and the kids at my SATprep class rearranged "Let it Snow" to Tits on Me. (without the L) Laughed so hard. LOL.

Terrible fucking day.

Woke up early and got yelled at. Had to eat at some place I fucking hate. Went to SATprep for math. Didn't understand shit. Cramps and headache. Kept us after for a few minutes so I missed my bus and had to wait half an hour for another one. In the dark. In the cold. Feeling weak and dizzy, along with cramps and headache. Nice to know my family couldn't care less. And knowing I have to do a motherfucking essay when I get home. Fuck my life.

I just really wish I were dead right now.

Don't listen to the voices in your head.

Listen to your heart.

1 week till my performance.

2 classes. 7 days.

I currently hate everything about my part. Eqrng;woebriS{V.

WHY DOES THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN?! -__-

Finished driver's ed! (:

Now i get to drive with my mama for about 4 months or so then take the driving test for my license. (: Yayayay.

Retail therapy, anyone?(:

Realization.

This is the first time in my life that I've been scared over financial issues. It just occurred to me how much my mom spent for us to get by and live a normal life. She tries so hard to make it seem that we're well off and that we're doing okay but she's actually taking money out of her savings every month just to make it. My heart is heavy because i think of how much money she has spent on me lately and how difficult it must be for her. Single mom, raising two kids. Plus her parents. With a salary of a waitress. She tries so hard to make me have a normal life, of a family with both a mom and a dad. And cause i don't have that, she gives me double the love. I just don't fucking realize it sometimes.

And i feel like such a burden. If i weren't so stupid, she wouldn't have to spent $1000 on prep classes. If i weren't such in a rush to drive, she wouldn't have to spent $200 on a driving teacher. If i weren't so greedy, she wouldn't have to give me $75 for allowance every month. If i weren't so dependent, she wouldn't have to waste gas and drive me around everywhere. If i weren't so lazy, i could walk places instead of bus, which she has to spend $20 on every month. If i weren't so fucking inconsiderate, she wouldn't have to spend so much money every month for my phone bill. If i weren't so fucking greedy, i wouldn't take the money she offers me for my grades.

I'm so thankful for her.

I hate myself. I'm so ashamed. I honestly think that she'd be so much better off if I weren't born. But it's too late now. If it ended now, she'd have wasted 16 year for nothing and that's something I can't do to her.

And she says she's proud of me but I don't deserve it.

Hi. I have frootloops and i'm pretty excited.

Hi guise.

Me and all these dinosaurs blazing blunts tonight. Me and all these dinosaurs getting stoned tonight.

LOL. Trevor Moore. (:

I'm gonna start driving in less than an hour!

ef'jEQ:EBJERBnmerbregjw

I bit my tongue really hard.

And started tearing up. )': LOL.

UCBerk w/Coro &Musical. (:

I went to UCBerkeley with Coro today. When i went to take the bus, it said it would come in 22 minutes. AE:GNv. Then after a while, it said it would take longer. I decided to speed walk instead and actually got to Bal BART on time! Willie didn't answer anything so me and Melanie just went. Spent about 40 minutes outside of Downtown Berk BART station just catching up with everyone and waiting.

k i don't feel like blogging anymore. LOL. Just normal session. Barriers to college and how to overcome them. Scavenger hunt around school. Met cool girl named Kelsey. Went to Urban Outfitters w/Kenneth, Melanie, Vannessa, Kevin, and Steven after. They went to Starbucks and i really wanted to go but i had to go to the musical. BARTed it with an East Bay-er. Slightly awk. Dad picked me up. Cousin's house. Musical. House of Horrors. Pretty good. I liked the last one better, but this was still good. Bravo.

Went home. Showered. Ate. Essay. Slept around 12.

Lazy as fuck. Kbye.

Español

Yo quiero escribo un blog post en español sin google translate. Perdón mi Spanglish.

En la mañana, hace sol y yo piensa hace calor hoy pero esta muy frío durante el almuerzo. No me gusta la tiempo de San Francisco. En la biología, nosotros tomamos nos probetas y exámenes. Yo tomo un nota mas o menos. En el clase de español, nosotros leímos el vocabulario y practicamos mas. Homeroom, yo termino mi tarea de español. (: En la clase de Ingles, nosotros tomamos nos libros! Nosotros necesito leímos The Crucible. A almuerzo, yo paso un rato con mis amigos y nosotros vimos al performance de Drum Corp. 4th, nosotros vamos outside para filmamos nos proyecto. Es muy frío. No me gusta. 5th, nosotros miramos un película.

Después a escuela, yo voy la casa de Terrence con Erica y Benny. Terrence dime hot chocolate y oatmeal. Son rica. Nosotros jugamos a Wii y Super Mario. Soy muy muy muy mal a la game. Es muy comico y triste. Jugamos para 45 minutos y yo necesito voy mi casa para comer la cena. Todos de personas fue conmigo.

Hoy es no un mal dia.

Gonna spend the next two years with this baby.

(: <3

meh.

APBio, water labs.
Spanish, new vocab.
English, no more DEAR. Awhh. I actually liked wasting 20 minutes in the beginning of class to read. Plus, I'm one DEAR journal behind. D:
Media Arts, drew. Storyboards. My drawings of people are hilarious because they're so bad.
Pre-Cal. Oh. My. God. Got our tests back. I did SO badly. So badly that i wanted to cry and laugh. I laughed instead. But wow. Good job getting a horrible grade in the class right away. ._. Did the quiz. Failed even though i cheated. Andy eventually helped me on one of the last questions. He wrote it on a piece of paper and gave it to me to copy. I was so thankful. My gosh. <3

Afterschol, mom picked me and sister up to go to Sunset for their dentist appointment. Gave me $5 to buy shit at Safeway. Yay. Went to Bal for 8th graders day or whatever. Boring stuff. Went home. Got mad at my mom. When i get mad at her, i think horrible thoughts and make terrible wishes that i would take back when I'm cooled down. LOL.

kbye. Need to sleep.

Someone, anyone; find the passion that i once thought would last forever.

11-12- now?

Saturday.

My sister's birthday but she didn't even spend it with us. I was pretty depressed during the day. I don't know. I'm always bitching and depressed about one thing or another. Mom bought me a slice of cake and it wasn't that good. SAT. Went to eat with dad afterwards along with Teresa. Went home. Needed to write 3 essays. After i finished one, i baked brownies to procrastinate. Spent an hour picking out walnuts from the walnut brownie mix. LOL. I win.

Sunday.

Out to eat. Finished my essay while eating. Food stains everywhere. LOL. No money. ._. Stabucks afterwards! Peppermint mocha. (: Oh, how i love the Starbucks holiday drinks. Been 3 months since i've had any type of coffee. Felt so nice. Improved my mood so much. SAT. Went home. Had to pee so fucking bad while on the bus and the fucking bus driver was driving at a fucking snail's pace. Like really? -__- Ranting and raging in my head the entire time.

Monday.

School is normal. Theatre, rehearsal for the performance. It's shit with the whole group. Where is my time to shine? -__- Monologue, something? Herp derping all day, like usual. Excuse me if Theatre brings out a repulsive, energetic, unprofessional, childlike side to me. ._. I sometimes wish i could as serious in class as i think i am. I'm craving a good monologue to memorize. School's been really light on the homework lately. But shitload for SAT shit.

kbye.

Staying up to write 3 essays. ._.

Too fucking tired right now. I'm the biggest procrastinator ever. I spent an hour picking out walnuts out of a walnut brownie mix. LOL.

2/3 done. Sigh.

11.11.11

Woke up from a weird dream &my alarm clock rang just when i was about to do a trick that someone said would kill me. Right at the interesting part. -__- Woke up and it was raining. FUCKK. The one day i want it not to rain, it does. And it's the only day it rained the whole week. Are you kidding me? Life hates me. LOL.

Decided to go DT anyway for my sister's day. Denny's. Kind of bad service. Slow. But they gave us the wrong check- a check for one person's order. Like half the price of my order. So kay, their mistake. Then went to get lost a little. Disney store. Urban Outfitters. Everything here is so expensive, but i loved everything. I miss that dress. T__T Forever 21. Westfield. Was too tired so we just got Jamba Juice and sat around. Then decided to leave and i was bummed that nothing turned out the way i wanted it to. It was only around 4 and i planned to go home around 7. Decided to go watch a movie. First time in 3 or so years. LOL. Watched Jack and Jill. It was okay. Only watched it cause of Adam Sandler.

Right when we went outside, the bus came. Got off at Persia and walked to HBBQ. Spam masubi. (: Yum. Got home. Ate. Ate dinner. Trying to do SAT work. T__T Need to write 3 essays tomorrow. Fuck my life.

Happy Veteran's day.

Getting better.

Wednesday,school. Then went to eat with Carmen at HBBQ and then went to Quickly to get drinks. Omg, saw Gio on Mission! Caught up with him a little bit and exchanged the typical conversation when you haven't seen someone in a while. Miss him though. Mkay, Quickly's. Talking smack about the bitchy ass workers. ._. Then walked her home and headed to OoS. Genesis saw me and got off the bus and we walked together. Talked about anxiety and apparently, I'm not alone. I just really don't want to get it diagnosed because it'll be so much more real that something is wrong with me. But I think I'm ready.

Class was okay. Funny. Special ed voices and faces. LOL. Practiced the performance part a little. It was okay. I'm just hoping i get some stage time. Wow, I'm really all that I care about. LOL. Laughed a lot because of Alyssa dancing on us. Like i can't even. Then went home and ate yummy food. Talked to my madre and she let me sleep in her room with her. (:

Thursday.

Classes were shorter and we had an assembly. Sat with Mimi and the whole shit was so retarded. LOL. In 4th, Lee let us go outside to film so i just skipped 6th period. It was 30 minutes and i didn't wanna deal with math. Plus, i was craving Quickly. So yeah, i left and told my mom i had a headache. She didn't even care that i was leaving school anyway so whatever. LOL. Bought me and my mom Quickly to surprise her and then walked halfway home to take care of my grandpa.

Took the bus to DT with my madre. We are cheater cheaters. The bus was bouncing so much and my bladder was like imploding. T__T &a Mexican was staring at us the whole time. Got there and walked around. Pissed. Signed in. Bean bags! Got comfortable and waited for people to come. Ohgawd. My mom socialized. ._. Now everyone thinks she's cute. D: Watched the movie. Mom fell asleep during the beginning and then started watching at the end. I fell asleep at the end. LOL. Too comfortable. Comfortable bean bags + boring movie = knocked out Jessica. Afterwards, we went to eat sushi because we were hungry and the busses were trolling. Trolled again. Said 30 minutes but came in 5. Got home. Omg, random payment check people. Scared us for a minute but it was all goooood. Went home. Showered. Did a SATprep test thing.

Goodnight! Gonna head back DT in the morning. (:

You know I'm hitting rock bottom when i don't give two fucks about my final performance which is coming up soon.

Performing used to be the highlight of my life.

I have no friends.

How i spent my weekend:

Apple cider shots with my sister. Yep. LOL.

Hoy es lunes el 7 de noviembre de 2011.

When i woke up, it was actually bright outside. Nice for a change. School was normal. Got a text from Amy asking if i could go speak to the youth commission about our final event though. Afterschool, oh awk. Wasn't expecting that. OoS, pointless stuff. I'm so unenthusiastic about Theatre now. Fuuuck. I used to be so excited about going and it would put me in a much better mood than when i went in. Maybe it's the people. I miss everyone from previous classes. Especially Mireya, Gio, and Edgar. Oh well. Left during break.

Rafa drove us to City Hall and we basically waited and sat there for over an hour listening to long and boring powerpoint presentations. Me and Jessica just did homework. LOL. I really lightweight studied for math and did a sentence or two for Spanish. When it was our turn to present, we kept it short and sweet. One guy in the commission was a total cutiepie. Reminded me of _____ because of his hair. &He had a sense of humor. Did i mention that he was adorable? And i got his business card. Score! LOL. Not like i'll ever call him or contact him or anything. ): Hopefully I'll see him again at our final event because he said he got our backs for it. Hehe. Cuteeee. <3

Rafa drove me close to Mission &24th. Got lightweight lost for a minute and my mom kept confusing me even more. Let me tell you, being lost at night around Mission &24th is not a good thing. No no no. Especially when it's daylight savings and it's darker than usual. Went home and ate. Messed around with sister. Laughs about the stupidest things possible. LOL.

I guess it's time to hit the hay. Today was a decent day. (:

I'm fucking trying.

lunes y martes.

Monday.

Mondays are always hard. Here we go again. I'm so sick of this. Cut my losses. Kbye.

That might've not made any sense but yeah. Didn't feel like Halloween. Kind of wished i had a costume but not enough to go get one. Theatre, tried to be quieter because i have a feeling I annoy Freddy a lot. People asked why i was so quiet. LOL. Wanted to go trick-or-treating but no costume. ): Genesis says she'll give me her candy. Tooooo sweet. LOL.

Tuesday.

Samesame. I feel like i don't write good blogs anymore because nothing important ever happens to me. And plus, i have my journal to write important stuff in. School is the same. Trying to get by each and everyday and I'm so sick of this shit.

I'm sick of high school. Really wish this year would end. Senior year, too. Fuck high school and all your bullshit.

Mom picked me up after school and bought me ice-cream. Omg, and Popeyes cause it was Tuesday! Me being racist in Popeyes though. LOL. "Hakgwais" "SHHHH." "-chocolate people-" "That's better." LOL. Oh ma. (: But yeah.

Wednesday, please be better. Not likely, but I'm hoping.

Oh well.

Guess it's time to cut my losses.

SatSun.

Saturday, had SAT classes bright and early. Got there at exactly 8:59. Pro. LOL. Time went by pretty quickly. Mostly learned about essay writing. Wasn't as bad as i thought. Mom picked me up at 1 and we went to eat. Went to Milbrae after to the cellphone place. Stayed there for a long time because my mom talks too much. LOL. Guess I'm getting an iPhone 4s instead of an iphone 4. LOL thanks, i guess. It didn't really matter to me. But my phone is gonna be coming in like a week to a month. -__- Oh well.

Sunday. Went to Stonestown first to buy me and my mom a journal to write in. I got to the SAT place at 1 when class started at 2. Managed my time poorly. LOL. Decided to walk around by myself after complaining to my mom about it. Bought Arizona and just walked around for half an hour. Class was okay. English is pretty easy to me so nothing too surprising. Just need to learn vocab. I'm screwed for the math though. ._.

Got home at 7. Regretted wearing a dress. Coldcoldcold at night. Headache + tired.
Pretty productive weekend.

I want to sleep now.

These two babies are the highlight of my day.

Why am i so lazy and uninspired?

I don't know what it is.

But people with disabilities make my heart hurt so much. Blind, deaf, handicap, mentally ill, whatever. I cry for them.

Maybe I'm too soft-hearted.

November, please come soon.

I need a fresh start. Everything is in a weird way falling apart and coming together at the same time and I've been as lost as ever.

I'm extremely impatient.

And when i get excited about something, i want to do it right away. I'm so bad with waiting.

Your lips look so lonely.

Would they like to meet mine?

I just feel so alone lately.

Bad day turned good.

Today felt like it was going to be a horrible day. Didn't want to go to school or OoS because my lips were so swollen and ugly today. Major confidence drainer. Didn't even wear my contacts and iced my lip the whole morning. Spanish, meh. Walker, meh. Lunch, played football with Jasmine's coffee cookies. Devine, meh. LOL.

Afterschool, Edgar texted me asking what time class was. Went with Jasmine, Kelly, and Jonathan to Kelly's casa to get a basketball. Man, i'm so out of shape. Played a little catch with the football with Jasmine. Finally left. Kelly was trying to get rid of us. LOL. Embarrassed by us. Went to the gas station to fill it up. They went to play and i had to go. Went home, ate a little food. My mom brought me to Optometrist.

Edgar texted me and told me to meet him in front of OoS cause he didn't wanna walk in alone. Class was mucho fun with him. Our sub was a dancer so he taught us a little bodily movement thing. Awk cause the first thing we did was spell out our name with our body. LOL. Break, went to talk to Rafa, Amy, and Alfie with Edgar. Went back to class and did this dance thingy. Funny. Me, Genesis, and Edgar ran away after class cause we didn't wanna put the tables back. "Mexicans, run!" I'm Jexican. LOL. Walked him to BART and left. Mom picked me up and went home.

My C+ raised to a B in APBio and i am mucho happy because of that. Ugh, can't screw up tomorrow's R&P quiz though. I'm not remembering the words. WENfwergvm. Fuck my life. I need to sleep now too. Kbye.

I love my mommy cause she takes care of me.(:

Hi, i want to go shopping again.

Too bad i'm broke. &have no time to.

I really really really wish that $200 would magically appear in my wallet.

Needa catch some zzzz's.

Tired the whole day. Almost fell asleep in multiple classes.

APBio, presentation.
Spanish, sub.
English, presentation. Met the author of 'Packing for Mars'. Kinda interested in reading that now. The author was funny. So graphic about taking a shit in space. LOL.
Lunch was lunch. Don't remember much.
4th, continued watching movie.
5th, nothing as usual.
6th, notes &classwork.

Theatre, didn't participate at all today. Way too tired. Break, followed a cat around and sang its theme song. "Bitches luuuhv me cus I'm a cat." LOL. Self eval. Wrote about trolls the rest of the day.

Now I'm trying to finish some homework and sleeeeeep.

Bye guise.

Picture to make up for my crappy post?

Retail therapy!(:

Woke up at around 9 or 10 on sleeping on my bed the wrong way. Oh right. Fell asleep watching Futurama. Got up at 11 and got my sister up 30 minutes later. Got dressed and left. LOL busses really hate us today. Felt kinda insecure cause yeah. ._. Eventually got there and went to Sephora. I saw the prettiest pink nail polish, but there weren't any left. ): I think it's called Seeing Pink Elephants. I've been wanting to get a pink nail polish toooo. Painted my nails with it and painted my sister's nails.

Stayed in Sephora for such a long time till my mom came. LOL. Finally left and went to Hot Topic. Wanted to get the Hipster panties, the hello kitty throw, and the Hello Kitty footie pajamas. Oh, and the hello kitty lanyard. :D Decided to come back later if i had money left cause i really just wanted clothes. DeMasque, got boots and a cute blazer. Wet Seal, nada. Went to another store for a scarf. (: Warm and cozy. So ready for the winter time.(: Got some Italian food for lunch. Mm. American Eagle, omg. I wanted the journal thing so badly but decided to come back if i had money left. Shopped more. Then remembered what i needed to buy from Sephora and got moisturizer. Then i used up all my money. ): Still want the stuff from Hot Topic and the cute journal from A&E. Must come back with more money!

Today was fun though. Doesn't feel like a Sunday, feels like a Saturday. I'm broke and satisfied.(:

Alcatraaaaaz~

My face is better today. LOL.

Woke up early and had to go to SATprep to take the test. Erm, so many grammatical mistakes and slow writing today. ._. Dude, towards the end of it, i had to take a shit so badly. LOL TMI? Mom picked me up after and bought me sushi. Drove me to Embarcadero. She couldn't find the pier so she made me get out and find it myself. Are you fucking kidding me? then she found it and told me to walk back to her car so she can drive me. WOW fuck you. Saw Genesis. Then Juan. Then Jessica and Stacy came so we went in the shop to look at overpriced food. Vitamin water and regular water= $5 +tax. Seriously? LOL. Then William came, then Freddy with his wife and daughter. Awhh. (:

Got on the ship, had a slight headache and was annoyed. It was soooooooooooooo windy. Stop being so enthusiastic. I'm trying to chill. LOL. Wished i was ____, would've been fun. But then Genesis said that i'd be tripping and being scared as fuck. True. Walked up the hill. Complaining cause we're out of shape. Got there and it was scary. Like wtf. The chick looked possessed &the actors were laying down on the floor in a chain. WAT. Grabbed on to Genesis &William the whole time. Creepy shit doe.

Basically, the actors didn't even have dialogue, it was all about the body and the movements they made. Related to class a lot. When they started singing, omg. It was really beautiful. I didn't expect it to be that good. My favorite part of the night was the fire show. Tooooo beautiful. I thoroughly enjoyed it.. The bitched more about it being cold. Starved. Went inside and sat to chill. Then Stacy would come and ruin the moment. We tryna chill, breh. -__- Group picture, then went back on the boat. Talked about the performance with Freddy. Overall, i liked the experience of going to Alcatraz and the fire show was breathtaking. And i liked the way the actors communicated with us only using their bodies and no dialogue. But i've seen better performances.

Got a ride from Jessica's mom. Got off at Mission &Geneva w/Genesis. She walked up and i waited for the 14. Saw My. Got home and ate. I'm tired and about to knock out soon. &No SATprep tomorrow! YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. I'm happy.

I feel bad for being so mean to you when you're so nice to me. .__.

I had fun today. Sweet dreams, world.

My face is itching and burning &I'm breaking out with small bumps everywhere.

Ohnoo. -___- Mom says i need to poop more. LOL.

Night guys.

Fiesta fiesta, si!

So tired in the morning. ): Bio, pretty fun with Chemistry stuff. Ahaha. Spanish, me and Carmen were singing 'Friday' by Rebecca Black in Spanish. Well..i was mostly. I was translating it and she was laughing. LOL. Siete en la manaña, me levant. Necesito comer cereal. Voy a autobus. Yo miro mi amigos~. Fiesta fiesta si! Fiesta fiesta si! Divertido, divertido, divertido, divertido. LMFAO. I'm too cool for words. Homeroom, caught up on last Friday's do now. Annotated Ceremony because I'm cool and a kiss up. Lunch, omg. Played basketball and baseball with Jamsine and Edel. Funniest shit ever. We're so creative. :D So fun because Edel kept trying to hit Jasmine's nuts. On accident though. Ahahaha.

Lee, watched Fallen Angels. Learned about camera angles. I see what he means. Really pretty shots. Walker, did nothing for the first half of period then took some notes. I can't even learn like that cause it's basically paragraphs, not notes. If i wanted to read paragraphs, i'd read the book. ._. Afterschool, walked with Jasmine, Kelly, Stanley and them. Tried to kick Stanley's thigh cause he said it hurt. I am the biggest bully ever. (:

I'm tired so goodnight!

Like we used to.

Will she love you like i loved you?
Will she tell you every day?
Will she make you feel invincible with every word she'll say?

Much love to the homosexual homies.

It gets better; promise.

Hi. I got my permit. (:

yayayayayay.

Theatre made me think.

So tired today because i had trouble falling asleep last night. :/ Surprised that i survived the day. So tired and sleepy.): And bored too! I think I'm going to sign up and join Ms.Dave's honor class thing. Basically, it's the same class with more work and a harder grading rubric thing. Something tells me that i'm going to regret this. ._.

Theatre was so so so good. First thing he did was make us talk about ourselves nonstop. We couldn't stop to think or anything. Just talk. Don't think. That was one lesson i learned today. I also learned that the best way to act is to not act. Acting makes it look fake. And when it's fake, it's boring. We also learned to focus and to listen. Most times, we only care about ourselves. Actors are extremely egotistic- which i find to be so true. We are. You can't be an actor if you have low self-esteem as you get rejected a billion times. Did a focusing game with a tongue twister. Break. Addicting chips. LOL.

Class, did some improv scenes and learned about status. In a drama, people are constantly taking back status and power. In comedies, they are constantly giving up their status. Oh. Hardest scene i've done in my life. "If you have an emotion reaction to this, show it. If not, then don't fake it." Don't think. Don't act. &People in life are always fighting for status and power. Makes so much sense.

Show in Alcatraz on Saturday. FML. Have first day of SAT prep. Man, too many things to do, too little time. :/ Need to take my permit test at DMV soon too. ._. Too much on my plate right now. And it's only increasing. K, gonna try to study for my APBio midterm now. Bye.

When dork meets caffeine..

This is how you know something's wrong.

Junk food, chocolate, ice-cream, stupid girly magazines, and a pathetic attempt to do something with my life. In this case, organize it.

De Young!(:

Fieldtrip today. Yayay.

First period, practiced free responses whole day. Kinda glad we had first period. Can't afford to miss a day. FML, midterms next week. Field trip! Took the 43 there. Bought Arizona at the corner store. Needed to pee SOOOO badly when we got to the museum. Ran into the bathroom when i put my shit down and took a fat piss. LOL. I'm attractive.. Walked around w/Mimi the whole time. Me gusta the abstract art. :D

Nah, i like the nude ones the best. (: There was one with all gay people. ME GUSTA! Got kinda lost? Explored more and talked. Art museum. What else is there to do? Afterwards, walked to Irving to get Japanese food. Went to Kiki's. (: Teriyaki Udon &coke. YUM. Filled us up. Then we spent hella time in the thrift store next door. Dude, it's so cool. It has such cute things that other places don't have. And they have the CUTEST vintage looking journals and knee high socks. I found lace leggings i kinda liked and Mimi found cute knee-high socks. But she didn't like the toe socks part. WHAT. Cutest part though. :/ Definitely will be back with more money next time!

Took the 43 with Mimi being high. Translating my words and being so thirsty and tired. WTH. LOL. Went to Walgreens to buy some hair ties. I got those cute little recycled pens too. :D Mimi bought some loofahs. LOLWUT. Then took the 14 home. Spent $20 today. :/ Hoping to spend more money tomorrow. :D





I just love these pens so much. LOL.