Friday, January 27, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
We fell by the wayside, and slowly watched ourselves die.
A lonely death in which no one cared and no one came.
When the falls cave in, we only have ourselves to blame.
Oh, Mayday Parade. They always have this bittersweet way of making myself pity and dislike myself. Makes me feel depressed and hopeful at the same time.
A lonely death in which no one cared and no one came.
When the falls cave in, we only have ourselves to blame.
Oh, Mayday Parade. They always have this bittersweet way of making myself pity and dislike myself. Makes me feel depressed and hopeful at the same time.
Monday, January 23, 2012
I need to get on top of my shit.
This week is going to be so busy.
Wednesday- OoS starts again.
Friday- Mime Troupe Interview.
Saturday- SAT
Sunday- Show w/Theatre veterans.
I need to stop putting shit off and start studying.
Wednesday- OoS starts again.
Friday- Mime Troupe Interview.
Saturday- SAT
Sunday- Show w/Theatre veterans.
I need to stop putting shit off and start studying.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Friday, January 20, 2012
A few words to sum up the week.
Anxiety. Exhaustion. Insecurity. Excitement. More anxiety.
Old friends. Middle name obsessions. DOUGLAS.
Professional side showed itself once again.
Stress. Rain. Escape.
Old friends. Middle name obsessions. DOUGLAS.
Professional side showed itself once again.
Stress. Rain. Escape.
boooooks.
I've already read 5 books this month. Ohay. My resolution was to read 10 books this year. I've read 6 in a month. (: I'll switch it to 12 so one book a month.
I'm happy I'm keeping this resolution.
The Scorch Trials.
The Death Cure.
The Hunger Games.
Catching Fire.
Mokingjay.
&I reread the first two books of the Series of Unfortunate events but i counted it as one book because it was short and I've read it a billion times before.
I'm happy I'm keeping this resolution.
The Scorch Trials.
The Death Cure.
The Hunger Games.
Catching Fire.
Mokingjay.
&I reread the first two books of the Series of Unfortunate events but i counted it as one book because it was short and I've read it a billion times before.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Yep.
Just keep the bad news coming.
Well there's one positive thing: I have a Mime Troupe interview next Friday.
Psh, who needs to travel to different countries when you have Theatre?
I'm kind of bitter.
Well there's one positive thing: I have a Mime Troupe interview next Friday.
Psh, who needs to travel to different countries when you have Theatre?
I'm kind of bitter.
Die. Die. Die. Die. Please die.
PLEASE die, grandma. I'm counting the days. Just please. It would make my life.
I'm a horrible person, but i don't even care. I've been saying this for 5 years now. And if it would work, i would go on my knees and beg for you to die. Yaknow, get run over by a car or something. I would smile every morning knowing you're out of my life.
I remember in 7th grade, i told you that I'd laugh my ass off when you died. And that I'd dance on your grave. 11th grade me sticks by that 100%.
LOL I'm sick, i know. I'm just so full of hatred.
I'm a horrible person, but i don't even care. I've been saying this for 5 years now. And if it would work, i would go on my knees and beg for you to die. Yaknow, get run over by a car or something. I would smile every morning knowing you're out of my life.
I remember in 7th grade, i told you that I'd laugh my ass off when you died. And that I'd dance on your grave. 11th grade me sticks by that 100%.
LOL I'm sick, i know. I'm just so full of hatred.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Iceskating,Disney store, fish &chips, &PENIS at downtown at night.
Last night was absolutely amazing but I'll talk more about it later.
So I knew it was going to be a good day from the start because i found out that Jack was going and i haven't seen him in ages! In APBio, Ms.T gave us glow in the dark shape thingies, let us glue sparkly stars all period, and postponed the quiz.(: Afterschool, i went home for a little while to eat then headed to Edgar's. We watched half an hour of a Pokemon movie in spanish, then went. Walked half of the way because we were lazy to wait for busses. Waited for a while, then more people started showing up. I was so scared going into the ice rink at first but got the hang of it after a while. Then my skates started scratching my leg and feet. I endured it a little more and skated for about an hour. Fun fun fun fun. Edgar kept on trying to make me fall or crash. Ass. That reminds me; ass ass ass ass. Bad influence. ._. I'm addicted to saying that now.
After iceskating, we decided to go grab a bite but went to the Disney store first. A bunch of teenagers getting overly excited in the Disney store at 8pm. Cool kids, for sure. Walked around for a long time because we're undecided about what we wanted to eat. Finally, me and Jessica just decided to get fish and chips and the others followed suit. Edgar left cause he didn't eat anything. We finished eating and talking but we didn't want to leave. Went back to market and Jack and I started playing the Penis game. I WON. So when a fire truck went by blaring it's sirens, i waited until it went right past me and screamed it at the top of my lungs. HAHAHAHAHHA. He thinks it's cheating but i think it's fair game. (: We waited for Jessica's bus with her then Jack waited with me for mine.
Got home around 10 and did Spanish hw and slept.
GREATGREATGREATGREAT NIGHT. (:
My whole body is sore from the chest down, I'm walking on a limp, and risked losing my voice playing the penis game, but last night was just <33333.
So I knew it was going to be a good day from the start because i found out that Jack was going and i haven't seen him in ages! In APBio, Ms.T gave us glow in the dark shape thingies, let us glue sparkly stars all period, and postponed the quiz.(: Afterschool, i went home for a little while to eat then headed to Edgar's. We watched half an hour of a Pokemon movie in spanish, then went. Walked half of the way because we were lazy to wait for busses. Waited for a while, then more people started showing up. I was so scared going into the ice rink at first but got the hang of it after a while. Then my skates started scratching my leg and feet. I endured it a little more and skated for about an hour. Fun fun fun fun. Edgar kept on trying to make me fall or crash. Ass. That reminds me; ass ass ass ass. Bad influence. ._. I'm addicted to saying that now.
After iceskating, we decided to go grab a bite but went to the Disney store first. A bunch of teenagers getting overly excited in the Disney store at 8pm. Cool kids, for sure. Walked around for a long time because we're undecided about what we wanted to eat. Finally, me and Jessica just decided to get fish and chips and the others followed suit. Edgar left cause he didn't eat anything. We finished eating and talking but we didn't want to leave. Went back to market and Jack and I started playing the Penis game. I WON. So when a fire truck went by blaring it's sirens, i waited until it went right past me and screamed it at the top of my lungs. HAHAHAHAHHA. He thinks it's cheating but i think it's fair game. (: We waited for Jessica's bus with her then Jack waited with me for mine.
Got home around 10 and did Spanish hw and slept.
GREATGREATGREATGREAT NIGHT. (:
My whole body is sore from the chest down, I'm walking on a limp, and risked losing my voice playing the penis game, but last night was just <33333.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Thursday, January 5, 2012
I finished The Scorch Trials.
I feel like i lost a good friend. I wanted to finish it, but i didn't want it to end. )':
Need to get book #3 ASAP. The Death Cure! (:
Need to get book #3 ASAP. The Death Cure! (:
I'm going to be so frustrated when we have to write a play for CAST. I can act, I'm okay with writing a novel, but i can't write plays. I just simply can't. Note to self: ask Freddy.
Maybe i can do this. It can't be the worst, considering the academic capacity of my classmates. Some can barely speak properly, let alone write a piece of literature.
Maybe i can do this. It can't be the worst, considering the academic capacity of my classmates. Some can barely speak properly, let alone write a piece of literature.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
No one cares about my hair so please disregard.
I've been wanting to get straight bangs for a while but i haven't really considered it until now. But i kind of like my bangs right now. It's like a love/hate relationship. One day, i will hate it and the next day i will like it. ._. I guess I'll let my hair grow out and if i want to cut it, i'll do it over the summer so that i can grow it out if i don't like it or keep it if i do.
I'm just so bored with my hair. I'm thinking of getting hot pink highlights. Buuuut at the same time, i wanted to grow out my hair so that i can have my natural hair color. I haven't been natural since middle school. LOL. And i haven't had straight bangs since my awkward years in elementary school. Decisions, decisions. I'll just let it grow out for now and decide what to do with the color during Winter Break and what to do with my bangs during the summer.
Yeah. No one cares. Okay bye.
I'm just so bored with my hair. I'm thinking of getting hot pink highlights. Buuuut at the same time, i wanted to grow out my hair so that i can have my natural hair color. I haven't been natural since middle school. LOL. And i haven't had straight bangs since my awkward years in elementary school. Decisions, decisions. I'll just let it grow out for now and decide what to do with the color during Winter Break and what to do with my bangs during the summer.
Yeah. No one cares. Okay bye.
Monday, January 2, 2012
UARGH.
I've already said this but I'm so in love with Minho from The Maze Runner series. SNERBKergiohgSDFG.
This is sad. Maybe i should go love real people.LOL sike.
This is sad. Maybe i should go love real people.
k i caved. More resolutions.
LOL. It just makes me feel productive, okay?! ):
Be more organized.
See good in people rather than bad.
Read at least 10 books.
Sleep at before 12:00am every school day.
I think these are easy enough.
Be more organized.
See good in people rather than bad.
Read at least 10 books.
Sleep at before 12:00am every school day.
I think these are easy enough.
Paranoia.
So I've been watching a lot of The Living Dead lately and it's not scary enough to make me not want to watch it but i would not watch it on my own. As I was trying to sleep yesterday, it caught up to me. All I could think about were Zombies. I got so paranoid that I couldn't sleep.
Mayday Parade blocked out the thoughts and got me through the night.
Mayday Parade blocked out the thoughts and got me through the night.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
New favorite monologue!
It's the very monologue from the last scene from the play 'Rumors'. That was a hilarious and amazing play and i love this monologue.
BUT.
My mouth and body and everything refuse to do the monologue correctly.
I can not make it funny even though it's suppose to be.
It's for a male character.
I talk too fast.
It's not amazing when i do it.
I HATE EVERYTHING. FDBSDFergngRG.
UGHUGHUGHUGHUGH.
BUT.
My mouth and body and everything refuse to do the monologue correctly.
I can not make it funny even though it's suppose to be.
It's for a male character.
I talk too fast.
It's not amazing when i do it.
I HATE EVERYTHING. FDBSDFergngRG.
UGHUGHUGHUGHUGH.
So I guess i should do a reflection.
Hi. Happy New Years. I don't really feel different. Like something suddenly changed when that clock struck midnight. But i still feel obliged to do a reflection on 2011.
I've grown this year- no doubt. And i may say this every year but it's noticeable and actual this time. A big part of that was because of Coro Exploring Leadership, the internship i did over the summer. They taught me to work together with other people. They taught me that nothing is too out of reach if we actual work for it- and work for it we did when we woke up at 6am to sell donuts in the freezing cold. For the sake of not arguing, the consequence would be either being left out and forgotten. I learned how to dress and how to act professionally when i got placed into a professional government internship. I learned that if you want something done, you can't wait around and hope something happens. Take action. I learned to network and exchange information in a professional and useful way to get connections- although, i admit, i hardly did this. It's not about who you know, it's about what you know. I learned to manage my time well.
I feel like i grew up a whole lot and am less dependent on my mom to get me places and such. I got my permit this year and started driving. I've lost practically all my friends but found serenity in solitude. I've become less arrogant and narcissistic. More modest, polite. I've learned that if i were to write my name on something, it should damn well be something i am proud of because it is a reflection of who i am. I learned the importance of going to college even if i don't know what i want to do with my life. I've learned the importance of family and how they are the ones who i have when i have no one else. I learned how i can trick myself into putting something off until later by assuring myself i will eventually get it done. (My plan was to study for the SATs all break. I've done zero studying and tomorrow's the last day of break and I'm pretty sure i won't be doing any then.) I've learned the importance of expressing myself.
I also learned that i never look or think about my resolutions again after i write them so I don't think i should do any this year. I guess I'll go easy on myself and do three.
Get the best grades you can.
Be more social. (To be fair, i think i am socially retarded so..)
Stop being afraid of everything. Less paranoia and anxiety, if I can help it.
kbye.
I've grown this year- no doubt. And i may say this every year but it's noticeable and actual this time. A big part of that was because of Coro Exploring Leadership, the internship i did over the summer. They taught me to work together with other people. They taught me that nothing is too out of reach if we actual work for it- and work for it we did when we woke up at 6am to sell donuts in the freezing cold. For the sake of not arguing, the consequence would be either being left out and forgotten. I learned how to dress and how to act professionally when i got placed into a professional government internship. I learned that if you want something done, you can't wait around and hope something happens. Take action. I learned to network and exchange information in a professional and useful way to get connections- although, i admit, i hardly did this. It's not about who you know, it's about what you know. I learned to manage my time well.
I feel like i grew up a whole lot and am less dependent on my mom to get me places and such. I got my permit this year and started driving. I've lost practically all my friends but found serenity in solitude. I've become less arrogant and narcissistic. More modest, polite. I've learned that if i were to write my name on something, it should damn well be something i am proud of because it is a reflection of who i am. I learned the importance of going to college even if i don't know what i want to do with my life. I've learned the importance of family and how they are the ones who i have when i have no one else. I learned how i can trick myself into putting something off until later by assuring myself i will eventually get it done. (My plan was to study for the SATs all break. I've done zero studying and tomorrow's the last day of break and I'm pretty sure i won't be doing any then.) I've learned the importance of expressing myself.
I also learned that i never look or think about my resolutions again after i write them so I don't think i should do any this year. I guess I'll go easy on myself and do three.
Get the best grades you can.
Be more social. (To be fair, i think i am socially retarded so..)
Stop being afraid of everything. Less paranoia and anxiety, if I can help it.
kbye.
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