So I guess i should do a reflection.

Hi. Happy New Years. I don't really feel different. Like something suddenly changed when that clock struck midnight. But i still feel obliged to do a reflection on 2011.

I've grown this year- no doubt. And i may say this every year but it's noticeable and actual this time. A big part of that was because of Coro Exploring Leadership, the internship i did over the summer. They taught me to work together with other people. They taught me that nothing is too out of reach if we actual work for it- and work for it we did when we woke up at 6am to sell donuts in the freezing cold. For the sake of not arguing, the consequence would be either being left out and forgotten. I learned how to dress and how to act professionally when i got placed into a professional government internship. I learned that if you want something done, you can't wait around and hope something happens. Take action. I learned to network and exchange information in a professional and useful way to get connections- although, i admit, i hardly did this. It's not about who you know, it's about what you know. I learned to manage my time well.

I feel like i grew up a whole lot and am less dependent on my mom to get me places and such. I got my permit this year and started driving. I've lost practically all my friends but found serenity in solitude. I've become less arrogant and narcissistic. More modest, polite. I've learned that if i were to write my name on something, it should damn well be something i am proud of because it is a reflection of who i am. I learned the importance of going to college even if i don't know what i want to do with my life. I've learned the importance of family and how they are the ones who i have when i have no one else. I learned how i can trick myself into putting something off until later by assuring myself i will eventually get it done. (My plan was to study for the SATs all break. I've done zero studying and tomorrow's the last day of break and I'm pretty sure i won't be doing any then.) I've learned the importance of expressing myself.

I also learned that i never look or think about my resolutions again after i write them so I don't think i should do any this year. I guess I'll go easy on myself and do three.

Get the best grades you can.
Be more social. (To be fair, i think i am socially retarded so..)
Stop being afraid of everything. Less paranoia and anxiety, if I can help it.

kbye.