Sleeping with a smile on my face.

You have so much control over my emotions..

Confessions.

I over analyze everything. Everything you do, or don't do. Every word you say, or don't say. Everything.

Confession number.. i lost track a long time ago.

(8:02:27 PM): youre a QT pie bruh(:

Saw Evan &Cheerio obsessed.

Felt super tired even after sleeping so early yesterday. Got ready, left. Saw this hot guy and i was like "Oh, he's hot." at the same time as my sister was asking me if i liked his hair. LOL, yessir, i did. Walked, saw Coco but didn't feel like making smalltalk so i walked by myself. Saw Dayana. Went to class.

Spanish- easy spelling test. Then some activity thing and Kelly thought it was me who Mimi was describing. Hell naw, that's nasty. LOL.

Gym, pickleball w/Carmen and the girls. LOL. Talked about the stupid girl who threw puppies in a lake.D:< Bitch should die.

Homeroom, me and Cary ate my cheerios! LOL. He's hella obsessed with them.XD

Bio, boring shit. Listened to music. Ate my cheerios. Took notes. Free time. Freaking Randy moved closer to me to talk to his friend. Fuckyou, gtfo. No one wants you close to them. Put my head down and music &sleep.

Lunch, don't remember much.

English was funny. Got into groups and had to make a collage for our parts of speech. JeremyL, fuck..whats his name?, and Ben. Ben wasn't here though.): Ours was Adverb. WTH is a adverbs. None of us knew. We only knew it was a word ending with a -ly. LOL. So we just made up random words with -ly. LOL. Like Strong-ly. Cool-ly. Cute-ly. Hot-ly. LMFAO. We hella just cut up whatever and BSed it. WTH is with that one Muslim guy? ROOOOFL. We didn't have enough pictures so Jeremy suggested to color the white in. Me and ... said it looked ugly. Then i whispered to them that it was the white way of doing things. Then Jeremy asked Ms.Cossick if it looked ok. She said it was good and colored it in more. Me and Jeremy were hella restraining ourselves from LMFAO-ing. I told you it was the white way of doing things! LMFAOO. It was pretty funny in this class. We still don't understand what an adverb is though.. And we have to make a powerpoint on it.. Yay.-__-

Gonzoles. Talked to Andy about his ahemahem. LOL. Worked with Wilson. This dude is funny. LOL. Listened to music. Done.

Afterschool. Went w/ Alan, Jammy, David, and Eric to KFC. Saw Evan on the 14! I just heard someone saying "LingLing!" i turned around and there he was.xD Caught up with him. Funny, LOL. He just came back from hanging out at Jericho's house. "Playing COD?" -me -ROFLMAO- -him. I don't get it.. LOL. He told me that he got a 58% but its still considered a C. WHAT? I wish. LOL. Mhm. Got off. Checked out girls at KFC. Jammy and Eric found the reason as to why hakgwais are the way they are. LOL. Jammy kept trying to mug. LOL. No, you ain't black like me.(: Then he made me leave with him and we waited for his bus. Talked, joked, ect. "Ooh, red light!" LOL. Our busses came and i hugged him goodbye. Waited for the next 14. This guy made small talk with me and asked about my shoes cause they weren't matched. Lol.

Alan, David, and Eric came and we went on the 14. Talked about bouncy seats at ChinaTown? LOL. Got off at Mission and Geneva cause lazy Alan didn't wanna get off at Lowell. Saw Crystal and Brendan. O__O Took the next 14 and forced Alan to get off with me and walk me home. My excuse was that i was gonna get raped. "That's why you don't wear shorts." LOL.-__- Thanks anyway, Alan.D: Then i went in and he headed home.

I really don't know how to feel about any of this.

"Misery is company, cause i know that its real."

The sun came out.(:

Hm.

I have crazy dreams nowadays. Like a lot of dreams in a night. I remember one about something being on fire, and while trying to put it out, i threw some shit in there that made it worse. LOL. Then something about the lottery. And that turned into a hella big deal. We got into groups and tried to win the lottery. And the guy i was working with (I forgot who you were) was telling me the plan and i was on the phone with my mom. Then some girl in the other group told me she heard my plan and was gonna tell her team about it. Then Elly found out some info and wrote on her blog some shit like "I know your secret, bitches. I will destroy your mother fucking ass." We walked and we saw Mr.Ellett and we said hi. Then he called Elly into his office. We all went and he was crying and apologizing how he made her see her counselor 'cause he feared that she would do what her blog post said. Then we were like WTF, Mr.Ellett? And turns out, he checks our blogs to see if we post anything inappropriate, violent, or depressing so he can report to our counselors. LMFAO. Awkward..

The constant feeling of wanting to cry.

I never felt this way before. I don't like it.

Todaay..

Got up and ready, blahblah. Ate. Went to school. A little sun was out.(: 14. Laughed with sister. Walked to school and realized it was really early so i started walking painfully slow. I turned around and i saw fucking Randy. So i was like "Gawd, go away." and i heard running so i get hella paranoid he'd talk to me or something. So i turned around and he was walking at a normal pace so i decided to walk fast to school so i wouldn't have to be near him. Jeez. I was enjoying my stroll.-__-

Talked to Leslie and Dayana about her stalker. LMFAO. Come to think of it, he followed me to English once but i didn't think much of it cause he's in the same class. But he came even though i took the long way. Jeez. Funny. Got breakfast with her. WTH, i saw Randy in the fucking cafeteria staring at me in the corner. GTFO, dude.

History, finished my work and slept.

Gym, random shieet. Ramirez went outside so i ran. LOL. Made Vicente walk with us and we started talking 'bout my dick and rainbows. The girl i was with left, Paulo said it was cause we hella left her out, talking about inside jokes and shiet. LOL. I'm sorry.D: Then he started making fun of my weird. I gained 5 fucking pounds, nigga.D: LOLjk. Piggybackride for like 4 steps. LOL. Scary.

Homeroom, read and got our lunch cards. Told Cary that OoS used his picture as their default. LMAO.

Holoday. Got moved to the back. Did work. Did homework. Mhmm.

Lunch, don't really remember.. LOL. Not a good lunch though.-__-

English, had sub. Mr.BONER! LOL. Did work. My tables pretty funny.xD

Gonzolez. Notes. Worked with Wilson. Well, basically, he told me what to do and i wrote it down. I was laughing like crazy. I don't even know. He was getting annoyed. LOL. Hella made fun of him and his new soulmate, Liying. Like since they sit next to each other. Making hearts when she's faced the other way. Eyeing them when they talk. LMFAO.

Afterschool. Jason made me wait with him for Nikko.-__- No rice for him 'cause he told me he got a D on his test. So he gets a burrito without the rice. LOL. And he still remembered 'Jorge'. Hella embarrassing! LOL. Nikko took hella long cause he was walking with Grace. LOL. Then they left. Told Jammy i was gonna leave but they went that way too. So walked with David, Alan, Jammy, and Eric. Fail Chinese. LOL. David, Alan, and Eric left and me and Jammy waited for his bus. No buses today. LOL. He hella PMSes on me. "Come over here." "No, you come over here!" LOL. Lazybutt. Eventually, i left cause the 88 came and i didn't feel like switching busses.(:

Didn't see stalkerDat today! You suck at stalking me, Dat.(:

"You don't know how you feel."

Why am I so stupid?

'iloveyou'

In a show of hands, who has said these words before?

And in a show of hearts on the floor, who has ever meant them more?

Josh.

You funny, bruh. LOL.

Soree.

My limbs feel like they're about to give up on me but i feel goooood. I feel less internally fat. LOL. Worth it.(:

xD

It's kind of funny how i never notice when guys are trying to get my attention really badly until someone tells me later on and I'm like "Whatthehell? Really?" It's ironic how the more you try to get my attention, the less i notice you.

So here's a tip. Stop trying and leave me alone, yeah?(:

So lately.

Lately, i felt really unfit and internally fat. So instead of complaining, i decided to do something about it. Today, i went jogging with my sister. Walked a mile, and ran a mile, more or less. Then played basketball with her. Funny shit. LOL. Time to reward myself with a little icecream.(;

I feel better already.(: Gonna do it again tomorrow.

You make me laugh just as easily as you can make me cry.

DATPHAN.

Is a stalker. Beware cause you can be a victim of this pedo-stalker too. He will follow you to school, to your classes, everywhere. Then he will accuse you to be the one stalking him.xD If someone is stalking you or you suspect someone is stalking you, it's probably Dat.(:<

Good day &Ms.Glassman needs to get laid.

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And the feelings come rushing back..

Where's the sun?

Grandpa woke me and it was 7:15? So i rushed to get ready. Didn't do my hair, as a result, it looked like fucking poop today. LOL. Got out, COLD. Ugly weather. Walked to school w/Leslie. Talked to William about durian. Found out his uncle's durian tree he was talking about was in Indonesia. LMFAOOO! Dayana came and said she needed to talk to me. Ohgodd. But, LOL. I already knew about it. Too bad he died now.(; Talked to Dean. I decided to call him Jus-DEAN. So its not completely Justin.xD I'm oh so clever.

Spanish. This class is so motherfucking boring. I swearr. Practiced my RR's with James. We sounded with dumbasses but we cooool.xD Mimi said that they shouldn't know about the thing. Hmm, idunno.

History, took notes. Nothing else. This class is fun, but there's nothing to talk about. Haha.

Homeroom, read.

Gym, paceers. STAC is a motherfucking tease. So after our guys and Cubales's boys went, it was our turn. We had 20 minutes left so we had to do it for sure. Then Glassman said their girls go first and there was a chance we could do it the next day. So I'm like YEEEEEEESSS! Then all the girls finished hella fast and we had 15 more minutes. FMLL. Did 14, LOL. I like how girls plan when to stop. Like "Alright, let's stop after this." then all the girls go. LOL. Went in the locker room. Found out Emberly was in that class. I'm like in love with her name. It's so pretty. Anyway, she brought her hamster. I forgot the name.. LMFAO. But i told her stories of how i used to do that and stuff. Went out to lunch and we went out separate ways.

Everything was goood at first. Then i saw Crystal and went over to her. Poor her. Motherfreaking asshole.-__- So i found him and asked him what the hell he did to her and he just said he didn't wanna talk about it. Jeez. He has major moodswings sometimes. Crystal even said she has to be the man sometimes. God.-__- My friend is in pain cause of you, asshole. Stayed with her during luunch. Went in and Emberly had her hamster out. Chan had it and he held it to my face saying "Jessica, this is something you will like." LOL so i held the little cutie Reminds me of Bob.)': Then I'm like "Wth, i didn't know you knew my name.." cause i really didn't know he knew i existed. LOL and he said he's been knowing since last year and "Everyone knows your name!" LOL. Interesting.

Went to Bio, said hi to Jason and he hugged me. O__O I know so many Jasons. Changed seats. Sit in the front next to Isaiah. KevinF sits near me!(: The only non ghetto person that I'm kinda friends with. LOL. Took notes and got our books. Did a worksheet and i finished half while everyone is on the third question or so. LOL.

Gonzolez (it feels like I'm spelling his name differently each time), did Do Now. Quiz. Didn't know how to do the last one. Turned it in, Crystal and Daniel didn't know how to either. I need to stop staring, but i can't. I'm such a creeeep. LOL. Gonzo, move him somewhere behind me so he can't distract me, please.D:

Afterschool, hugged Jammy and left. Got icecream.(:

Mhmm, plain little day but you made it good.

"He'll pick you up just to watch you fall."

Me gustas tu.(:

D:

SinntoxMimi 10:51 pm
(10:51:39 PM): LOl
(10:51:40 PM): STOP MAKING PPLS LIFE
(10:51:41 PM): BETTER!

Sorry. I don't mean to. LOL.

Quick day &No hot guys.):

Woke up, got ready. Ate noodles again. Iced some waterr and yeah. Not as sunny today.): Wore a dress and gramdma bitched at me.-__- I figured NO PE+NO BIO= GOOOOD.

Spanish was eh. Got our books. Yay.-__- Laughed with James bout a fallen poster. Idk LOL. Didn't have a baseball fan and athletic person for my DoNow so I put Kelly and Sophia. LOL. Showed them my Pikachu fan. LOL. So Asian.xD

History. Just learned &reviewed. LOL. Boring.

Homeroom. Bal tv. Saw Rafa and ALFIEE. They made an announcement for OOS. FML-__- I'd kill myself if hella people join. Buut Alfie was heree.(: Haven't seen him in a while. I wanted to say hi to him. Actually, i kinda was talking to the tv. LOL.

Cossick. Boringg. Did group work. Bleeh. Not much happened. I really need to start on homework for this class. I said I'd do it on the weekend, then Monday. Today's Wednesday.-__- What happened to not procrastinating this year?

Lunch. It's not even hott.): I had a fan too.): LOL. Everyone was obsessing over it. My soulmate actually talked to me about how she loves Pikachu. Okay, GTFO. I don't care.(:

Gonzolez- BLOGGED. Everything here (Up to lunch) was blogged in his class. LMFAO.

Afterschool, went to Subway. Saw David. He ordered shit and we talked. Jammy came in and i was like "GTFO, we don't allow Mexicans here." a little too loudly. LMFAO. Dean thinks i like David. LOOL. Silly Justin Beiber. Asked about his girlfriend. "Is she imaginary? Did you pay her?"ectect. LMFAO. Then we saw the bitchy Asian lady from community service with this guy. Ew. Left with Paulo &Bryan and after they got on the 14, me and Mimi went to the Dollar Store. The bras there feel so cheap. And i was like "I will never buy food here." and there was a guy buying some. LOL.

Took the bus back and saw Alan, David, &Jammy. Stalkers. LOL. Went to Mimi's house and tried looking for 'hot guys'. She says everyone is hurt. LMFAO. Ate frenchfriends. Stalked peoples blogss. LMFAO. Whatelseee. Ranted about C______. So annoying.-__- Everyone is joining OoS and EAG. We need a new place.-_- BTW, can't wait to read your rants, hoe. We basically spent the whole time checking out guys. No hot guys though. Fail. LOL.

RIP J. Sorry for killing you, but it was necessary.(:

"Now i know i'll never be with you."

LOL.

SinntoxMimi 9:10 pm
(9:10:43 PM): they smoke too much cock

Confessions.

I can't fall asleep without hugging something.

I don't even know what number this is anymore. LOL.

Cause I'm buuurnin up.(:

Woke up, got ready kinda late so i didn't do shit with my hair. Bleh. Got dressed, ate noodles. My sister was getting a ride so i left. I LOVE THE MOTHERFUCKING SUNSHINE!(: Went to school and talked to Alan a little. I swear, that motherfucker forgets my gun on purpose.D: LOL. Went to Spanish. Changed my seat to the one next to mine cause its closer to the board and i already have a hard time reading her cursive. Talked to James 'in Spanish'. I always know him as 'Abuelo' cause that's what Srta.BH called him.xD Spanish is boring. Drew on myself.(:

Gym, Paulo felt sick so we asked Glassman if he could go to the clinic. Went outside. easyeasy. Ran 2 laps. Then did stupid stuff then she let us in for a waterbreak. Then we did crunc hes. She says them like "Crunchies" makes me laugh. LOL. Yeahyeah. Talked to Janet about how pissed i'd be if my legs tanned and it was like holes cause of my leggings. Glassman talked about pee and how if its clear, you're healthy. STFUUUU. I rather run fucking laps than have you blabbering away. And dude, she smells SOOOOO bad. She was a few feet away from me and i smelled something TERRIBLE and found out it was her. OHGAWD.-__-

Homeroom, sat with Cary. Read. They had an announcement for OoS. I was hella mad. LOL. Ranted to Cary about it. Read more.

Bio, watched the movie and did my homework. Talked to Jason. Apparently, he went to my middle school. That's how he knew me. He was one of those popular jocks. How the hell did he know my name? LOL. He says he lived in DalyCity and we talked about Elco. YEEEE.(:

Lunch, hothot. Went in library.(:

Cossick.. Read about names. Had a 'debate'. Ben against the class cause he put 'wealth' before family on what matters most. LOLOL. Me- "Crazy white girl!" Cossick turns around and stares at me. Me- OHSHIT. But she knew i was talking to Elly so -pheww- LOL.

Adv.Alg- Turns out there's wifi in that class. Time to bring my itouch tomorrow. LOL. Stupid guy. STOP being so fucking hot. I can't effing concentrate on the lesson; I look forward at Gonzo and i see you. And of course you>him. So will you stop being so fucking attractive? Thanks. Jeez. I don't even know how to do today's homework. THANKS A LOT. And i finally know his nameee.(: Kinda fits him, i guess. ANYWAY, got our books today. Liying was so annoying. Asking for advice cause she had people talking shit bout her on fb. Just STFU. I don't care. Then she asked if i was her friend. She asked if she was annoying. Put me in a hella awkward situation.

Afterschool, hella couldn't get Mimi's locker open. And when finally did, Paulo slammed it shut. THANKYOU asshole.D: Eventually opened it again and he slammed it. Again.-__- Opened it finally and got my shit and let him slam it. Saw Dat! Called him a stalker. LOL. Went down. He realized he had detention so me, Bryan, and Jason waited for him. Saw Dat again. WTH at that stalker. LOL. He was going to Ryan (Jericho)'s house. LOL. Got Bryan to hold my book for me. Thankyouu.(:

When he finally came out, we went to Safeway. Got my hellokitty bandaid. They got their shit. Wanted to change but the bathroom was too dirty. Walked around. Saw my sister! LOL. Kelvin kept playing with ice. LOL. Went in the back of the 14. Talked about perverted thingss. Sat next to a girl with big boobs. LMAO. Got off at McDonalds. Saw Maria &Vicente.xD Mom called and bitched at me to come home. Paulo bought his shit and me and Paulo went on the 14 while Bryan left. Saw Teresa again. LOL. Saw Alan! Went over to him and hugged him. Stupid motherfuckeer. LOL. Got off w/Paulo and my sister.

Got home. Ate dinner and argued with family. I'm so hot.D:

"Please don't tell me that I'm the only one who's vulnerable. Impossible.."

Oh, i forgot.

5th period, Cossick.

When we had to read the articles,it was laminated and Ben was all playing with it until he ran it over his wrist. He was like "OMGG HOLYYSHIT." and got hella scared. And i was like "WTH.." O__O And he's like "This is so scary. Gimme your wrist." so i gave him my right arm and he ran the laminated part over my wrist, barely even touching it and his eyes were wide like "Isn't that hella scaryy?" and I'm like "WTHH. You didn't even touch me." and his fear was just so funny. OOH, i slid a paper over my wrist, imma diee. Cutie.xD

BTW, that cut Paulo gave me stings. You owe me a hellokitty bandaid.-__-

AAND, i have applejuice!<3

ATL(:

Alex- "First of all. Don't ever ever ever ever fucking swing at a girl, you prick!"
Jack- "Unless she's your wife.."
Alex- "Number two, calm the fuck down, okay?"
Jack- "We're not playing Pokemon here. You don't need to flip out, okay?"

Alex telling off some dude who was swinging at a girl in the audience. Jack's just LOL! I love AllTimeLow.<3

Finally hot! &blogobsessed.

Last night, i had a really weird dream about watching Harry Potter then going to someplace and finding this BIGASS rock and when i turned it over, it said, LiYing 2003 on it. WTHH. LOL. Then some other thing about bidding for printing paper and abuse boyfriends. O__O Woke up and was tired, so went back to sleep for a few minutes. Woke up at 7:50. Got up and ready. The sandwich was disgusting so i ate some cheerios. Tried on like 10 different outfits. Wanted to wear shorts but i didn't know if leggings would work if it was too short. My longest pair are still too short. I hate the dresscodee.-__- Couldn't find my keyss. Was almost late looking for them but i still couldn't find them.-__- So i went. Let me just say beautiful day today! Haven't had weather here in a while! It's beautiful. Took the bus. Walked to school.

Mimi was faster than me for oncee. LOL. Bell rang. Houston! Read outta the book. Did 'homework' but we did it in class 'cause we didn't have our books yet. Finished most of it. Got annoyed cause Brendan kept asking me for help.-__- It's not that hard. It's all in the book. Jesuss. Stupid Jason finished. Hella fast. LOL. Next period. Gym. Changed. Wanted to tie my hair up but my hair actually looked nice today and i didn't wanna mess it up cause its rare that my hair looks how i want it. LOL.

She ranted on how we needed to dress and not graduating and shit. STFU bitchh. 90% of us were dressed. Jeez. Paulo cut his nails. Finally shorter than mine!xD Did pushups &crunches. Added 2 to each of my scores. LOL. Reported to her. When she asked about my age, i was like "Um.. Um..15?" LMFAO. She thought i was a dumbass.): She said she liked my nails and said she had those nails. but black, to prom last year. Last year? WTH, bitch, you smokin? Talked about how creepy A was. I told her he used to like me and we started going on about which creepy ass boys who liked us before. PatrickH. Oh god. EW. Paulo said he heard he was rich and his uncle was the guy who invented HP. I douubt he's rich. But Janet says he gets prettyass girls. How the hell.. LOL. He's hella.. He asked Janet out. LMFAOO. I feel bad for her. She made up a boyfriend so she wouldn't have to reject him too badly. L-M-A-O. Smartgirl. Ran around the gym 3 times. I was tired and couldn't breathe already. WTHH. I'm so unfit. Have mercy, Ramirez, if you ever find out.D:

Went outsidee. Cubales's class was running. Saw Vicente and he was hella jealous we barely did anything. Dude, Mr.Gray, much? Except bitchier. Walked one lap and it was time to go inside. LOL. Asked.. some guy.. what they did when they changed cause girls just stand in their underwear and bra and gossip and shit. He said they do that too, they just don't look down. LOL. Don't remember who the guy was.. Went into the locker room saying how cool i would be if i was a guy. I'd stare at their penises while talking to them. "Are you gaay?" "I am if you are.." -wink- LMFAO. I'm cool.xD Mhmm. Talked to Coco and walked to the 2nd floor with her. Went to Wong.

Sat next to Cary and he played with Dayana's piggy bookmark. Flinging it and shieet. LMFAO. Read. Got our new schedules. FUUUCK. It's the same.-__- LOL read more. End of period. Saw Jesse! He juust had Holoday. Told us she just bitched the whole period. LOL. Saw Kelly. Said hi to Dat! I see him around a lot now.. LOL.

Bio. Oh goddd. Hate this class. I swear, i feel so bad for Holoday, i could cryy. Well..maybe not..but still. LOL. She thought we were 'calm' enough for the movie so she made us take notes.. Thanks. Eddie always makes fun of her being old and alone. She keeps calling him Edward. LOL. Something funny happened but i don't remember.

Lunch, went to my locker and met Mimi on the way. Tried my locker and when we were about to give up, i got it.(: Then went to Mimi's locker. Opened once. Hella hard to open dudee. LMFAO. STACs messing with us so badly. We made sure we can open it hella times in a row till we trusted it with our stuff inside. LMAO. Finally got it open 5 times in a row! LOL. Then Mimi tried and it kept opening every other time. Funny, STAC.-__- LOL. Went to the bathroom to call my mom and told her i didn't have my keys. Went back outside and Mimi was getting kicked out. LOL.

Went back to my locker to give it another go. Wouldn't work the first time. Then these guys walked by and were like "I could've swore they were here last time we came trying to open the same locker. LMFAOOO. He asked us if we were trying to break into someone's locker. LMFAOO. Got it open, then went away embarrassed. Beaaautiful day today which makes the day 5x better.(: "Food makes Kevin cum!" LMFAO. After lunch, asked Alan for my gun back and he said he'll give them back to me when we're married. I guess that's never then.)': LOLjk.

Went to Cossick. Did quote of the week. Made quote books. Why is Ben so nice to me? Everyone says he's an ass. Not at all. O__O Not to me, anyway. Read an article Ben said was the most interesting about Afghanistan. Not at all. But it was funny having him pronounce their names.xD Wrote about it. Mhmm.

Adv.Alg, got a seating chart.D: I sit in the seat i sat at on the first day of school. WTH. I don't like being so close. But the hotguy sits diagnolly in front of me. Goodview. Mhmm. Till the girl next to me wanted to sit there and Andy and him moved back a seat so she sits in front of him. Sighh. I hate him for being so damn cute. I had to try so hard to concentrate on the class. I'm sure he caught me staring a few times. I'm such a creep but i can't help it. He's so gorgeous.-__- Liying was being nice to me today. Got me a book and ect. Got Daniel to put it back for me. Haha, i didn't have to do anythingg.(:

Afterschool, went to Mimi's locker. Dat walked past like "Still trying to get it open?" LMFAO, stalker! Walked down and talked to him about.. don't remember. LOL. Mimi told me that AndyH was in honors. WTH. LOL. Talked about HotTopic and how cool it is. Paulo kept saying if they look all the 'emo shit' out, it'd be good. STFU. The only reason i like it there is because of the "emo shit".-__- Tried punching him in the balls and got cut on my wrist. Haven't had a cut there in a long time.D: LOLjk. But seriously. Paulo said something about 'emos' and i slapped him. Seriously, it's not funny. Stop using the word as an adjective and to describe something bad. It's a freaking genre of music. Jeez. Bryan found an unopened bandaid on the floor and put it on my cut. LMFAO. So Asian.xD

Went with them to McDonalds. Jason was going with us but he wanted to go to the other one while i wanted to go to the one on Mission. He went to the other one while Bryan and Paulo stayed with me.(: Walked there 'cause we needed exercise.

Talked about blogging. And how I'm so obsessed with it. Apparently, neither of them knew my blog. Let's keep it that way.(: Said how it's a stereotype that scene people blog. They didn't know what 'scene' people were.-__- Bryan said it's hella white when i say "OHMYGOD. I'm soo gonna blog about this!" LOL. Went in, sat down cause i was tireed. Checked my reflection. LOL. "You wouldd." -Paulo. LOL. They got stufff. Asked me if i wanted anything. NTY.(: Sat there and talked. The cute little girl that i saw had a black eye.): Talkedtalked. What about? I don't remember. LOL. Watched weird videos on Paulo's iPhone. LOL.

Called my sister and she was at Walgreens w/her friends. We left McDonalds cause of that one hobo. He was like on the floor kicking his legs into the air. Begged them to leave and we did. Walked to my house. Didn't seem far at all when you have company!xD Sister was waiting and i waited for the bus with them since they went through the trouble of walking me home. I really appreciate it.(: Stripped off my tshirt cause it was hot and i was so close to home, i didn't care anymore. The bus finally came and me and Teresa went homee.

And motherfucker! It's 4 degrees hotter than it is in China. ASDFGHJKL. LOL.

Nice day today.(:

"One thought of you is all it takes to leave the rest of the world behind."

Singing in the shower.(:

Remembering Sunday- All Time Low.

(:

It's sucha beautiful day so i didn't want to do nothing like i usually do. ChristoferDrewIngle inspired me to play my uke today so i got it out and played some NeverShoutNever. I hate how he's getting so famous. He's becoming everything he promised he wasn't going to be. But he's still perfection in every way.

Your Biggest Fan. "I'm quite the joke to you." Sang with my sister. Mhmm.(:

Jane Doe. Still in progress.

My fingers hurt.(: It's hard to play with long nails but i refuse to cut them.xD
Music keeps me sane. It's my distraction.

ASDFGHJKL

HOLYMOTHERFUCKER. CONGRATU-FUCKING-LATIONS!(: It's finally happening, huh? I hope you two are very, very happy together for the rest of your lives. When will we be expecting a little baby, hmm? 38 is pretty old to get married but congratulations anyway. I know how long you've been wanting to get married and he kept on saying no. Well, yay. Sorry i kinda doubted the relationship and the first thing i asked when you told my mom was "Does she even like him?" LMAO, just cause it seemed like you were with him since you were kinda desperate.. and I'll shut up now.

Things are finally coming together for you!(:

Please.

I just need a sign from you that you still care.

But I'd be lying if i said i believed some tiny part of you still cared. I'm starting to wonder if you ever cared. What if everything you said to me was a lie?

Things that make me happy.

Food.

Sleep.

My lovely boys.

Long, deep, talks.

Contagious smiles/laughs.

Rocking out to Mayday Parade.

Checking out hot guys.

Shopping.

Exploring new places &getting lost.

Camerawhoring.

Cutting hair.

People who make me laugh without even trying.

My blog.

Music.

Acting.

Animals.

You. Not anymore.

Community service fuun.(:

Community service todaay. I was planning to sleep at 12 last night. But i ended up sleeping at 1:30. Why? Freaking BrendanMiao called me and we had a 1 hour 30 minute long convo. Had to hang up on him cause he wouldn't let me sleep! LOL. But still, it's an hour more of sleep than i usually get. Had a dream about J_______n. WTH. Apparently, he lived in China and he was the star of Hannah Montana there. But he didn't even know how to speak Chinese. LMFAO. It was nice to see his smile again, even if i was dreaming it. I'm so weird.:D

Got up and ready. Tied hair up cause i didn't feel like doing it and dolling up for community service. Brendan called me. Like 3 times in less than half an hour.-__- LOL. Headed out, took the 14 and i was 1 minute late! Said hi to people. Took whatever they needed to take upstairs. Evan wasn't there yet but Edmond, Ryan, and Dat was.(: Got in a circle. Talked. Evan came and i hung with that group. Funnyy. I didn't even catch half the shit the dude said.xD I was too busy laughing and messing with my supplies! Put on my glasses and i felt hella cool. The vest is cool too, but its bigg. Kept talking with theem. I don't remember what we talked about but i know it was funny. Then i had to be in a group with Brendan and Mimi. Noo.D: The thingy was hella toxic. I wanted some, just in case someone wants to mess with me, i can poison their ass!(:

Had this cool black dude as our 'leader' or whatever. Our paint color was ugly as fuck. And we found out the dudes name was RYAN not David. LMFAO. I knew that!(: He tried to make conversation with me. Nice move, dude. You wanna get on my good side.(: Painted a pole. I felt cool.(: Mexicans passed by me and i was nodding at them like "You jealouus?" LMFAO. Mhmm, in total we painted like 3 poles. Our color- uglyy. I think i hung around that group the most. They're funner! My bad if i ditched my group. I see you all the time. They're special-er.(:

That Asian boss lady was a bitchh. I didn't like her. I mean, who the heck is she? LOL. Talked about Ms.Holaday with Dat &Ryan (the other one. I think he's a junior..). Edmond and Evan were in another group like losers. I told Evan i knew what he was doing after. Badminton! I'm a stalker. Oh yes. No jkaay. Edmond told me.:D Eventually finished. Talked about classes and school w/ Dat &Ryan. Dude, Ryan looks like he should be named Jericho. Not even kidding! LOL. Evan, Edmond, and the other dude..John? were still not there so i made Ryan call them. Me and Dat's phones were dying.xD "Where the fuck are you? Hurry the fuck up." LMAO!! We got whatever we wanted out of the buckets and kept them. I didn't feel like bringing everything home with me so i just took the scrubby thing. The tape, the glasses, and the vest.(: So Asian. LOL.

They finally got there and we went upstairs. Funnyy. Got our stuff signed and got pizza. I don't have an appetite lately so i asked Dat to just pour me some coke. Thankyou!(: They were talking about their best moments in senior year and Edmond and Evan said it was meeting me! AWWW.(: You guys are coool. Haha. We were talking and in the middle of a sentence, i gasped and ran over to the fridge. They had cute magnets!! LOOLL. Edmond- "WTH, you're like the second most random person i know!" LOL I don't remember when Mimi left but.. we continued talking about whatever we were talking about. Funny stuff though. Then talked about paintball! About how it hella hurts and some other shit.

I just stared at Dat like 'O__O' and he told me to just laugh and nod. LOL. I listened to him and Edmond made fun of me. Aha. Brendan was in the convo- kinda. And we were loud as hell. LMFAO-ing and joking around. Talked about Pho. Like theres places named "Pho King" (fucking) and i don't remember, but there was another one. We were making fun of each other and Esmerelda was like "Heyhey!" and we were like "No, we're just joking. We love each other!!" Ahaha. Wanted to take pizza home except i was going on the bus, so no. Made fun of me about how that one time, i got the time hella off. SORRRRYY. I've said that a million times already.xD

Then we decided to go out. Said byee, got our stuff and they were like "Should we walk you to the busstop? All guys and one girl!" LOL. I was like "WTH, this is the busstop." LMFAO! Then there were 3 busses coming. The first one turned. So they said it was the second one. The second one turned too. WTHH. The third one, we finally got on. They were going to Ryan's house. "OOOH, i should come too!" -me. "You can if you wantt." LMFAO wthh. I was kidding.xD We got on the 14. Talked and laughed and made fun of Edmond. Talked about potstickers. LOL. I asked Evan if he remembered my last name and he said he knew it started with an L. I was in the middle of saying "Linglingpotsickers." but someone poked me and i screamed. I turned around and it was Vicente! WTH, i asked him what he was doing here and he said he was going to a quincenera. Haha. Sounds fun, buddy.(: Scared the living hell outta me though. Thought some stranger was touching me.xD

He got off at Mission &Geneva. Hella surprised to see him though! Hella cut me off in the middle of my sentence. LOL. I sat down and Evan was still guessing my last name. "Li? Lin?" LOL. Fail. LINGLINGPOTSICKEERS.xD They got off the next stop. "Bye, Jessica. Don't die. Don't get raped!" LMFAO, Dat, embarrasing much?xD Everyone on the us kept staring at me afterwards. Saw Andrian. Got off, went home. Ate. Yeah.. LOVEEEELY day! You boys make me forget. It's amazing.(:

"And i don't want to let you go. 'Cause i can't sleep or breathe when I'm alone."

And i forgot to say yesterday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRIS! I miss and love you so so so so much! I wish you were back in SF so i can kiss you and hug you and rape you! I hope you had a gooood one! You deserve all the happiness in the world, hun. Come visit soon, kay? Love youu!

-__-

Everytime someone brings you up or something reminds me of you, i feel like i might cry. Sometimes, tear spring to my eyes, but only when I'm alone. I still love hate you.

I don't think you know how much pain you cause me. I've never felt this much pain for any guy before. I never wasted so many tears on everyone before. Crying on the bathroom floor makes me feel pathetic. Mostly cause you probably forgot about me. I probably never cross your mind when you're always on mine. I almost.. Almost. But i really don't wanna start doing that to myself again. Not 'cause of a guy. Not cause of anything.

Still smiling, the best i can.

Nothing speciaal.

Today, i woke up from a strange dream. My eyes were so tired! I couldn't even open them so i went back to sleep and got woken up by my grandma around 7. Stumbled to the bathroom to do my business. Ate noodlees. Left with my sister. Some guy on the bus told us that he found my sisters bus pass on the bus yesterday. LMAO.

Walked to school. Breakfast with Dayana. Went to Spanish. Had to talk in Spanish. How the hell do you expect us to do shit without teaching anything to us?! We're not native speakers! Jeez, this class is gonna give me hella trouble. I can tell.

Homeroom, had to read. I was so tired, i could barely keep my eyes open. Argg.

History! What did we do..? Oh, popcorn reading! And watched some video on Sparcles? Starkles? Wth was his name? LOL. The philosopher guy. LOOL. Then talked about periods with Jason &Brendan. LOL. Told Brendan about how my dad thinks girls should change their pad once a week. LMFAO.

Gym, aagh. Glassman is a bitch! Tied my hair up for the first time in hella long. Had a firedrill. YESS. Hella cold though. "Thats normal." "Your mom is normal..!" I need better comebacks. LOL. Did situps. CRAMPS.-__- Then push ups. Mark didn't wanna do it cause he had on new shoes. LOL put up a fight!xD

Lunch, don't remember much..

Bio, had to get in groups. FML. Stupid ghetto people don't even know how to do their shit.

English, DEAR. Then looked up definitions on vocab words. The guy in my table is reading A Child Called It. We talked about it for a while. Mhmm. Nothing else, i believe.

Adv. Alg- Sat in front of Wilson and made fun of the filipinos. They're so filipino, i swear. LOL. Had a quiz and i had to share with Wilson. WTH, that means cheating! LOL. Then did work. Wilson suucks at math. LOL. Crystal was trying to steal my Valentine.): Sad. LOL. Talked to Andy after all the work. Told him to teach me how to be ghetto. He thinks some hakgwai girls are hot... Interesting.. LOL.

Afterschool, wanted to go home but Uju was walking the same way and she walks painfully slow. So Paulo and Jason stayed with me. Thanks, guys! Paulo was suppose to go with Kelvin and them to the his house, then the movies but he walked me to the busstop first. Dropped Jason off at Hawaiian and then walked to the safeway busstop. Took the 29 cause the 14 was taking a long time. I got off and Paulo stayed to go to Kelvin's place. Walked to McDonalds busstop. There was this hobo on the floor kicking his legs and shit and i was scared. LOL. Ran/fast walked by him and almost got hit by a car. LMFAO. The hobo got up and i thought he was following me but he turned around and went the other way. LOL. Scary. Then took the 88 home.

Today was nothing special. But no pain either so I'm goood.(:

ALANLY remember my gun or I'll go to your house and get it!xD

"If i told you i loved you, would it move you enough to even act as though you heard?"

I'm a walking travesty.

But I'm smiling at everything.

WTHH LESBO? LOL.

jessicaling0 9:43 pm
(9:43:53 PM): filipinos dont go to college!
(9:43:56 PM): LOOOL
IRENELOVEER 9:44 pm
(9:44:16 PM): really
(9:44:18 PM): LOL
(9:44:20 PM): wait THEY DO
(9:44:22 PM): you so racist
jessicaling0 9:44 pm
(9:44:30 PM): LMFAOOOOOOOOOOO
(9:44:41 PM): when i think of college, i think of hella white and asian
(9:44:48 PM): and SOOME black
IRENELOVEER 9:44 pm
(9:44:49 PM): oh me too
jessicaling0 9:44 pm
(9:44:53 PM): and little to no lesbo
(9:44:57 PM): mexican****
IRENELOVEER 9:44 pm
(9:44:59 PM): wtf?
(9:45:00 PM): LESBO?
(9:45:03 PM): LOL
jessicaling0 9:45 pm
(9:45:04 PM): where the hell did that come from?
(9:45:05 PM): LMFAOOOO

I seriously don't know where lesbo came from. This is what happens when my mind gets distracted for even a second.xD Sorry for the racism.(: This made me laugh hella hard.


jessicaling0 9:57 pm
(9:57:38 PM): ewww were gonna be naked at the same time
(9:57:41 PM): LMFAO FUCKYOUU
IRENELOVEER 9:57 pm
(9:57:44 PM): WOW
jessicaling0 9:57 pm
(9:57:44 PM): you shower with clothes
IRENELOVEER 9:57 pm
(9:57:56 PM): omfg
(9:58:02 PM): i dnt have clothes
(9:58:06 PM): my family are nudes
(9:58:16 PM): nudist
jessicaling0 9:58 pm
(9:58:33 PM): LMFAO WTH
(9:58:36 PM): you go to school at school?
IRENELOVEER 9:58 pm
(9:58:36 PM): yes
jessicaling0 9:58 pm
(9:58:39 PM): wait..
IRENELOVEER 9:58 pm
(9:58:40 PM): yes
(9:58:41 PM): i go to school
(9:58:42 PM): at school
jessicaling0 9:58 pm
(9:58:46 PM): you go to school without clothes?*
(9:58:53 PM): MAN my brain is messed up today
IRENELOVEER 9:58 pm
(9:58:57 PM): what brain
jessicaling0 9:59 pm
(9:59:00 PM): D:<
(9:59:01 PM): WTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
IRENELOVEER 9:59 pm
(9:59:02 PM): you mean that rock
(9:59:05 PM): or pebble
jessicaling0 9:59 pm
(9:59:06 PM): -__________-
IRENELOVEER 9:59 pm
(9:59:11 PM): just kittens
(9:59:13 PM): your smart jessica
(9:59:14 PM): embrace it
jessicaling0 9:59 pm
(9:59:17 PM): youre*
(9:59:19 PM): LMFAO

Who's smart now biaatch. Jk. But really, my brain is messed the hell up today. My mistakes make me laugh.(:

Crappy day, till afterschool!

So i thought today sucked more than yesterday. Well, the school day of yesterday was better than today but today's afterschool was so much better than yesterday. Get it? No? Then just read. LOL.

Walked to school with Stanleey. Talked about what a bitch Ms.Glassman was. I defended her cause she wasn't a bitch to us yet. LOL. Went in and saw Dayana. Went with her to get lunch, then went to Spanish. I hate the fact she writes in cursive. It hurts my eyes cause i can't read it as fast and easily. Got our new schedules. Mine didn't get fucked up. Bitchhh.D:< Called Sean nice and Clark was like "WTHH, he's hella mean." and Sean said he was only nice to me.(:

Homeroom, ate my grapes w/Cary &Dayana. Cary said that ____ doesn't have a sixpack. WTH, but i imagined he did. LOL. No pictures.): We had a freshman assembly. Mr.Wong didn't even know 'till we saw other people walking outside. Uju is in my homeroom! WTHHH fml. Apparently, Uju's new nickname is Cary. LMFAO. So i was saying "Cary is flaat!" and Mr.Kerr was behind me putting the mircophone to my face. And i didn't even notice. LOL. He was like "...how are you.." and I'm like "ESTOY BIEN!!" LMFAO. "Great, now everybody knows!" -Cary.XD Then it started. Spaced the freak out! Dr.Wu is looking out for us. Everyone was like "YAY!" and Cary was like "WOOOO!" ROOOFL dork.xD

History, watched the rest of the dinosaur movie. JasonWong transferred in and he sat in front of me! Finally a class with my bestfriend! LOL. I got hella emtional when shit happened and Jason's like "WTHH, drama queen!" Haven't been called that since 6th grade! LOOL. Took notes. My hand huurt. And my beautiful notebook is finally written in. It looks so pretty. Brendan wrote uglyy. Ew.xD OH, and he got transfered out of Ms.Noll's homeroom! HAHA! Karma for bragging about it yesterday. LOOL.

Gym, had to change.-__- Kelly looks so cute and different in gym clothes, i swear.D: LOL. Had to do stupid shit. Like learning how to breathe from our diaphragms. I already naturally do that cause i used to be a singer. Jeez. She looked at me and was like "Good!" LOL. Christian told me I'm hella unfit cause my heart rate was still high after resting for like 5 minutes. His was the same cause "It takes him an hour to get tired.". Mine was 90 and everyone else's was lower. Found out me and Janet are the same weight. I gained 5 pounds and she lost 5 pounds. LMFAO. Can't call me skinnybitch anymore, huh dumbbitch?xD LOL. We're retarded. Stanley was right. She is a bitchh.

Lunch, hung out with David &Alan. Alan gave me my gun back. It was waarm. LOL.

Bio, nothing. Watched that damn movie from the beginning again. Wanted to sleep but other people got hella yelled at so i didn't. Didn't talk the whole time. Hella depressingg.

English. She finally assigned the Summer Reading essay. She didn't even know she didn't assign it and it was due on Tuesday. WTH. But she moved it to Friday. Ernie got hella mad at Ben for bringing it up. LOL. The look on his face!xD

Algebra, did work. Wilson got switched in from Honors. LMFAOO. Cause he failed the placement test. NICEE Wilson. ROFL. Learned. The guy behind me was talking on his phone the whole time. Talking about "Don't play with him! WTH, you wanna die? He has a gun! Make sure to keep everyone safe till 4:10. Make sure no one gets touched." in Chinese. Yesterday, he was talking about all the drugs he did.. LOL. He said he had to kick some ass and take care of business later. Why would someone wanna get into life like that? Wilson didn't know how to do the easy ass problem. LOL.

Afterschool, things started to turn around. Went outside, and i didn't even reconize Jason! LOL. Alan took my gun again.D: I told him i didn't know how to go to ChinaTown and he was like "SERIOUSLYY?" and told David. David was like "YOU'RE CRAAZY." LOLOL. Then they told me to go to Downtown and take the 30. Or just take the 8x the whole way. Heckno! The 8x is ghetto as hell. LOL. Then Alan didn't know if he should go home or go to McDonalds. Walked to the busstop talking about PE. Saw Uju! "It's okay. Hug me so she won't bother you." LMFAO. She said hi to me and i mumbled hi and this black girl said i was rude. WTHHH i said freaking hi! LMFAO. We took the 29 up with Nikko. The translink thingy was broken and kept beeping in the bus and Nikko said it was the ugly radar. Fuckyouu. LOOL.

He said he was going to McDonalds too. The same one we were going to. But we lost him. LOL i was kidding, Nikko. I didn't mean it!D: So anyway, we didn't wanna wait so we started walking. Alan &David were doing the 'licking pussy' sign in all the shop windows. It was so funny. People kept staring!xD I was LMFAOing. Alan didn't wanna do it this one time 'cause the people looked really ghetto and scary. LMFAO.

We got there. They ordered and David said he's always nice to the workers cause he feels bad for them. Dude, when i was little, i thought working at McDonalds was the shit! LOL. I got the little kids activity book thing! We sat down and messed with it. Of course they would pick sexual shit. LMAO. "Another word for great.. SEX." Ahahaa! We drew penises and boobs on all the people. Joked around. I laughed a loot. In that hour, i laughed more than i did for the whole school period. Jesse and the guy who looked like Wilson came. Peter? LOL. Said hi to Jesse!(: Then we saw a 14 so we left. Hella left David. I accidentally bumped in to this Mexican guy behind me. ROFL.

Alan's hands were wet and sticky. I said it was cause he was pretending to masturbate. LMFAO. Then he touched my hand with it. EWWW, LMFAO. Got kicked off the buuus. Took the 88 one stop. Made Alan get off with me! LOL. Walked to my house. Hugged him and he left. "Don't get raped!" LOOL. Got home and Teresa was already there. Ate and yeah. Here i am. Today SUCKED and i didn't think it'd get better. But afterschool was definitely the highlight of it.

What the heck is your problem? This is the last time. No more bullshit. Stop playing around with people's emotions.

I like talking to Brendan about my boy problems. LOL. Thanks for listening.(:

"I learned to love the pain 'cause its the only way that i know how to feel."

:/

I'm really not in the mood. So out of it today. Heavy heart. Tomorrow will be better, i hope.

I should stop trying. You don't care. Do you know how much pain you cause me? I hate you. ..Or i wish i did.

Flirtflirtflirt.

People think I'm a big flirt but truth is, i don't even know how to. LOL. I really don't. I never tried, but i don't know how. And i think i'd suck really bad and embarrass myself. So yeah, i don't know how to flirt. I need classes. LOL.

Confession number..18? I'm not gonna post every day. I just don't have the time.

Running from the cops &geting the ball down.

Today was the worst day of the week. It wasn't that bad, it was just that Monday and Tuesday were better. Got up, got ready, ate cereal, headed out. Met up with the regulars. Went to Spanish. Done with that pretty fast. She was talking about how we were all perfect. BS. I am not perfect. And the eye color thing she talked about, i want to do it. But she said she can't understand why anyonee would wanna do it. LOL.

Homeroom was LOL. What happened in there? Oh, Cary and Dayana switched notebooks cause they liked each others notebook better. Cary tried to put the thingy back on. LMFAO, we were so no lifes. Talked about piercings. Dayana thinks they're weird. I think they're hot. She told me about this one guy who had nipple piercings and had chains attached to them and it went around his back and attached to his pants. I accidentally said it was hot and she's like whaat? LMFAO. "You're so emo." D: Just cause i like piercings? Oh, me and Cary talked about blogging. And how when we have to list our hobbies, we just go like "Well, my only hobby is blogging.. I like to blog.." LMFAO, that's so me. Funnyy. Then Cary and Dayana played tic-tac-toe and connect four. It was so intense and silent. Time flew by.

History, we watched the dinosaur movie again! It ended and i was like "NOOO." but there was a part two.:D Interesting but i kept spacing out about.. something. I honestly don't remember. After that, i found out Brendan was in Ms.Noll's homeroom. FUCKAAH YOUUU. LOL, I'm jealous. She says she wants me in her homeroom though. She wants me.(;

Gym, what did i do? Talked to Paulo. Told him about the time i thought the playboy bunny was so cute. That was a time where i was actually innocent.(: Told Vicente too. He showed us how to break someones arm. Janet said it really hurt. LMFAO.

Bio, boring as usual. Learned the characteristics of living things. Booring. I hate this class but something tells me it's gonna be an EASYY A. AndyOuyang transfered out! He made the class a bit less bad.): Stupid Andy. Got outta there faast. NOOOOOO, Diana just told me she switched out of Bio. WTHHHH. They didn't let me switch out!-______- Fuck. My. Life. Seriously. I hate it SOO bad in there. I don't talk at all and the clingy creeper is in there. If i knew people in the class, he'd find out i was lying about being 'innocent'. LMFAO.

Walked with Diana to English. Went the wrong way. Made fun of Dean!! Justin Beiber! LOOOL. "Aww, Dean sang 'Baby' to his girlfriend!!" LMFAO. Him and his JustinBeiber-looking ass.xD English, we changed seats! I sit with Ben and these two Asians now. I don't know if its good or not. Ben's pretty nice to me and the others are okaay too.

Lunch, hung out with Vicente! Talked to Wilson. He is so -___- in person. Jeez. It's starting to be really URG. Had a 'argument' with Alan. I couldn't find a comeback to "Talk to the dickk." LOLOL. He forgot my gun.D: SMALLEYEEES. I will go to your house when you're pooping and get it back! LOLOL. Talked to J.. Oh, now he's talking to me, right? It's better than nothing though. Whatelse. Some people need to STOP touching me. I'm not even kidding. S-T-O-P. I don't even know you that well. I'm sensitivee. AND one question. Why does everyone like to touch my stomach? Really. I'm not pregnant or anything. Stop touching me. If you have such a strong urge to poke me, do it once a day or something. Not once every 5 minutes. I wish i wasn't ticklish sometimes.-__-

Algebra, boringg. Finished my homework in the class. Time went by faast.

Afterschool, talked to Cary about spying on a certain someone when they're changing for swimming. Take pictures and videos of him half naked, please! NOT OBSESSED. LMFAO.(: Then went to Mimi's locker. The girl from last time talked to me. Hella kept walking towards me till i couldn't back up anymore cause i was against the lockers. LOL. And she kept trying to keep the convo. Theen after a long while, went to Hawaiian. Alan was walking behind us andi didn't even notice him! LOL. It was torture in there. Really. The group wasn't so fun. Kevin Parma is annoying as fuuck. Get a clue. I don't like you. Ooh, that rhymed. LOL.

Went to the park. Sat on the swing. Jason wanted to puush me. There was an old man shouting from his stairs and me and Jason went to hear what he was saying. He was screaming something about sucking his dick. LOL! Bryan got the swings looped around the thing and one got tangled. I never knew it was a crime! LOL. They tried to fix it but it made it worse. LOL. They said cops were coming so we RAAAN. I felt like such a hakgwai or rebel or something. There was a little kid who i said was a cutie. He asked Bryan for help to get their ball down. They were throwing numerous amounts of things up there. Kevin got his wheel stuck. LMFAO!! But it got down. The little kid molested Mimi. LMFAO. Yeah, I'm jealous. I got rejected so many times that day.

Yeah, we couldn't get the ball down though. We left and i blew them a kiss. The dad saw it. LMFAO, i think the dad thought i was blowing it for him. Embaarasing. LMFAOO. Went to Quickly. Went home. The end.

AGH, today is so painful. I don't even know why.-__- Balboa Park is depressing as hell! Sighh.

"I'm tired of being all alone. And this solitary moment makes me wanna go back home."

Happy Birthday, mommy!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Sorry i forgot! To make it up to you, i bought you something else! I remember how you always said you loved lip glosses (like mother, like daughter right?) and the one i gave you the other time was running out. I bought you another one. It's so pretty, i want it. Hahaa. I love the color and the subtle shinyness. Makes your lips look so kissable. LMFAO. Alright, come home eaarly!(:

Your darling daughter,
JessicaLing(:

FUUUN(NY) day!(: &Chesticles.

So last night, i had a rough night. I rarely cry over a guy or.. guys. But i don't know.. Moving on! This morning, my eyes were so tired when i got up. They hurt really bad and had tiny bags. Gross. My hair was good, so i didn't have to do anything to it. I love days where my hair cooperates.:D(Its the end of the day now and it looks like shit) Kay, got ready, ect. ATE CEREAL FOR BREAKFAST. Dude, first time in my lifee. LOL. I feel white.(:

Got on the 14 with my sister. Walked to the busstop and left her with her friends. Waited for Mimi but the 8x came where she would normally be on but she wasn't there. And Nikko pushed me when i didn't even see him coming. LOL. So the next bus was coming in 5 minutes so i walked. Saw Dayana and we decided we would go switch our classes. I saw the cute boy from 6th period wait near us for the bell to ring. Then he stood behind me in line for the schedule change. Ohdamn. Stalkermuuch? LOL kidding. He's cuter far away, but he's still beautiful.(: Apparently he's a junior. And he seems reserved. He doesn't talk to people if they don't talk to him first, which kind of sucks.

Waited hella long. Had this one snobby senior pushing her friend past us going like "SENIORS GET FIRST PRIORITYY." and being hella bitchy. Her friend was saying how she didn't wanna cut everyone and the girl was like "Just go in there!" And she was saying how she's hella rude and she's like "This is the nicest i've been to underclassmen." She looks like a hakgwai so I'm not surprised.

Wasn't able to get it changed cause she said there was no space.-__- And she wouldn't switch my PE. SIGHH. Whatever. So i went up to homeroom where i saw Dayana leaving. She said we went to our first period so i went down again. Went in. Awkwaard. I hate walking in late. No more seats but no biggy. I didn't need one, but Clark offered me his seat. Aw, thanks, Clark! I appreciate it.(: Did work. Was kinda lost at first. LOL. Then they played hangman. It was funny. That one dude who acted like a knowitall in Spanish. Chose a word we didn't even learn yet. And was like "You are SO hot!" to this one girl who almost got the letter. LMFAO. She's all like -flips hair- "Thanks". LOL.

Yeahyeah. Then i start talking to Clark and it was LOOOOL. I seriously forgot how funny he was. Good times in 8th grade. He gave me my first poke of the year. Haven't been poked in a loong time. Today, everyone kept poking me.xD Anyway, My came and we talked to him. I got hella excited when i thought i was taller than Clark but noo. LOL. He was just slouching.): Then he said that people this short shouldn't even be accepted into high school. Then My hella walked away and i LMFAOed. And Clark realized that My was really short. And he accused me of saying it. "You're hella messed uup!" LMFAO. Thenthen.. dragged Dean and Mimi to see Ms.Noll.(:

Homeroom was funny. Cary and his mean girls. Me and my racist ass. LOOL. Talking about how my bio was so ghetto. And there were hakgwais behind me. Cary was like "SHHHHHH" LOL. Umm, whatelse. I don't know, but it was funny. LOL. And for your information, i am not Hang-obsessed. LMFAO. I barely talk to him- or about him! Haha.

History! Finished the thing from yesterday and told Brendan about community service on Saturday. Mhmm, watched a video about dinosaurs. I was like "AWWWWW, they're so cute." when everyone else was like "Eww." LOL I was hella dramatic watching that. Made hella comments to Brendan 'bout it. And when the baby was getting eaten, i was hella sad. LOLOL. It was interesting. I want to watch more! Mhmm. Brendan got a wide ruled notebook! LOOL. Fail.xD Theres two Jessica's in that class. I hate it.-__-

GYYYM. Hella funny in this class. So i went in like normal. Saw Vicente and talked to him. Then Paulo came and said he transferred here! YEEES. I have company. Talked to him most of the class. Vicente's class was learning how to break arms. Duude, i wanna do that. Except to balls.(:< "You don't need training to break someones balls." Paulo, LOL. Then Vicente came oveer. And we talked about Physicss. I wish i had classes with him, Brendan, and Wilson. But i got Brendan in Historyy. Then we reminisced about the funny ass times. Teaching the twins, make pervy jokes, poke wars, cheating with each other on tests and quizzes. Ah, funny ass timees. Then he said "Up down, left right, all around." or something. And it hella reminded me of the time in Physics he was trying to explain that to someone (Brendan?) and i LMFAOed. I couldn't even tell them what i was laughing at cause i was laughing too hard. LOOL. Man, we had a really special bond. I remembered i laughed so hard, the twins thought i was gonna die. OH and the time he asked me "Do you know how to masturbate yet?" in front of my mom. LMFAOO. Lunch, Dean and Mimi were having an argument about gay marriage. I sided with Dean even though he told me to shut up. LOL. Showed Dean my soulmate. She was cheating on me though.): "They don't look too good in bed.."-him "For your information, shes amazing!" LOL. Went to go get some STDs with them. And Dean was all saying to Auxi, "Jessica wanted to talk to you." or something. Thanks Dean. Awkward much? LOL. OH, and then Dean made fun of me jacking off so high. I do it to my chest. LMFAO. So he said my boobs were the balls. And he came up with CHESTICLE. Get it? Like testicle, but chest. Chesticle? ROFL. That's a special STD that i, and only, i have. LMFAO. Made me lauugh. Then i screamed "I HAVE CHESTICLES." and Jennifer was like "You have what..?" and me and Dean LMFAOed. Nice one on my part.xD Whatelse. Messed with Paulo and Wilson. Wilson didn't wanna go see Vicente. Hella mean. LOL. Then JasonWu walked me to my next class but i went the wrong way. ROOOFL.

Bio, ghetto as hell. Did the syllabus test. I finished hella fast but the rest of the people took long. GHETTO.D:< Um, watched this movie about baby animals? Learned about living things. That class is too easy. And ghetto. I feel bad for her. The hakgwais bully her and shit. LOL.

English, did Do Now and reviewed homework. Had a person come in and talk about internships and applications and stuff. Pretty useful. But honeey, i was part of the selection process of interviewing someone too. It's not that surprising and shocking. Not that I don't appreciate them letting us in on the interviewing, i do. But it's not that big of a deal. But i learned stuff. And she mentioned OOS. :0 Hell naaw, don't make it more known. LOL.

Saw Brendan and Vicente in the halls! Brendan held out his hand for a handshake and Vicente was talking, but he took his hand and held it, subconsciously. LMFAOOOOO!!! Made me laugh cause Brendan was like O___O and then he's like "Oh, my bad.." and shook it. LMFAO.

Algebra, took a quiz. I think i did badly cause i forgot how to do it. The x(squared) + 2x = 23. Problems like that. And factoringg. Took notes. For some reason, i like taking notes and stuff. I dunno. Cute boy doesn't really interest me anymore. LOL.

Afterschool, talked to Paulo, Nikko, Jason, ect. Then i said hi to Jammy!(: He's still darker than me! Hahaa. Talked to David, Alan, ectt. Mhmm. Took the bus with them. And gave the thingy back to Diana that she left in English. Alan took my gun! Yeah, a sparkly gun necklace is gonna protect you. LOL. They went to get fried chicken and i went home.

The end.(: I love school. My friends are amazing, are they not? Hilarious. I see why people say I'm always smiley and positive now. It's cause of youu guys!(: Its funny how in one class i can be screaming and laughing my ass off (gym) and the next, I'm sitting there quietly, wishing for the bell to ring (bio). I think I'm gonna lose my voice soon. I talk too loud and scream too much.:D Oh, and whenever i see Mark, we get into a 'fight'. LOL. "Wanna go?! Biitch, lets take this outsidee." I thought he was suppose to go to Lincoln or go to LA or somethingg. Guess not.

OH, and Happy Birthday, mom!

"Please don't let me go."

Well, it's a new school year.

Time to try to let go. But i still care.. More than i should as a normal friend.

Anywayy, I'm gonna try to get Bio changed. I really don't like it. It's so friggen ghetto and ..I'm lonely in that class. And gym too. Hella lonely. LOL. But I'm lucky that Ramirez isn't teaching us!(:

First day of school &EAG interview. &WTHtheboob?!

I had a really good first day so i shall write about it. In full detail.(: I should be doing my English homework.-__-

So i went outside today and it was like wet and almost sprinkly. I wanted to go back inside to get an umbrella or to change but my sister didn't let me. LOL. So took the 14 and Mimi texted that she couldn't meet me. So i stood there with my sister and Judy came. Talked to her for a bit. Then walked down, saw Carmen &Erica. So i walked with them and talked a bit. Auxi said hi to me. O__o Then saw Cary &Dayana. So i went with them and me and Dayana got the same homeroom. So i went with heer. Then a few minutes later, Cary walked in. We all had the same homeroom.:D Mr.Wong had 2 rules. "Don't do anything stupid. And don't piss me off." LMFAO. Mhmm, we talked. showed Dayana how stupid the girl is in my book. LOL. She said she seems 'interesting'.xD Talked about Hannah Montana and Degrassi! Then played imaginary tic-tac-toe. She hella won. LOOL.

Next class was Spanish. I hella had a feeling the teacher would be old and shit. I was right. Nothing like Stra.BH.): So i walked with Cary down and asked him what would happen if he had his period during swimming class then i remembered guys didn't get periods. LOOL. Spanish, Kelly &Sophia were there!(: Hella people from my old class was there. Then Mimi was there and i was like O_____O. I still don't know how i feel about that. LOL. She made us write about our summers in Spanish. Noo. I forgot my Spanish. LOL. I don't like the teacheer.

Modern World- The teacher was funny. Pretty entertaining. Brendan has that class with me! He sits behind me. YESS. I'm not alone.(: Got one of my Physics buddies with me. I wanted to go up and present my thingy but we ran outta time.D: I wouldn't wanna do it anymore the next daay. LOL. Kelly told me that Ramirez wasn't teaching Sophomores anymore. Got my hopes upp.:D

PE- Duude, how come my PE classes are always full of people i don't talk to. LOL. The only person there is like Janet or something. So Glassman explained the shit. Pretty much spaced out. Till she said we had to wear our shorts under our sweats and our shirts under our sweatshirts, if we wore it. I was like WTHHH. Then whats the point. Is she gonna make us lift our shirt and pull down our pants to check? GTFOO. LOL. She let us have free time and i stayed silent most of the time. Ariel is such a girl, i swear. The way he talks and shit. I'm more manly than him. LOL. Haley spilled her tea and she touched it and dragged it out so it looked exactly like a sperm. LOL. It was cute.(:

After that, everyone was hella confused as to if we go to our 4th period or we go to lunch. So i was with Vicente and we asked Mr.Kerr and he didn't even know.-__- So we just went with lunch since everyone was going. And this Asian girl came up to us and asked us where the cafeteria was. We told her and she tried to make conversation with us. Stupid Vicente said he was a junior. LOL.xD The girl asked him what pathway he was in and he said he didn't have one yet. Then he's like "Oh, shit. Did i say i was a junior?" LMFAOOO. Had a good laugh outta that. He left to go find his girlfriend, and the girl kept talking to me. It annoyed me how enthusiastic she was and how she kept continuing the conversation. I didn't want to be rude since she's new and shit but.. LOL. Her name was so Asian, its like impossible to pronounce.D: Then i said "Good luck with everything." and made my escape. I can't be mean, jeez.

And that was a start to a very interesting lunch period. So i found Mimi and we were talking when i saw someone who looked like _________. I thought to myself that i was seeing things but fucking forreal, there he was. He was talking to Kevin so i didn't wanna go over there. Half because, well, i was scared. LOL. Then i gathered up my courage and said hi to him. He kinda stared at me for a second and was like "...." then he said hi, eventually.-__- I was so scared he'd transfer here. And what do you know, here he is. Oh god. STAC, i said i would want to 'see him around', i didn't mean at school! Fuckyouu. Are you sleep deprived?D: I asked him why he had to transfer and he said he 'had to'. Still 'mad' at me, i see. Can you just grow up? I mean, you were the one who.. nevermind. But i didn't do anything wrong. Maybe i was acting immature that one time but still. I got over it.

Okay, then. Whatever. I tried, didn't i? Your turn. Anyway, to the good part. As we were walking over to B to get some STDs. (LOL) I saw this guy wave at me so i waved back, not reconizing him at first. Then i reconized it was EDMOND. NO FUCKING WAAAY! He was with Autumn? Austin! LOL. Hugged him. I couldn't believe he was there. But i like that he was there. Really, i always think I'm never going to see him again, and BAM, he appears out of no where. Everytime. It seems like just yesterday, he was commenting on my shirt and making fun of my last name. And i was making fun of how 'Filipino' he was.xD

I honestly didn't think i would see him after that day. Then i didn't think i'd see him ever again after the 'almost last day of school'. And then i didn't think i'd see him after he graduated. After school started, so on and so forth. But here he is. Appearing out of no where like he always does.:D Him and Mimi walked me to Holaday's class and they were on their way.

Bio is so ghetto. I swear. I'm a quiet Asian girl in that class 'cause i have no one to talk to and it's ghetto.): AndyO is there thoughh.(: Took notes on the thing and i couldn't see it so i asked her to move me up. Apparently, she found it easier to read it for me. Whatever. Then this Flipino guy behind me asked if he could copy mine since he couldn't see it. I was weirded out of how he knew my name. Him- "Jessica, can i see....blahblah." "Jessica, here. Thanks." Me- "Mhmm(:" LMFAO. I never seen him in my lifee. Yeeeuh, talked to Andy about how i gained weight. :D

English, had it with JESUS(:, damn, whats her name.. DIANA. LOL. And GRANDMAAA. I found out his name today. Lucas.:D I don't like how she gave us homework on the first day.D: We did a icebreakeer. And Ben asked me how i was and how my summer was. Wth, isn't he suppose to be mean and asshole-like? LOL. Got outta that class and bumped into Mark. "Wanna start something again?" LOL, I'm like "AGAIN? You always run awaay." LOL. Wimpp.

Adv Algebra. Dude, this class.. It was boring. Crystal's in that class.(: Along with Liying and Daniel. Yay.. Liying already annoys me. But her laugh made me and Crystal laugh. The teachers pretty cool. Likes to joke around. AND, there was the most gorgeous guy in the corner of the room. Really, i never seen anyone more beautiful. Even from where i was, which was far, i could tell he had the prettiest eyes ever. So bright and shiny. I might just like that class. Sadly, i don't know his name, nor have i spoken to him. He seems like the type who doesn't talk a lot. Eh, did my work. When it was time to leave, he got up and he was way taller than i imagined. Which isn't a bad thing. Better tall than short, right? He's so cute. First day of school and I'm already lusting over some kid in my algebra class. This is gonna be an interesting year. Haha.

Afterschool, went with Mimi and her brother to cash her check. Then went to EAG, kinda late. I needed to pee but i didn't cause we were already running late. Interviewed him. My heart was racing the whole time, i don't know why. I found him rather dull. I don't even remember his name. He says he has a sense of humor and a good personality but i just couldn't see it. He almost put me to sleep. I'm not sure if its the end of the day or what, but he was really boring. We discussed about him. Good stuff, bad stuff. I still don't want Esmerelda to leavee. I'm gonna like you better than your replacement. Promise!

After that, went home. Got mom to sign some shit before work. Went to Walgreens with my sister to buy her things. This blog took longer than i thought. I was gonna start my homework an hour ago. Thanks, blog. For taking up my time. LOL.

"Like the way that your eyes travel to the floor when you tell a lie."

-__-

Last night, I went to bed at 10 but no sleeping got done. I just layed there and tried to sleep for 4 hours. So what originally was my 8 hour sleep turned into my 4 hour sleep. Not a good one either.

Why do you hate me STAC?

I just shaved.

My legs/arms are so smooth.:D

OMG.

There's school tomorrow. OMFG, we're gonna be sophomores. NO FREAKING WAY! It still hasn't sunken in yet. LOL.

STAC be with me.

LOLOL.

So this girl showed up at our house concerning the leaky roof. So i went in and woke my moms boyfriend up. And as he was rolling over to getting up, he fell off the bed.

LMFAOOOOO. Ya dun goofed.xD

(:

I really, really, don't like my smile. It looks...ew. LOL. I don't know. I wish i had cute dimples. I want the smile of the 'guy with the most amazing smile'. (LMFAO, i should really learn people's names) People know me as the girl who's always smiling, which if you really knew me, you'd find very, very ironic. Aha.

Confession number 15.

Forget youu.

Mr.Christofer Drew Ingle is one of the only guys i want.(:

...

I danced.
I drank.
I laughed.
I cried.
I went to work.
And said goodbye.
I've lived.
I learned.
Stayed up all night.

I'll see you when the time is right.

We all grow old. We live.

We die.

Summer reading- donee.(:

I'm done with my summer readingg.(: I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings. The book was at times, interesting, and at times, boring. Uh, at first. She thought that her being black was a dream and she'd wake up and be this beautiful white chick. And she pees in her pants a lot. And she got raped. (the reason i read the story). And she thought that she was 'turning into' a lesbian because her vulva was developing. She thought that lesbian and hermaphrodite was the same thing. So she had to ask her mom. LMFAO. Then she wanted to fuck someone so she just went up to this hot guy and was like "Do you wanna have sexual intercourse with me?" and she said it was so bad, she couldn't even feel anything. LMFAO. And then she got pregnant. Yeah.. this book made me laugh a few times.xD

I planned to sleep before 1. But somehow, i got into this conversation with my sister. And we had a bonding moment. Talking about boys.(: I don't even know how it began. Probably cause i mentioned i wanted some glow in the dark stars.(: And then BAM, there i was telling her about..things. LOL. Made me sleep late.-_-

Confessions.

I'm a major sucker for musicians. Especially if you have amazing long hair with side bangs, skinny jeans, a big cheesy smile, and bright eyes. Specific? Nah. I definitely can't resist a guy who has taken up the 'scene' look and style. Mhmm. But that's just what i dream about. Any other guys still have a chance. LOL. As long as you have a great sense of humor and you're independent. Just the slightest bit of clingy can drive me away and make me hate you. LOL.

Confession number 14.(:

Thing that made me smile.

I hella forgot about doing this. LOL.

Well the thing that made me smile today was falling out of my chair while trying to get out of it. LOOL. I'm so clumsy.xD

I don't get why everyone is buying professional cameras and calling themselves photographers. It makes me not want one anymore. I guess its the 'in' thing right now. Geez, it's kind of annoying. Everywhere i go, there's some random person having a camera and calling themselves a photographer. Whateveer.

Lalala.

OHYEAH. I forgot to say this before. But when i went backtoschool shopping. They had bathroom signs and i was soo tempted to buy a Guys Bathroom sign and hang it in my locker or something. LMFAO. That's such a Jessica thing to do.xD

Yeah, that is all. I half want and half don't want to go to school. I need to be social again but Bal doesn't have cool people. Like really, out of everyone i met there, a small part of them are fun to be around. I wanna transfer to Elco! But i know there's only a small or no chance of that happening.): LOL. May Bal have cool people transfer in this year. I can always use more friends.(:

I'm so anti-social right now.(: But that may have to change soon.

Ewh, after the first day of school i have to interview some people who wanna take Esmerelda's place. qWEGVerG:K. She was actually cool. But eh, people come and go. She has a real job now so buh-bye. I'm already imagining the new person a guy. LOL. Hopefully he's nice and cool and stuff or we'll kick his ass out.(: KiddingKidding. It's easy to win me over. So if you're not a dumbass or anything, you'll have my approval.

Goodluck, guys. You're in for some interesting times with us. Oh, not to worry. You will be spending loads of time with us. Meetings, and whatnot. So if we don't get along, that will be a real problem. Alright, see you in a few days.(:

ASDFGHJKL

I miss my Physics boys. We had good times in there. You guys would give me a reason to actually like that class. The class might just have been my favorite.:D I would laugh the hardest in this class. And time would just flyy by. It was over too fast, most of the time.

Brendan, Vicente, Wilson.(: Irene too, since she was the victim of most of my jokes for Wilson. LMFAO. So thanks for being so fobby and sorry.xD And thanks, Ms.Yoshi for being such a push over. Sorry for making your life hell.(;

ROFL.

Me- "Does that describe you and --?"
My sister- "No. I never tried to let go of him. I just forgot about him.."
Me- -ROFLMFAO-
My sister- "..what?"

LMFAO. That's funny. "I just forgot about him."xD

Baby, don't talk to me.

I'm trying to let go.

Not loving you is harder than you know.

Confessions.

My music taste is all over the place. I listen to everything. Except that hakgwai shit talking about fucking girls. There would be a really soft, acoustic song. Then the next thing you know, there might be screaming. Haha.

Confession number 13?

Faat?D:

There was one day in China where me, my mom, and my grandma's sister were walking the streets. And there was this cute guy handing out fliers. He handed one to me, and i, unable to be rude, took one. Then he proceeded to follow me for a block or two begging me to call him regarding the program. After i finally got rid of him, i looked at the flier and it was for this weight loss program.-__-

Thanks, cute guy.-__-

Your lips look so lonely. Would they like to meet mine?

Guys, if you want to talk to me but you don't know how, you should come at me with a stupid pick up line. I love those. I will most likely laugh, which is good.(;

Boring dinner.

So we went to dinner at my mom's friend's house. I didn't know i had to go so i just went in sweats cause i was too lazy to change. LOL. Ate. Played my ninja game. Got frustrated so i gave up. My sister was being a bitch. Ate icecream. It was coold outside. I was too lazy to wear a jacket too. LOL. Now I'm homee. Gonna paint my nails.(:

Thought of the hella buff guy i saw in Quickly. I forgot to mention him in my other post. LOL. But his arm was like :0. LMAO.


"I'm sick and tired of this whole situation."

Back to school shopping.(:

Todaay, i went back to school shopping and to 555Franklin to change the address since the report cards and shit still go to the old house. Hella hakgwais there dude! It was really crowded. There was this big fat hakgwai who kept staring at us. We called him Big Chocolate in Chinese. LOLOL. We were messing around and people kept staring. ROFL. Then there was this cute guy but he never looked at me. Not once. Motherfucker.-__- LMFAO. Kidding.(: He was cute though. Had to go to the car to get the car registration and my pants kept almost falling. I had to keep pulling it up. I was like running and holding it and being like "I know how hakgwais feel now." LMAO. And me and Teresa did our sexy handshake. Yesyes. LOL.

Oh there was this Asian lady who looked me up and down then looked at my sister. LMFAOO. Stared her down.(: It was so boring and took so long. We entertained ourselves by making fun of and gossiping about the people there. ROFL.

Yeah, it was hella crowded there. And hella hakgwais. So after that, we went to buy school supplies. Funfun. Then i was thirsty so we went to Quickly. Got stuff to drink and eat. Thanks mom.:D Then as we were in the car, i was eating and i saw this guy i thought might be cute and looked at him. My sister said i was eating and my eyes got really wide as i turned my head. LMFAO. She described it as if i "just say Mayday Parade." LMFAOOOO. He wasn't even hot. LOL.

There was this man who was walking hella slow across the street and me and Teresa thought he was old and just walked slow. In my mind, i was like "Oh god. Hurry up!" and he turned to the car and looked at us, then walked hella fast across the street. I was like "Whoaa." LOL.

My mom and her boyfriend are fighting again. It's so annoying. I wish they would STFU. LOL.(:

"I'm sick and tired of this whole situation."

Everyone tells her that shes beautiful. But its never enough to convince herself.

Story of my fucking life.

"She's a pretty girl that everyone loves. She never gets why her life is broken. She's that pretty girl that everyone loves but there's no one right for her. She's so scared of being seen. But no one else would ever know."

Is there a song that describes me more? LOL. I feel like this song should be playing whenever I'm around or when i wake up or something.

-_-

You're such a fucking nuisance. Making promises that you can never keep. Maybe you should shut your broke ass up and talk to me when you have money for me, yeah? Jeez, i was suppose to go to Office Depot then you said it was too late and you don't want to drive two cars? How much space would your damn material take?-__- We were gonna go tomorrow too and i don't want you driving me there. No fucking thank you. My mom could drive me. You could sleep or make some fucking money.

Innocent Asian girl.(:

It's amazing how once i clip back my bangs, i transform to this innocent Asian girl. LMAO. When i let it down, it gives more attitude and personality and it's more me. But it does get annoying on some days. Like today. LOL.

Always changing.

No one can keep me around for a long time. I lose interest fast. When i first meet you, I'll be like raving about you and I'd act like your best friend. After a while, I'll get sick of you and avoid/ignore you simply because you don't amuse me anymore. It's bad but my interest and attention easily slip. The only way is to always be changing and to be really spontaneous and random. Maybe because that's how i am. I change a lot over short periods of time. I love people who are so unpredictable, you never know what they will do next. The kind of people who keep you on your toes, the edge of your seat, ectect. So if you like stability, stay away from me. I am the opposite of stable. Emotionally, physically, whatever. If you like spontaneous and crazy, I'm your girl.(;

Confession number 11.(:

Look away, creep &2 hour icecreaam.

Today we went to the fried fish restaurant.<3 I ate a lot, like always. LOL. The table behind us were white and the table in front of us had this bald guy and this old creepy looking guy with a ponytail. He kept staring. My sister was saying how he's so creepy, eating his rice and staring at us. LMAO! So when i glance at him, he was staring so i stared back 'till he looked away. And when i was talking to my mom, he stared at her, then me, then Teresa. LMFAO. he's so creepy. But he's like old. Then they left and another group came. One looked like the guy in the ponytail, but younger and more groomed. Like he had a 'makeover'. LOL. Then we left. Going to buy school supplies today! Yes!(: Came home, and went to the facial place with my mom. Watched her get it done. Talked. The person said i should do my hair differently and not have sidebangs. Well, my bangs are me. I can't imagine myself without them.. Talked about the future, my frustrations, ect. It's so rare that we actually talk without fighting but today was one of those days. Sat 'till my butt hurt. LOL. Then finally she was done and we went to the best icecream place in the world, Marco Polo. It was so worth waiting two hours for. LOL.

Tonight, my mom's going out with her bestfriend and her 'friend'. I think she likes her 'friend' but since she has a boyfriend, she can't hang out with him alone so she tells my mom to come along. So if her boyfriend finds out, she could tell him they weren't alone and were just 'hanging out'. Since it was my mom who got them together. LOL. That's hella smart. Since you can't date him, you ask one more person to come so its not actually a date. LOL.

Then we're going to Home Depot for my mom's boyfriends paint stuff. Then Office Depot for school supplies?(:

"Wake up, it's 5am. I fell in love again."

This dudee.

Ireneloveer 1:12 am
(1:12:07 AM): hi
jessicaling0 1:12 am
(1:12:32 AM): Why do you always IM me when I'm about to sleep?
(1:12:38 AM): D:
Ireneloveer 1:12 am
(1:12:40 AM): oh
(1:12:42 AM): :-[
(1:12:43 AM): because
(1:12:48 AM): because
(1:12:50 AM): yo we can
(1:12:54 AM): sleep together
(1:13:03 AM): thats what i was thinking
(1:13:03 AM): fasho
(1:13:03 AM): j/k
(1:13:04 AM): J/K
(1:13:04 AM): J-U-S-T K-I-T-T-E-N-S
jessicaling0 1:13 am
(1:13:06 AM): Irene wouldnt like that
Ireneloveer 1:13 am
(1:13:15 AM): shes dead
(1:13:34 AM): i banged the living hell out of her
(1:13:35 AM): J/K
(1:13:35 AM): AHHHHHH
(1:13:35 AM): LOL

Ireneloveer 1:20 am
(1:20:13 AM): hey does
(1:20:15 AM): edward
(1:20:18 AM): ever drink
(1:20:20 AM): bella's
(1:20:21 AM): period juice?
jessicaling0 1:20 am
(1:20:24 AM): LMFAOOO!!!
(1:20:28 AM): ohyeah huh
Ireneloveer 1:20 am
(1:20:29 AM): like thats the only way
(1:20:30 AM): he can
(1:20:31 AM): drink blood
(1:20:32 AM): from bella

LMFAO, staying up late to talk to this dumbass is worth it.xD

Oh Jessica,

You're such a deceiving bitch.(:<

Jeez.

I kinda get what my mom has to live with now. "Oh, i had 30 bucks.. but i spent it. BUT I'll get money tomorrow and I'll pay you tomorrow, okay?" Jeez. Broke guys.-_- LOL. Better get my moneey, I'm broke too.D:

Confessions.

Don't ask me for advice about girl problems. I suck at girls. I don't understand them either. I'm better at guys.

Confession number 10. Finally caught up. LOL.

I miss/love youu.

Most of the time, i don't mean my 'I miss yous' or 'I love yous'. I just say it out of politeness or habit.

Confession number 9.:0

Confessions.

I'm pretty picky about my friends. But i am so easily won over. I'm just a simple girl who's easy to please. LOL.

Confession numbeer 8? This was yesterdays or Sundays.. LOL.

Monday and Tuesday.

Well I'm finally home but let me tell you about my getawaay. As i complained about before, my uncle told us to be there and ready by 9. He answered the door bell and went back freaking upstairs to sleep! So we waited for 2 hours. Till my little cousin finally woke up. We left at 11:30 and went to some Asian place to eat. Haven't seen my cousin in so long, it was silent at first. I told her what happened since i saw her last. Then our conversation really started flowing when we talked about music.

She said my music taste changed a lot for the better. LOL, i so agree. I told her about how i wanna work at Hot Topic someday. She said one of her friends worked at HotTopic and i believe thats the coolest thing in the world. LOL. Gotta be 16 to work there and 18 to work at Spencers. Um talked about classes and school. About the art classes. Jeez, they're expensive. But they provide actual actors/directors/ect to teach.

She really likes indie music and I'm more of pop/punk. But my music genres are all over the place. LOL. Asked if she heard of the bands i had before and she knew most of them. Pretty surprising cause no one else i know likes nonhakgwai music and knows my bands. Drove again. Took a tiny uncomfortable nap. Arrived at Santa Cruz Beach Boardwaaalk. The commercial song thing was stuck in my head the whole time.

Rode rollercoasteers. Tried to look bored in the pictures. I failed miserably cause i smiled right when the flash went off and was bored the whole way. LOL. Moremoremore. Went into this haunted house ride which actually creeped me out. It seemed like i was blind cause of the dark. And when they had wind blown at us, it tickled and i was like "Noo, stop it!" LMFAO. I'm a geek.xD

Saw two extremely hot guys. With like everything i say is hot. Side bangs, long hair, skinny jeans, just the average 'scene' boy. I admit, i stared shamelessly. LMFAO. Moving on!(: Looked through the arcadee. OH, i remember this game where you throw a baseball as fast as you could and try to beat the other peoples scores, which was 68. A hakgwai and his white friends came and told the hakgwai to do 69 cause apparently, he played baseball. They were making a big deal about it going like "STEP BACK. GIVE HIM SPACEE." and the dude got like 40, ect. LMFAO. I made racist jokes, of course.(;

Got dippindotss. Haven't ate those in a long time. LOL. Went back in the car. Talked about hot guys. She said there are those kind of guys at Elco. And there was this one senior who looked like AlexG from All Time Low. He dressed like him and acted a little like him too. ASDFGHT%RGB. And people wonder why i wanna go to that school. But Mr.Hottie graduated.:/ Boys in Bal are hakgwai wannabes.): Talked about tattoos and piercings. Yesyes. Good conversation. Went back to sleep for a little bit. Went to her house and read AP magazine cause it contained the music i liked. Ate, watched this movie about some Indian girl. LOL. Went home and slept. I was so tired cause i usually slept at 10 and it was 11. LMAO.

Today, did nothing but read, eat, watch tv, play with my ipod, ect. Don't really like going to my dad's house.:/ Now I'm homee.(:

"Tell me you love me cause it makes me feel alive. For the first time."

Mini vacation- stalled.

Turns out we're going to SantaCruuz. My uncle told us to go to their house at 9. It's almost 10 and they're still sleeping. My uncle came down, got the door for us and went back to sleep. Really?-__- So now we're in the living room waiting for then to wake the hell up. Make plans so early, don't still be sleeping when we're ready to go.

Wow, my cousins finally awake. Two hours after we were suppose to meet and go.-__-

I've seen things in China that have changed me forever. After a long day of shopping and fun, we were trying to get a taxi back home. Then I saw this guy walking on his hands, his feet crossed behind his back. At first I thought it was a acrobatic trick so I told my sister and mom about it. She told me that he was kidnapped when he was little and the people snapped his legs like that since he didn't give him enough money or something. And I felt terrible. A poor innocent baby being deformed like that. It made my heart heavy and uncomfortable.

Then we saw another one. This one had only one arm and both his legs were cut off. He was begging for money and it just made me realize how cruel people can really be. And it taught me to be thankful cause I was going to some hotel in a cool taxi after a day of shipping and they were begging for money on the streets. I went home and cried that night.

The next day I saw more of those people. From losing one arm to only having one arm. They killed my spirits and I felt so bad for then. I figured that if I saw people like this everyday, I wouldn't survive. it nearly killed me inside to see someone treated like that. I never thought that something so horrible even existed. I've heard about it but it was just a story. That definately scarred me.

Confessions

I forgot yesterdays! I'm so bad at this. LOL

Well, the word 'wrist' makes me cringe. I don't know, I don't like that word. It's uncomfortable and awkward. LOL

That was confession number 7?

Why do I feel like crying?

Imma be gone the whole day tomorrow. My cousins family and mine are having a little getaway. I find out about this so last minute. Aha. I shouldve known she had something up her sleeve. Always does.xD

I don't know what I want right now but it's depressing ne.

Stonestowwn.

So my sister finally got up and we went to Stonestown. I saw Malaysia with her boyfriend, but i kept my head down so she didn't see me, i think. Then i thought i saw JasonWong and he screamed "LILLY." I hugged him and asked who he was there with. His brother.xD Then i asked him if anything weird happened to him yet and he said not yet. LOL. Went in, the escalator was broken so we had to walk up.)': Went to HotTopic but decided to go to other places first. WetSeal, nothing. American Eagle, nothing. Forever 21, hotpink shorts.(: Went to get lemonade to drink cause we were so thirsty. H&M, jacket and dress thing, then back to HotTopic. Bracelet, Hello Kitty shirt, MAYDAY PARADE shirt!(: I love the workers there. They're so full of life and funny. Not to mention, adorable.

The cashier and i exchanged a few words and he was adorable. Had me smiling the whole time. He cracked jokes and teased the other employees. My dream is to work there someday. Not even kidding! I just love the staff. Haha. Then we were on our way home because my stomach felt uneasy, like it always does when i go shopping for a long time. LOL.

Saw Carmen, Wendy, and Judy. Judy didn't recognize me at first. LOL. She said i looked different. They were talking about dragonboat and the weatheer. Judy wanted to quit or something, haha. I don't blame her. Sounds tough. Got on the 29. This ghetto person was behind me with his mom. LOL. Got off, asked where they were going and Wendy asked where i was headed. Turns out we live close! Haha, got on the 14 and now we're home.:D

Oh, i forgot. There were two Asian girls who we saw on the bus. She went to Stones. And we kept seeing her everywhere we went. LMAO. It was like we were stalking them. Kinda funny. They were fobby looking.xD

Seriously, i want to work at Hot Topic when I'm older. It's like my dream job.<3

Closure?

Dear ________,

It's been a while, huh? Why am i writing this? I don't know, but i told myself i would. But i was kind of putting it off. So uh, hello. We kind of ended on a bad note. I know i acted immature and childish. But um, you kinda did too. Thinking back, i don't even want to continue this letter but i promised myself i would.:/ We had good times. I remember that one day at the park, we were talking and you were telling me about your life. It was a really cold day. We were sitting on the bench talking about who knows what. You asked to hold my hand, but i couldn't. It would've went against my morals. But i did like you, i couldn't deny that.

Another moment i remember clearly was when you insisted to walk me home. That was the first time you told me you loved me. I scoffed and said, "Yeah, sure you do." and you said, "I do!" and i just laughed it off. I didn't want you to walk me home. Don't ask why, i don't know. So when we saw her, i told you to walk her home instead. Maybe that was a bad choice on my part, but whatever.

Then after the incident, you tried to talk to me. And i acted rude, i ignored you and you had no choice but to walk away. So serves me right cause the next time i saw you, you ignored me like you didn't even see me. Well, i wrote a song. It was late and i got inspired. It was suppose to be in your point of view so i could get a better perspective of this. It worked. And I'm willing to make this right if you are. I like you, but only as a friend. Nothing more.

Well, i don't know why I'm writing this. Maybe for closure? Maybe to say, truce? I'm sure we both changed. I can't lie, i miss you sometimes. As i said before, only as a friend. You had a way of keeping me interested in your stories. I remember that dream you had of us. LOL. Okay, i think I'm done.

The point, lets be friends again. Forget everything that has happened. Hello, nice to meet you. Alright, I'll stop. Haha. I hope i bump into you sometime.(:

JessicaLing(: