Rant.

Every fucking time i talk to you, we argue. Even if it's a 2 minute phone call, we can argue and it ends with hanging up on each other and bad feelings. You wonder why i hide in my room all day and not bother having conversation with you guys? Well, it's not fun arguing over stupid stuff that isn't set in stone. Mostly when we talk about the future, we argue. I'm so protective over my future because i don't know what the hell i want to do. And it makes it so much easier that you don't believe in me. It's either "Oh, you won't be able to do it." "They won't accept you." Why the fuck would i want to talk to someone who only tries to bring me down? I know you're trying to be realistic and everything but I'm a dreamer, you can't take that away from me. And I'm not blaming it on you, i yell too, but why can't we just see each other's point of view without attacking each other? We don't understand each other at all and frankly, i never feel support from you.

You say you support me all the time, but in reality, do you? Whenever i tell you something, you just bring me down and tell me I'm not good enough. Have you ever tried to even see things from my perspective? Have you ever come to one of my performances? Have you ever once told me i could do it? Think about it, have you? You'll find that 'no' is the answer to every single one of these. Face it, you have more faith in my sister than you do in me. You have some kind of idea that she's is perfect and amazing and i won't amount to anything.

If only i could tell you this.