Getting closer(: &ugly weather.

So today was decent. The weather sucked. Mashed potatoes for breakfast. :D School, brought a bunch of fliers to school and put it on people's cars and ect.

Spanish, sub again. Did work. Kinda annoyed but kept my smile. Gave Jasmine and Sophia a card.

History. Jason was tired so i pinched his nipple to wake him up. Brendan still had a shitload of his cards so i took most of it. Throughout the period, he kept putting the cards in my bag and i had to keep giving it back to him. This happened abut 5 times. Annoying. Gave cards to some people. Brendan, you should stop touching me before i really get sick of it and bitch at you sometime in the near future. It's very irritating to be poked, touched, whatever every 5 minutes. For a whole fucking hour? It's very annoying. This is why you get the impression that i hate you sometimes. Because i do. Stop touching me when I'm trying to have a conversation or do my work and we'll be fine.

Homeroom, me and Cary keep getting into 'arguments' and shiet about who's uglier, stupider, ect. LMFAO. He told be about swimming.. LOL.

Gym was okay. Ran the mile. Ran nonstop for like 3 laps then started walking half a lap. She should've warned us beforehand. Got 9:38. Pretty good for me.(: Walked a lap. Went on tennis courts and practiced. Yeah, we just basically talked. I practiced my twirling with tennis rackets. The girls were like "OMG, thats so cooool!" Haha, you should see my boys do it. I suck compared to them. xD They're always afraid of me when i start twirling. Ahaha.(:

Lunch was okay. I like how i go to JasonWong, pinch his nipples, steal his food, then leave. LOOL. You're a good bestfriend. :D And he says he's going through an 'emo' period. I ignored the comment and tried to make him smile anyway. "MADE YOU SMILEEEEE!!!!!!!" Haha, I'm such a good friend. Whatelse, hung out with the usuals. Nothing special or different besides the fact that i humped Dean. LOLOL. :D But everything else was samesame. I need a change.

Holaday, felt what it was like to be a 'popular' kid. Hung out with Kevin, Stella, JasonC, Ali, and RandyG. Hella gossiped. This one girl got fucked in the ass all because she wanted him to buy her some shoes and he promised he would if she would let him fuck her in the ass.. I never knew that about her. I knew she.. got around but i didn't know it was that bad. Talked about gangs and who was in them. Talked about fights and shiet. Drugs. Jason used to drink. Kevin likes to go to those.. thingies. I forgot what it was called but its where you go to dance with people. I heard Kevin got a whole line of them. "Next!" and the worst part is they go back in line after! LOLOLOLLLLOL.

Gonzo, nothing special. Took a quiz. Okay.

Afterschool was cold. Dean invited us to hang out tomorrow but i couldn't cause i have yet another thing with YAB. When they say one meeting a month, they're lying. Ever since i joined, they had 2 meetings every week!-__- Walked to busstop with Cary and them. Told racist jokes. LOL.

Saw Edmond and Evan. Haha. Took the bus, they were hella loud on the bus. .__. Got in. Saw Mimi's soulmate standing outside and Christian told me to go outside but i refused. Then when i had to, i went outside, grabbed the nearest snare and left. Then grabbed the shaker from Paublo cause i felt bad about carrying so little shiet. Jose was talking to me bout something. Tuned him out cause i felt like it wasn't important. LOL. Got in the room. Christian was telling me we should make the announcement so we did. A few people were interested then i whispered that he should tell them about the money part. And then a few were interested. LMFAO.

He left to go to other classes and we continued the lesson. Boring. Khalil and Emily kept messing with Paublo and it was hilarious. "Touch me again and i wil BITE you." -poke- Paublo growls, and Emily shrieks. LOLL. Then she taught me how to make people look sad. Now if people would trust me enough to let me touch their face! LOL. It looked helluh funny on Khalil and Jose though. ROFLROFL. I did my poop rap and they were all laughing and sheit. LOL. Alfie told us that we wouldn't be performing on Sunday afterall because his mom was very sick and he had to go visit her.)': I hope she gets better soon. There's nothing i love more than performing with you boys.

Christian came back and ChristianR came hella late. More shiet then break. It was hella funny. We ate and then Khlil found this disgusting orangey red stuff on his shoe and was like "IS IT BLOOOD?" cause theres this one dude in CAT who was playing football. He was getting tackled but he wasn't prepared and his footing was wrong so his skull smashed into the pavement and when he got up, blood spilled from his skull and he ran to the nurses office. Ouuuuch. I feel bad for him but the way Khalil reacted was HILARIOUS. Then he started saying how he smelled poop. People were like "Jessicaa! You ate the poop, it must be you." LOLOL. Then Khalil wiped his ass and smelled his hand and i was just LOLing. He was hella complaining about how he was trying to eat but he smelled poop everywhere. I'm a loser. I softly laughing now as i write this. Then he wiped his nasty shoe stain thing on a celery stick and put it back where the food was. EWW. LMAO.

Christian told the group about how i dry humped him yesterday. I was like "WTH, it was a dare!" and Paublo was like "And you agreed to it?!" He's got a point there.. LOL. What else happened. Khalil and Emily started wrestling each other on the floor. I felt loike i should look away but i couldn't. Everyone else was acting normal cause they're used to it. LOLOL. Went back to class and tried my fail handfarts. Jesse was singing this one song that was inappropriate. Everyone knew the song besides me and Khalil. I told Jesse to sing the inappropriate part and it was something about making the pussy wet. We all started laughing and no one was really paying attention to the lesson. We messed around more and shit. Me and ChristianR are talking more this year. That's good. Last year, i would be close to everyone except him except on the last day, we bonded a little. Now it's getting better every time.(: Did more crap. I kept looking at the time. I wanted to leave. After, i walked with Christian to the street and waited for my mommy. Said bye to ChristianR and Paublo and left.

Pretty decent day. I just wish the weather was better. Now i really need to pee and do my homework so buh bye.(:

I don't know where we stand.

"On nights like these, i wish i'd said 'Don't go.'"

Maybe.

Maybe if i was smarter, prettier, funnier, more in control of my feelings, quieter, girlier, more athletic, and a better person, you would still care.

Maybe if i were more like her.

Interesting meeting &gooooooooooood day.(:

So greaat day today!

Spanish, another sub. Barely did any work. Dean came in and gave me his coffee. Thaaanks, JusDEAN.(; I don't accept compliments from girls well. I just get awkward and go like "Oh, uh.. Thanks..Haha." and i don't know if i have to compliment them back or not. LOL.

History, funny. Kept getting distracted by the little rainbows coming out of my bracelet when it's in light. Blinded people. :D Stole Jason's necklace again just cause. OH, he showed me his bruise above his nipple. LOLOLOLOL!! Told Brendan the story of yesterday afterschool. He says that everyone is hitting on me. .__. LOL.

Homeroom, samesame.

English, reviewed homework.. yeah.

Lunch, told Bryan the story. He said i should feel flattered that all these creepy men think I'm hot. Uh.. no. Don't remember what else but it was cold.

Gonzo, Wilson. LOOOL. Finally, he moved away from me cause i was trying to touch his ass. LOLOL. Then talked to Jasmine. Slipped the love note into Liying's bag without her seeing. I'm so good.(:

Afterschool, walked with Mimi and Paulo to the EAG office. Saw Jack across the street and kept shouting for him but he was listening to his dang music. Finlly he saw us and i waved. Man, i miss him.D: Got the shits. Man, there are HELLLAAAA. Took the bus. Gave some to Paulo and Brendan. This lady in the bus wanted one. Got to OoS and Amy wasn't there yet. Christian was sitting on the stairs. Talked to him about the fliers and Amy and Rafa showed up with a shitload of food. We had to help put it away. .__. Christian is a bad puttter-awayer! Arguing me with every decision. LOL. Me and Christian were drumming on the table/boxes cause the beat was still stuck in my head. Pretty funfun. I usually forget beats. LOL. Finally, we were done and ate chips. Got into our meeting. I was the time keeper cause i didn't feel like doing much. Pretty good meeting. Fuck, I'm in charge of the freaking activity wall. I have no ideas whatsoever. .__.

Then practiced telling the class about YAB. Me and Christian hella messed around and acted stupid. LOLOL. "Where do babies come from?!" I'm funny.. LOL. Then it was me and Christian's turn and we did one word each. LOLOL. It was pretty funny. Then i decided it would be easier to act it out and ask him hella cheesily what YAB was and ect. I couldn't not laugh because his eyes were hella crazy and he was acting hella stupid! LOL. Like other people wouldn't be able to tell cause he talks normally but it's like he's trying to get me to mess up. LOL. Becca came early.

After that, i was drawing on Christian's picture and that led into poking. I am completely weak when it comes to someone poking me. It still feels awkward when a girl pokes me. It's just unnatural. LOL. It led to me taking off the picture and running to the bathroom which he followed me to then he dragged me out and everyone was all on each other trying to steal the picture. Eventually, i dropped outta it to let Becca have her fun. I was just laying on the couch and suddenly, the asshole sits on me and squishes me. Then Becca and Mimi start fighting and getting on him while he's on top of me! Omg, do you know how heavy those shits are?! LOOL. When other people came, they were just like "Okay..." and we stopped but me and Christian got in many different mini fights afterwards. Pillow fights, pen fights, verbal fights, ect.

Then at one point, Mimi stole his earphones and shoved it in her shirt. Christian was chasing her all over for it. LMAOOO. PEDO. I asked Becca if she was suuuuure he had a girlfriend. He wouldn't be all grabbing/squishing/fighting/ect with me and other girls if he did. If his girlfriend saw that...DAYUM. LOL. Becca told me he was much quieter at school. I can't imagine it. He's always loud and energetic when he's at OoS. Then i found out how quiet he was Freshman year. LOOL.

Finally, we got to class and did our check ins. I was so tired. Wrote my name on the board and Christian wrote "likes to eat poop" after it. Then i wrote "Cause it tastes like soup" afdter that. And eventually, Eli erased soup and put poop. So Jessica likes to eat poop cause it tastes like poop. LOL. Played "Baby, i love you." I went first. I put my leg around Becca and was like "Babyy." and she laughed. LOL. She got Stacy. She tried to do it to me but i didn't laugh. She was the only one i didn't smile at. And everyone knows how easily i smile. Christian just looked at me and i started laughing. He decided i was "Too easy." Asshole. .__. LOL. Someone got me out before they even said anything.

I went to Mimi and said in a accent. "Babieee. I lub yuuu." and she bursted out laughing. LOLOL. Yeah, did some improv with given situations. This was SOOOO much more fun and productive than our Drama Club ones. The first situation was Person A coming home from a long day of work wanting to go home and drink tea. And Person B has to keep them away from the tea pot for whatever reason. I got Eli. Pretty funny. LOLOL. Then i got Stacey and it was about how i wanted to use her pool in her house to throw a party. The problem was that she wasn't invited. LOL. I was a real creeper. It's really hard not to laugh when you hear everyone else laughing at you. Hahaha.

Went to break. Played Truth or Dare with my class. Group hugs! We accidentally left Stacy out at first. LOLOL. Dared Christian and Eli to kiss each other cause they were in some sort of ...'relationship'. LOLOL. They 'kissed' each other on the cheeek. AWWWWW! LOLLL. They dared me to hump Christian so i went in front of him and started humping him. Freddie was sitting right there. LOL. We have the best classes!xD We went back in and read a poem and did writing exercises. Whispered with Becca the whole time. LOL. I'm pretty sure he knows something's up. He does act different around her. Like, he doesn't touch her and stuff as much as he does to every other girl. And he wouldn't squish her even though he sat on me and MimiD. O__O LOL.

Then me and Christian made our announcement. I grabbed Eli's 'buns of steel'. LOLOLOLL. His eyes are really pretty! Hazel. So pretty. Mine are poop color. Unfair. .__. Only one person took the application.. Stacy. Just my luck.. If any of the other girls did, i wouldn't mind so much but..her? .__. And i accidentally said this one senior was hot then realized that Eli goes to our school and knows him. Fuck. LOL. Well, he doesn't know me so.. It's all good. Tried to find the posters with Christian but they weren't there. O__O Anyway, left. Hugged him then he questioned me. "Oh so now you hug me, huh?" "Yeah.." "Something's up with you, i just can't put my finger around it." -smiles innocently- "Whateveer.Bye." Then i got in my mom's car and we, of course, argued.

Yeah, today was an excellent day! The weather could've been a tab warmer but it's all good. My legs hurt so much. So bruised. Theres even a bump there. I told Christian to feel it and it was there! It huuurts. Snare/hips hurts my arms, the slap drums (i forgot the name and if i wont try to spell what i remember. I don't wanna look like an idiot) would make my palms swollen and sting (Christian's still does), and bass/middle hurts my legs. Loseloselose. LOL. I squished my finger in the door thing.): I didn't tell everyone so it wasn't such a big thing but Christin didn't even care! LOL.

So i had a veryveryvery good day today. Thanks to the Theater class and.. whoever else i talked to today.(:

"Things have changed for me. But that's okay, I feel the same."

"Hit on Jessica Month"? &Good practice!(:

So today was a pretty good day. Sunny and beautiful. Not a very good sleep last night but it was better than Sunday night's. I was hella giggly on the bus. I couldn't stop laughing. LOL. Saw Alan &Dennis. After my sister got off, Alan gave his seat to this mukdow and went over to me. We talked a bit. Walked to school together. Mhm.

Beliz wasn't here but we took the test anyway. The sub played his guitar for us. It really put my mind to rest. Looked up funny, sexual shit in the book such as "I like your underwear." "I like your jungle." "Your jungle makes me happy." "Your underwear is lumpy." Ectectect. LOL.

Gym, what did we do again? Oh right, tennis. FAIL. &Glassman is hella stupid. Her and Mark got into an argumemt and she was being hella kiddish. Telling him to shut up. Then when Mark said "SHUT THE FUCK UP MY NIGGA!" SHE WAS LIKE "I am not the N word!" Woow. LOL.

Holaday, don't even remember.. LOL.

Assembly, sat with Chan because i didn't know where my homeroom was. He basically slept through the whole thing. LOLOL.

Lunch, hot. Went back and forth between two groups. Went over to Jason, ate his food, then came back. LOLL.(:

Cossick. Reviewed homework and shiet. The hotter it is, the more quiet. LOL.

Gonzo, took a test then wrote love letters to Liying and Irene that are 'from' Wilson. LOOOL. Let Jasmine read it and we were LOLing.

Afterschool, asked Bryan to walk with me to the busstop. Saw Jason &Vicente. Took the 54 with Dat. Staalker. LOL. OoS went to drumming. I was on the middle first. Ow, my leegs. The other girl on the middle kinda sucks. Just saying. It's okay though, i know i sucked that bad at first too. .__. Still do. LOL. Then went on the bass1 with ChristianR. Then bass2. Those shits vibrate like crazy and it so uncomfortable and painful. After each hit, i have to put my hang on it to tone down the vibrating. .__. My legs basically got killed. I couldn't make them straight after cause it burned.

Christian was playing the.. fuck i forgot the name. But its the slap drum. LOL so his hands were really hurting. Paublo slapped his palm so i did too. It stung like a bitch. I'm pretty sure it hurt me more than it hurt him! LOL. I kept trying to hit him but it kept affecting me more. GTFO. .__. Breaktime. Sat and talked to Jesse, Christian, Paublo, and Jose. Mhmm. Thumb wrestling. :D Jesse and Paublo played bloody knuckles. Oh goddd. D: Drank Christian's water cause i was too lazy to get my own. LOL.

I have a feeling i played the snare today, but also no. O__O I don't know if i did or not.. Anyway, played the hip with Emily. I hate the hip! It's so loud so if i mess up, its completely obvious. Okay, it went pretty well. Played and only messed up a little. My arm was burning though. Agh, so tired. I had to stop once or twice because it was just burning so badly, i couldn't continue. I tried playing it with my left hand but i couldn't do rolls with my left. My hand was hurting a bit too. So i loved the intense-ness of today's practice. Put the drums back. Jesse- "Hey Jessica, did you get attacked by a lion?" I just stare at him and Paublo's like "She doesn't want to talk about it. It was probably traumatizing for her." LOLL. Went outside and tried to trick Mimi's soulmate into walking down. It worked. I hid in this small space between houses and Mimi and Christian said he kept looking back, trying to find me. .__.

The 8x came and we got on. I was about to wait for the 14 cause i didn't see him but i caught glimpse of him standing against the wall so i waited in front of Popeye's instead till the next 14 comes so he could get on. After a 14 passed, i checked and not much people were there so i waited, thinking i was safe. The bus was coming and i suddenly see him crossing the fucking street. WTF. I thought he got on the 14L! So i run to the next street and hide till the bus passes. I run across the street and realize I'm near his stop and i didn't know where he walks to when he goes home so i crossed the street again.About 3 busses pass so i thought he would be on one of those and i was safe. After passing McDonalds, i continue walking and see him coming my way! WTF. This is so unusual. I turned and ran behind a truck.

This Asian guy noticed i was hiding from someone and was looking back, trying to see what i was hiding from. Then he stops at the corner and just stands there! WTH. He starts walking very slowly to the next street and after he's out of my sight, i peek out. I can't see him so i walk very cautiously. Turns out, he just walked out of my sight, but he was still there! So i quickly walked and i think he saw me. Ran a bit. And after i thought i lost him, this Mexican guy i walked past was like "DAYUM. Lemme get at chu!" -makes kissy noises- OMG, so i walked faster and shit. When i was almost home i was just like "Why fucking me?" -__-

Then i saw those two college guys i saw last time. Last time, it was a grouup of boys though. Remember they offered me a donut? LOL. So they commented on my leggings and asked me what i was doing tonight. They told me about this party they were gonna go to so they can smoke weed and drink. I told them i didn't do that shiet and they were like "Oh okay." Then i went home. Crazy ass day.

I liked today though. It was a good day. After OoS was really scary though. I told my mommy about it. She's gonna pick me up tomorrow.(: The person I'm most afraid of is Francisco. Even Christian knows it now. Gawd, you guys. Please leave me alone. .__. Is it "Hit on Jessica Month?" or something because this month was full of people trying to get at me. .__. GOOOOOODASSSS PRACTICE THOUGH! My legs are bruised. My right arm is aching. And my hand feels slightly swollen. I feel like i really improved today. But we're not ready for a performance.. Ewh, Thursday, we have to do the recording shit. We should drum. We have a freaking performance on Sunday! .__.

"And now you wish that you meant something to somebody else."

And today, i know.

That tomorrow will shine again golden and bring our hearts back home.

Hothot day &surprises..

I couldn't sleep last night. I went to bed at 10:30 and tossed and turned for about 2 hours. -__- So much for starting out a stressful week with a good sleep. I kept waking up throughout the night. Eh woke up and it looked ugly outside. Got ready. Curled my hair cause I had timee.(: Was gonna wear dress but I decided on a skirt instead. Noodles for breakfast. Filled my bottle with apple juice and left. Omg, so I was waiting to cross the street and Christian randomly cane up behind me. WTH STALKER. LOL. And he thhinks I'm the one stalking him. Obviously not. LOL. Walked to school and Carmen and Erica called me. Me and Carmen were matching today.(: Walked with them to school. Made fun of Mimi's fungus dress. LOLL.

History. Jason is really selfish. He won't let me see his bloody, swollen nipple.): And now I know how he gets As in his classes. Blowjobs. .__. LOLOL. Talked about nipples. We all didn't know what the dark part around the nipple is called. LOL. Funish period.

Gym. Hella hot. First ran with the ladies then I went to run with Vicente the rest of the period. Sweaating. So gross. And Glassman keeps telling me to put my shirt back on. It wasn't even completely off. And I had a tank under. Jeez. Jealous? Then when me and Vicente were sprinting, she told us to slow down before we get a heatstroke. Bitch then let me take my PE shirt off. -__- Nice hanging with Vicente though. I wish was in Cubales's class. Hatee Glassman.

Homeroom. Talked to Cary and Dayana. Helped Cary with his Spanish and Dayana with her YAB application. I had half a mind to join that too but i know I have no time. Eh. I want to though.):

Holaday. I moved to the seat next to me cause the hakgwai wasn't here today. Watched some movie about a little boy with a disease. Jason kept messing with me. Actually smiled in this class today. First time! Thanks JasonC. :D LOL.

Lunch. Had Drama. It was pretty stupid. OoS theater is much better. LOL. I swear, we just did random scenes that weren't even thought out nicely. It was just FAIL. I don't want to go back. Maybe I'll give it one more chance, then I'll decide if i want to quit or not.

Cossick. Ben wasn't here. Bleh. Okay period.

Gonzo, no one was heree. Wilson wasn't here so i had no one to talk to. Blogged and did a bit of my work. Then at the last few minutes of class, talked to Jasmine. Yeah.

Afterschool, walked to the busstop with Paulo &Kelvin. Talked to Vicente there. Took the bus to OoS. Mhm. Class. Got the spinny chair and kept spining during check-ins. When it got to my turn. I felt dizzy and i wanted to throw up. Oh, why am i so smart? LOL. Everyone commented about how pretty my skirt was. Everyone but Stacy. She's just like "It looks like a Halloween costume." Your face does too. "You look pretty today." "I like your skirtt." "I like your hair." Thanks girls.(: Did our warmups. This dancing thing. LOL. And wrote our poems again. Maaan, i finished mine but i left my notebook in my locker so i had to write another one. Started drawing little people. It inspired me and Mimi. LOL, we started hella writing after that. LOLL.. We just about finished and it was break time.

Went in. Francisco kept trying to get my attention. Your stupid "AYE. PSSST. HEY!" will not get me to look at you. Not even saying my name will because i will think you're talking to the other Jessica. Then you fucking go up to me and go like "PSTTTTTTTT." so I was like WHAT?" and he just said "I like your skirt." Uh, thanks? You can go away now. Then he stood next to me and started poking me. Thank god Freddie told us it was time to go back to class. So i told him to stop and went to desperately get the other folks. He started asking me why he should stop poking me. Are you for fucking serious? You hurt and creepy! .__.

Back to Theater and the girls were talking about the boys they liked. HOLYSHIET. Surprised me. That is surprising.. Then i find out he has a girlfriend? One surprise after another today! WTFREAK? That's just wow.. Started drawing pictures with Mimi. Suddenly, it turned into something i saw as Christian so me and Mimi just started laughing SO HARD. I think it was the ears. LOLOL. Everyone gathered around to look and we were just laughing so much. ROFL. Did our poem thingies. Stacy's wasn't as good as people said. No offense. I didn't like it. I liked Christian's. Especially the part about her hair flowing in the wind. So cute! Who's it about? Hmm?(; LOL. One thing i leaarned today was i really don't fit into a group of girls even if i tried. Sometimes, i wish it were different but it doesn't matter most of the time. Mimi decides to call me Jessie now. Cause she likes the way i dress. I'm not sure if its "Dressie." or something. But its okay. She's a cutiee. Hugged her and left.

Afterschool, stupid Francisco apparently found a new place to stalk me home. He now waits outside the door for me to walk. So when he sees me, he starts following. OH MY FUCKING GOD. I don't even know what to say to you. I wish you would get run over or something. ._. He was going to take like 2 busses that went by but i didn't go on so he didn't. WOW WTH? He was going to follow me more but i said that i was going to Balboa to do something first. So he stayed with Stacy and i tried to walk really quick to Mission and Geneva before any busses came. When i was walking past these two guys, they stared at me and was like "Dayuuum." They smelled like some type of drug. Gross. They should get run over, yeah? :D Hurried and took the 14 hoping he was still with her. I'm loving you right now, STAC. Saved me once again. Oh and heard that song. Someone was blasting it in their car. Ha, so much for not thinking about you.

Omg, my hair is still curled. Last time, it completely straightened by 3rd period or so. LOL.):

"Let's pretend everything's fine. Put on our fake smiles and keep wasting our time."

I'm sick of imagery instead of artistry.
I'm sick of apathy instead of harmony.

I'm sick of poets working part time jobs while pissy people choose and pick the stars.

Set the music free.

(:

Today, i got to enjoy the beautiful weather. Get human contact. Did something productive. Drank apple juice. Ate chips. Dressed up and danced around my room to beautiful music. Smiled. Laughed. And just relaxed.

I feel very content right now. I haven't felt this good in a week. See, i can pick myself up when I'm down. I don't need anyone.

Also, I'd be very very happy if someone bought me dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets. I will love you for a very long time if you do. Pleease?(:

Hello everyone.(: It's very hot today. I am so hot and sweaty. Gross but i haven't taken a picture in a long time so.. why not? Here ya go.(:

Beautiful day &meeting.(:

So today I had a meeting for EAG. Slept at 1am last night and woke up at around 10:50 today. My alarm clock was set for 11:50 but whatever. Woke up. Stalked blogs.(: Got ready. Mimi said she wasn't gonna go. Left. I was just thinking about how amazing and beautiful the weather was and how it made me feel good. These preps got on the bus with their tanks and shortshorts complaining about how hot it was. I was wearing much more than them and i wasn't complaining in the slightest. Wow. Got there and Christian was already there. Went through the jobs that was still open and picked what we wanted to do. GREETING PEOPLE. :D Some people are actually going at like 6am and helping set up. Dayum. Props to them. I can't do that.. LOL. My shift is 4:30-6:30 so it doesn't interfere with my OoS performance.

Went over the shiet. Messed around. Talked about good icecream places. Eventually, Ryan made it blunt that we should leave cause if we do, he could. LOLOLOL. We get the hint. Sorry.XD Walked to Safeway with Teresa. Tried handing out the fliers. One of the girls we tried to chand them out to, omg so awkward. She said no so whatever. We went to Safeway. So did she! We were walking around. I saw Louis. Hugged him and shoved a flier in his hand. Hahah.(:< Then walked around and kept seeing that friggen lady. Awkwaaard. Gave this black lady a flier. First person to take it. Well, first and only. The rest, i shoved at random places in the store. As long as i have no fliers left, my job is done. :D LOLOL. Then finally bought my chips and icecream and that lady was standing in line right behind us. ASDRFGTHJK. So damn awkward. LOL. Walked to Mission and Geneva cause no busses. Stood there and ate my icecream.(:< Took the 14L home.

Yeep. I'm proud of myself that i actually got outta the house today. Beautiful day.(: I have enough sleep and rest. No homework this weekend, i believe. The only problem is that I'm getting sick. Thanks, Christian. -__- I really don't need to be sick. I can't, really. .__.

"Now she's got a boyfriend and I've got a rock band. Nothing ever goes the way it's planned."

There's a look in your eye.

And it's screaming goodbye.

What happened to "We'll still be friends no matter what happens, right?" You're such a liar. I don't even know what i want to say to you.

The sad part is if you came back, I'd give you another chance in a heartbeat. I hate myself for that.

Painting &seeing Christian everyday. .__.

Today was a pretty good day. I woke up thinking it would be a chill day. School then interview Oscar. That's it.

Spanish, sub. Sat with Sophia and Jasmine.

History, i don't remember what we did in the beginning but i think it was funny. LOL, then we did some presentations. OH and Houston, "Please stop pinching each other's nipples and pay attention." ROFLROFLROFL. Yeah, Jason! LOLL.xD Mr.Houston helluh chill.(:

Homeroom, talked to Cary. Insulted each other. "You look like a man!" "No, YOU look like a man!" LOLOL. He called me lame.)': Hahaha. Talked in Spanish.:D Mr.Wong keeps saying i look like a cartoon character and he's like staring at me, trying to figure out who i look like. "You're so creepy." "You know what, YOU'RE creepy!" LOLOL.

Gym, Glassman is a bitchh. She was randomly yelling at us. .__. She's too old to be on her period or to be going through menopause. What the fuck is her deal? LOL. Did crunches. She kept on fucking bitching, what the hell.-__- She made us go outside and run a lap then come back in. That bitch mental. But at least she let us get a water break after running. Hella hot. Instead of going back to our side, i stayed with Cubales's class and played basketball with he boys.:D I suck cause i neveer play basketball. LOL. But I'm hella good at distracting and blocking. I go up to their face and start doing my jacking off motion at their face. LOOOL. I'm cool.(: They funny though. Everyone kept asking where i was after though. Time goes by helluh faster when I'm playing basketball with those boys than when I'm playing pickleball with the ladies. No offense.

Lunch, put Jason's hat on and everyone said i looked hella gangster so i decided to act like a hakgwai. They said i made a really good hakgwai. LOLL. I'm funny. :D Ahaha. Tried walking like a hakgwai then Jason tried to teach me how to rap. My first rap ever! "Yo. Yo. I like to eat poop cause it tastes like soup!" LMFAO. I'm good, no?xD Jeremy is annoying. .__. Gooooood weather. I really love it.(:

Holaday, test. Pretty easy. Then did English project after and studied for the vocab test. Mhm. Today wasn't so bad.

English, easy. DEAR then vocab test then read the Oracles. ._. I like how Ben is so jealous of my A+'s. He has to flip them over. LMFAO. Time went by pretty fast.

Afterschool, Jason slapped my butt and i killed his nipples. I bet he regrets it. LMFAO. Walked to NorthBeach with Paulo &Bryan. Sat for a while. Honestly boring. Found out who OSCAR was though. NOOOO. He is so annoying. .__. I don't know why, but sarcasm annoys me sometimes. LOL. Left at 4. Walked to Mission and Geneva. We were pretty late. Waited for the bus.

Saw Johnnathan and his crew! Waved to him and he came over to me and we had a chat. :D I guess he finally moved on. That's good though. He cut his hair. I liked it longer.): We had a chat about how Bal was better than Burton. Actually, it was me against 4 Burton boys so..obviously, i lost. LOL. They were going to get pizza so i told them to go and have fun. "You wanna come with us? No wait, you can't. Ha ha ha." LMAO jerk! Then i told them to leave. That one dude didn't remember my name.D: Its okay cause i don't know his name either. ROFL. Then "I love you, Jessica!" "Oh, thanks! :D" LOL. Mimi was talking to Autumn? August? AUSTIN! LOL. I thought he barely talked. O.o

Amy called Mimi and asked her where she was. Fuck. LOL. We were a bit late but Oscar wasn't there either. Dude, he didn't even show up though! I'm not sure if it's good or bad. I don't want him to join. I think he's special ed. And really annoying. Anyway, we decided to get started on painting so we didn't go for nothing. The powerhose thing is cool! Makes me feel like I'm shooting something. And the pressure and vibration makes my hand numb so i can't hold it for too long.xD Then we had to use rags and wipe the dirt. It didn't even work! It just felt like we were moving dirt around. LOL. Painted the shits purple! Pretty.(: Seems inviting. Hah. Got paint in my hair though. .__. Oh well, it's purple so its all good. Not really noticeable.

Amy ordered food from Hawaiian. We had to finish all our work before we ate. Torturee. LOL. It look me helluh long to was the shit. I won't make a good housewife, i swear. My husband would have to do all the shit himself. Sorry in advance, future love.): LOL. Lick was having a dance that night. They had a jumper! WTF, omg! I want to jump in it! :DD Went back upstairs. Ate and talked with Amy, Christian, and Mimi. Goodstuff. I got through half of it and decided i was too full. LOL.

THANKYOU, Amy! Left Christian to clean the bathroom by himself because, yaknow, i didn't want to.(:< Dudee, i have to friggen see him every day this week. If i was going to the concert on Sunday, I'd have to see him from last Monday to next Thursday. Every. Single. Day. Sorry, hun. I'm sleeeeping on Sunday. I think I'm getting sick too! I blame you cause you've been coughing and shiet. Sad that I'm missing the Plain White T's. They used to be my favoritee band.): Anyway, took the 29. This hakgwai had a lighter and kept lighting his pants on fire. O__O Awkward. Tried not to stare, lol. Then walked home by myself cause no 14s were coming. Kinda creepy but I got home safe. Shared food with sister. LOL.

That was my day. Harder than i expected. Better too, so I'm not complaining. Urg, another meeting tomorrow. I don't even know if i can volunteer at the festival. I have to perform there! .__. Oh well. At least it starts at 1 so i can sleep in.(:

"The moral this time is, girls make boys cry and i.."

Sometimes, all we do is stare at each other for a short period of time before you walk away. I don't know what I'm looking for in your eyes, but it's not there.

The emotion in your stare was just like you were never there.

Thursdays are dull.

Today was okay. Beautiful weatheer.(:

Spanish, Beliz went hella off topic. Talking about suicide and our imaginary land thingies? Wtf. I don't learn anything. Rolled my rrrrrrrr's with James. We're hella stupid. LOL.

History. Did presentations for our thingy. Mine was the most epic.(:< Organized Jason's binder and did my PE homework.

Homeroom, talked to Cary. Studied for Pickleball.

Gym, test. Pickleball. "I love youu, Jessica." "Thanks." LOL.(;

Lunch, activity fair. I have no idea why I'm joining even MORE shit but.. LOL. Drama and GSA. I think I won't enjoy Drama so much because people from Bal are there. This one girl came up to me and was like "OMGG. Were you the girl with the Mayday Marade shirt?!" Mhm, I feel so famous..rofl. Went to Cary's group. Jasmine said i seemed like an actress. I asked how and she just said i looked like one. And i was good at it too. AWH, thank you, honey. :D Talked to Bryan. Yeah.

Holoday, did review. Randy, get your hurtass away from me, por favor. JasonC is smart. :DD But I'm smarteer.(:<

Gonzo, talked to Wilson the whole time. This boy is too funny. One of those days where he's in a good mood and just talkative. LOL. Made fun of Liying. Threw stuff in her hood, stuck things to her back, ect. OMG, wrote a note that said "WILSON LOVES YOU." and on the back it says "JK, i love Irene. No one loves you." And i slipped it into her purse thing.(: Wilson was gonna kill me for it.XD He told me what happened in the rest of the drama. Barely did our work too! LOLOL. But this kid.. ROFLMFAO. Seriously.

OoS isn't as fun on Thursdays. Me and Christian both agree that Acting is funner. BUT Tuesdays are good too. Recreated the song that Christian played. I got my real song this time.(: Mr. Brightside by The Killers. Went home. Yeah.

Alright day.

"He'll pick you up just to watch you fall."

The music that saves you when you're not so sure you'll survive.

OoS was good. School was terrible.

Sorry, i have no time to blog. I have SO much homework. So today was nothing special. Classes were suckish. Lunch was pointless. Alg, we had a sub again and i really wished everyone would leave me alone. But friggen Jasmine had to me a good friend and talk to me. .__. So i was laughing and shit but it just didn't feel right. Thanks for trying though.(: School was overall painful. Afterschool was better when i got to OoS. And Bryan, since you hate my stories so fucking much, I'll stop telling them. Goddamn. I might as well not talk, huh? Anyway, chilled at OoS after talking to Edit. Food.(: Mimi left and her soulmate came. I tried to avoid it but when i walked past him, i felt his eyes staring at me and he asked "How come you don't talk to me no moree?" Me- OHFUCKK. "Cause you don't talk to me first?" and he just rolled his eyes at me. I know, i need better excuses. But if i was honest, I'd say cause you are a creepy pedo who needs to stop flirting before i kill you.(:

Theater was funny. Apparently, Stacy and Jess are BFFFS now. Sharing secrets and going like "Oh, JESSICAAA. Not you.." I'm just like WTF. Then at break, i found out why she was so uneasy towards me. Well, i can't control that, hun. Geez. Did our skits. I have to work on my 'tension'. I have to be 'meaner'. Got it. Stacy just has to remember her lines and not mess them up because it screws me up. LOL. Christian and Jessica were good. Me and Becca were saying how we felt really bad for Christian's character. He portrayed it very well. Anyway, funny. Very funny. Lightened my mood.(: Christian got me a song for tomorrow so i wouldn't have to think. Thanks!(: Made fun of me and my Hannah Montana. LOL. Thank you Christian, Becca, Jess, and Mireya for making me laugh and smile. I really enjoy your company.(:

Took the 88 home and went to the buffet shit. I hate it there. I kept saying that i wanted to kill myself. I don't even know if i was kidding. My mom just said "Go ahead." i had to pinch myself really hard to keep from doing something stupid.

Life, please. Give me a break. It seems like everyone's waiting for me to break down. It's like everyone is just pushing me to the edge and waiting for me to break. Give me a break, please? No? Okay..

"Emily, please. Theres nothing wrong with the way i light up when you're around."

I hate how i care so much. You obviously don't.

Being mean. :D

Woke up from one of those dreams again. I screamed "STOP IT." in my head when i woke up. Stop the dreams. It makes reality seem so much more unbearable. Got ready. Did nothing to my hair today. :D Ate mashed potatoes, went to school smiling for some reason. I smiled at strangers and said good morning. I felt like it was going to be a good day. In the morning, i saw Uju come down the stairs so i put my haead down and tried to avoid her but she just crashed into me. Then she all touched me going like "SORRYYYY." Uh, okay. LOL.

Spanish, Beliz sucks at explaining things. Confusing as fuckk. Promoting our blogs by saying our blog title in our answers. ROFL. We are such nerds. XD

Gym, pickleball. LOL at Jasmine's nickname for Liying. Liyuck. ROFL. You are so lame! But you're right, i can't do better.xD "I bet her boyfriend calls her Liyum." LOL, I'm stupid too.xD

Homeroom, i don't remember but yeah. Read.

Holoday, OMG GTFO Randy!! First you sit freaking behind me, now next to me? Before I know it, you're gonna be sitting on me or sharing a seat with me. What the fuck. Go away, dumbass. I don't want to talk to you but i don't wanna get a 0. Get fucking smarter please. .__.

Lunch, nothing special.

English, caught up on work. Ben is..LOL. I still am one page behind. Noo.):

Gonzo, had a sub. HELLUH funny cause me and Liying got into this arguement and she wasn't giving up even though everyone was obviously against her and she was so stupid. If you're gonna make shit up, at least do it better. Don't just say "Oh, their name is something.. Starts with a something.." You're so fucking bad at lying and then you go and contradict yourself. Then she's like "Can you like just talk shit about me behind my back?" me- "WTF?" Her- "Yeah, cause i won't know and it won't hurt." LOL dumbass. Then Leslie was all telling Stephanie how pretty she was and i was pretending to be hurt. So Crystal asked him what he thought of me. "Is Jessica pretty?" "Yess. She looks like a celebrity. Or a princess. A warrior princess!" Me- OMGGGG. All this time, we were all laughing our asses off.

Then he would ask us if we saw certain movies then told us about how they were friends with dinosaurs. Hella funny at first but after the 20th movie, it got old. Andy came to join us and he kept touching my leg. -__- LOL. Then at one point i tried to pinch his nipple but i ended up missing but it started bleeding! LMFAO. I don't even have long nails! But he didn't even realize it and was messing with it then there were little red spots of bloog on his shirt. Omgg. LOLOL. I'm sorry. And sorry i wouldn't stop laughing even though i felt kinda bad. LMFAO. Omgg, he's gonna get revenge thoughh.xD

Afterschool, walked with Bryan to the busstop. Telling him stories of my day. My stupid stories that have no real meaning or anything.. LOL. Took the 8x. Talked to Ryan about yesterday. Jesse camee. Hugged him and talked to him a bit. Brought the shiet down. Got on the snare, biaatch. Fairly easy until Alfie said the more advanced players could play it with the ghost notes. So basically, ChristianD, ChristianR, and Paublo started beasting their shit while i was like T_T STOP. LOL. Makes me look baaad. Funthough.(:

Switched sides so i went on the middle. Feels weird to come back here. I used to be on it a lot last yeaar. After a while, we walked outside. Jesse hit my butt with his drumstick and it caused me to drop mine. I don't even know why. It was a late response, i guess. LMFAO. Funnyyy. Messed up my rhythm thoughh. Played outside. Kinda cold. Laughed at this one dude passing by on his phone cause he had to run to get away from the noise. Ahahah.

Breaktime, ate and talked to Jesse. Mhm. When we went back inside, we YOUTUBED. Micheal Jackson shiet. Then played snare for 10 more minutes. Mhm. Mhm. OH and Paublo be helluh jealous he cant handfart like me. It's okay. PRACTICE. Christian says I'm not pro yet but its something!:D I feel accomplished. Alfie- "OMG you guys. What are you? Seniors? Juniors? Stop itt." Me- "SOPHMOREEEEE. MWUAHAHA(:<" Hehe.(; Oh and the hakgwai girl ain't comin back. She eats hella fucking food. And her boyfriend or whoever doesn't wanna come either cause she isn't coming. Wow. LOL. But anyway, I couldn't care less.(:

Took the bus with Christian and Mimi. Got home. Argued with my mom. Ate. Yeah. Can't you see how busy i am? Goddamn.-__-

"You make it hard to smile 'cause you make it hard to breathe."

Interesting day. :D

Today was fairly interesting. Woke from a good dream. You know those ones that make you feel disappointed it wasn't real when you wake up? Yeah, those. Anyway, got ready. Yeah. Dayana came back today. Thanks for the necklace, dear.(: History was kinda funny. Houston, you make me laugh.(:

Gym, walked curves and ran straight. "Hey, Jessica says she wants to hold your hand." -Andy "What the fuuck? You high?" -me. LOL. Talked about mosquito bites, this one girl who has cancer and is trying to kill herself. Not to self: Don't come to Jacky when you're contemplating suicide. He will encourage it and possibly provide the gun. LMFAO. It was hott. Whatelsee.. I don't remember but it was okay. Glassman can't even do a lunge. Fatfuck.

Homeroom, ate grapes and talked to Cary. "Hey, can you hook me up with Jessica?" "Do you know how much we hate each other?" then he ignores him. LMFAOO. And his book is helluh awkward.. LOL.

Holoday, read. Randy sat behind me and i was like OMGGG-__-. THEN Ms.Holoday decided it was a good idea to put us in groups and i had stupidass people, including Randy. I swear, i would've shot myself if i could. .__. He's dumb as fuck too. Made our group lose a point cause of his tiny little brain.-__-

Lunch, met with Mimi and went to the attendance office to get permit to leave. Went back to lunch with Dean. Lunch felt so different cause we had slips of paper that said we could leave.. LOL. Said bye to people. Obviously, there's still tension between us. I can feel it in the way you hug me and i can see it in the way you look at me. Walking out of school made me feel hella special and cool. LOL. Started laughing and joking about stupid shit while walking out of school. Ahh, it's so fun knowing everyone's in class and you're leaving. Maybe I'm just so lame.XD Went home. Ate. Left. Got there right on time and ..forgot her name.. gave us a ride.

Got there and answered this thing about witchcraft. I guess Mimi's answer was really good cause she got called to answer the question on the show. Sat. It was slightly interesting. The studio is much smaller than what i expected it to be. I'm happy i got the chance to see the set and what goes on behind the cameras. Thank you for this opportunity, EAG &ABC.(: Got a ride back to Bal. Took the 29 and saw Jack and that one girl from my drumming class. He asked me if i was still in drumming and he explained why he couldn't go this year.)': I hope you have fun at your internship cause I'm gonna miss you.): Had a mini convo with him till i had to get off.

Rafa opened the door for me and i went to my class. They were already outside playing with this ball. LOL. Everyone was excited to see me.xD Jessica wore her Degrassi shirt just for me! OMGOMGOMG. LOL. Stacy- "I thought you said you weren't coming." with hella attitude. Well, excuse me. .__. Anywaay, after a bit of throwing the ball around, we went back inside and learned about CROW. Then we played this one game where we have benches and we have to do whatever we can to get the person off the bench. No physical contact. The farthest we can go is putting out arm around them. And it was an actually scene where we were characters. It was pretty funny. LOOOL.

We didn't get to finish cause we had to go to lunch. Ate chocolate chips. :D Made Christian get water for me and it turned into a mini 'fight' but i couldn't speak cause my mouth was full and i couldn't swallow it cause i was laughing. LOL. "You two fight like a married couple!" LOL.. wow. We weren't even seriously arguing. After Christian got me my water, i told Jessica to write her name on my cup. ROFLROFL. I'm way too clever. :D Ahaha. Then Jessica and Stacy argued about whether German's were white or not. Jessica says yes. Stacy says no. I have no idea but i agree with Jessica just cause.(: Stick that in your juice box and suck it, Stacy!

Got back to class. Kept playing the game. It was hellaaa funny. Me and Maria were on the fucking floor laughing. ROOFL. You guys are good actors!xD I like how silly you guys can be and you guys are just being yourselves. I was sitting down and Christian dragged my chair all the way over their to try to get Eli off the bench. Everyone knows improv isn't my forte. But i was forced up there and so i had to do something. So i scooted really close to him and asked if i could touch his hair. Him- "Uh..okay." So then i started getting closer to him and was feeling on his hair all creepily. Him- "So uh, where are you going?" Me- "Doesn't matter." my tone of voice came out hella sexual sounding instead of creepy sounding. AGH. LOL. I just kept going at it and he eventually ran off. Ahahaha.

Then that one girl just came helluh close to my face and i just gave in. LOL. Stacy got forced up there and she couldn't even do it.. She was just like "Can i pass?" before she even started! WTH. She was so giggly and was just like "Can i see your phone?" She didn't even try to scare her away. Horrible actress. Or maybe just horrible improv-er. .__. Eventually she just sat there, not knowing what to do. Wow.

Christian was funny. He was acting drunk and shit. "Hey little missy. May i see your breasts?" Maria thought he said bracelets so she's like "Sure!" LMFAO. You guys are friggen funny as hell.xD Then Eli went and pretended he was special edish. "WHERE'S BALBOA?!" "What?" "BAL-BALBOA. WHERE IS IT?!" "Over there.." "WHERE? WHEREEE? I DON'T SEE IT. BALBOA. WHERES BALBOAA?" "Why are you yelling?" "BUT WHERE'S BALBOA?!" AHHAHA. I SWEAR!xD Then Jessica went. Singing horribly. Eli- "Ohmygod! So beautiful. Can you sing my favorite song? Poker Face by Lady Gaga." LMFAO. It was really funny. Then i scared Jessica away by freaking out about how she was sitting on Bob, my imaginary friend. I was just screaming and freaking out. LOOL. I was so in the moment, i felt the frustration. Funny. LOL.

Then, we played a game where we were blindfolded. Then Freddy would drop a stick of newspaper in the middle of the room and we would have to try to find it. And when we did, we would have to tag the other person before they got to your side of the room where you originally sat. It was funny because Freddy would slam it to the floor then silently place it somewhere else while they would freak out looking for it.XD One time, he didn't even put it to the floor, he just held it. ROOFL. Funnyy. Then we did mini convos. I was paired up with Stacy. Bleh. I memorized my lines already and Maria was like OMGG. ROFL. I don't like working with Stacy. She's too giggly. She messes up her lines. She's just so annoying and bad. Goddamn. LOL. After class, Maria was singing "Hey There Delilah" and we got into the topic of guitars and music. We have things in common. We're gonna get along great. :D

Then i thought i went early and took the 29. Got to Bal Park and saw Mimi's soulmate getting on in the front so i ran off the back. Waited a while then walked slowly to Mission singing Hey There Delilah to myself quietly. Brought back memories. Let a 14 pass just in case he was still there. Got on the 14L. He wasn't there. Thankgod! But i was REALLY paranoid. Whoever i saw in a hat and glasses, i freaked out. Sigh.

Oh flashback this one moment where i was acting or something at Bal and some random girl said i was good and should be in CAST. I just randomly remembered it and it made me smile. So thanks, random girl. LOL.

Theater is so funny. Makes me believe that i could get through this as long as i had friends like these. Sadly, none of them go to Bal except Eli, who i never see. But what i really need is drumming. It distracts my mind and lets me generate my emotions into the song. I could feel the pain in my body which i like. Plus the boys there make me smile. Keep the faith, Jessica.(:

"I've got friendship to help me pull through."

Well, i tried.

I'm starting to get tired of you this.

Weird dream..

So i was on AIM talking to the regulars when Judy suddenly IMs me and asks how i not care that she has cancer. I was like "Uh..what?" So then she told me about how she didn't want to let cancer kill her and she was gonna kill herself instead. I was just confused. I mean, i haven't talk to her in so long. And even to start with, we were never really close even though we had the same group of friends. So anyway, i guess i tried to talk her out of killing herself because there was still a chance she could survive the cancer. Then it flashed to another scene where she, or someone else, was running from this man. He was trying to rape her, i think. The place looked somewhat like a cemetery.

Then another scene where we were in this place for people dealing with whatever sickness. I was in a rainbow bikini. :D But the people told me to put a tanktop on. Wth. LOL. We played there for a while. Then i woke up at 6am. Went back to sleep and dreamt i was in this ghost world. It was like a maze and i had to get out alive. It felt so familiar, like I've dreamt this a lot of times before. The ghosts pretend to be creepy hobo ladies on the street or someshit. And my dad wanted to get a facial or someshit.

Ok, i don't remember anything else. Okay, bye.

Boys..

So recently, a lot of boys keep on trying to flirt and hit on me. Guys, I'm really not interested.

Francisco, picking me up and telling me i was 'so cute and you'd like to take me home with you' on the first day we met is not cool. Then trying to follow me home the next way was definitely not acceptable. Go away. You scare me and creep me out.

Jose, you're not as creepy yet but its getting just a tad annoying. Apparently you think I'm "Too amazing to forget." Yeah..thanks. But stop poking me. It's not funny. Oh and stop stealing my drumsticks. I don't care if i get splinters. It doesn't affect you in any way so why do you care?

Justin, you talked to me once and you're so desperate to 'hook up with me'. Stop. No.

I feel like I'm missing some people.. But anyway, those people bothered me the most. Just go away, please. I'm not interested. I'm too busy for a relationship even if i was, which I'm not.

We could still be friends though. Just cut the creepy stuff. :D

So wet today.-__-

Today was nothing special. The weather was absolutely awful.

Spanish was funny with Sophia and Jasmine. Didn't get any work done though.

History. Had a presentation and we had to do a mini skit. We were messing around the whole time so i told them to improvise. So then they started gossiping about me. .__. LOL. I didn't expect that at all. They talked about how i always hit them and keep pinching Jason's nipples. .__. Both of which are true. LOL. Then talked about my 'fat' problem about how i said i was fat and my 'boyfriend' didn't say anything so he probably thinks I'm obese. They can't tell when I'm acting or not. LOL..

Homeroom, got the school ID things but i didn't get one. I don't even want to see my picture.

Gym, hung out with the ladies. Interesting convo about teeth. LOL.

Lunch. Met Jammy at his locker.(: "There's something in your eye. Wait, it's a sparkle." Cute. Eventually went outside. Theme: nipples. LOL.

Bio. Didn't talk at all or smile. Just read then.. watched a semi-interesting video.

English, got our tests back. Ben was so jealous that i got an A+ and he got an F. He didn't even wanna talk to me.XD I don't get how most the class failed. The test was easy as hell. O__O

Afterschool.. Saw Dat. Twice. Stalker much? Then he said he knows all the inappropriate things i write on fb. I don't even write inappropriate things! LOL. And that proves that he is even more stalkerish!xD

I wanted to go home but Bryan said that it was the only time i get to myself and i want to go homee. He had a point so i went with him. I didn't talk much. And when i did, it came out in stutters or it came really fast. I started telling story but Bryan said he didn't care so i stopped. I know he was joking but whatever. Not gonna waste my breath. Dean kept asking me what was up. Thanks for the concern. Bryan rants to me about how i make myself too busy. I get it. Sorry. But i don't think i would stress myself out to the point where I'd kill myself but.. Thanks for caring.(: Then they walked me to Bal Park station and i saw Johnnathan. Saw Nikko. Waved. Didn't talk to him because he went the other way but yeah. Took the 14.

Didn't have an appetite so i decided not to eat. I just want to go in bed and just lay there forever. I'm so stressed and tired and frustrated. I wanted to scream and cry and just give up, but i wanted to laugh at the same time. I just couldn't. What i need is a good breakdown. I'd feel so much better afterwards but i can't. Its always only a couple tears. I can't actually cry. -__-

The stupid weather ruined my day.

"He'll pick you up just to watch you fall."

Reunited &no drumming = boring.

I don't feel like blogging today. I'll just write the interesting parts.

History, read and at the end, i was hella trying to pinch Jason's nipples but i kept missing really badly. Like, i would pinch his armpit, the middle of his chest, sometimes even his stomach! I fail so fucking bad. Ahahha. Tried with Brendan too. Fail. .__. I need to practice.

Homeroom, ate grapes with Cary and got our test result things. I fail. LOL.

Gym was cold. Kinda funny though. I don't remember why. Using my paddleball stick thing and humping everyone? LOL. Paulo thinks I'm quiet. Is that bitch crazy? LOL. Then he said I'm loud when I'm with them but quiet when I'm alone. NOSHIT. Who talks and shit when they're alone?! ROFL.

Before lunch. Let's keep that private.(;

Didn't talk or smile at all in Holoday's class. I hate this class. Then laughed like hell because of Wilson in Gonzo's class. Ahahha. Took a test. Me and Wilson were freaking out. Funny shit. LOL.

Afterschool, OoS. Saw Jesse and got all excited. Hugged him! Then Aileen made a comment about how i never hug them. LOL. And Paublo came with the other Christian. The gang is back! Except for Jack! He's not joining this year. D: That's so sad. It's not gonna be the same without him. Didn't drum at all today! Boring. But i was still smiling cause i was sitting with my boys again! But there's so many new people this time. Not very fun today. Jesse be hating on my duplicating skills! Haha. Spent lunch trying to act cool with Paublo.(: And i learned his way of not getting poked. "You poke me, man. I will poke back." I'll try that, Paublo.(: Tried making those fart sounds with my hands. FAILED. I can't do that, snap, whistle, anything.):<

I take everything you say so seriously. Even if i know you're kidding, i can't help myself.

"I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again."

I want to kiss you.

Whenever i see you. Sometimes, i just can't help myself.

Bonded with the gals &FUNDAY(:

Morning. Regular, tried to study last minute. Spanish, nothing much. But at one point Beloz was moaning/panting. LOL

History, had a sub buy still has the test. Easy except the extended response. Then Jason and Brendan bothered me. Tried pinching Jasons nipples but I kept missing. .__. LOL. Brendan has to stop being. "How is that?" Jeez.

Visited Stra. BH. She still remembers my name. How sweet. LOL. She gave me my workbook from last year to review. Eh. Homeriom, Uju kept looking at me. O__O Jammy, she's jealous. LOL. Me and Cary hella noticed it. Weird.

Cossick. Quiz. Pretty easy. My whole table got the name of the little brother wrong. I only remembered because that's my favoritee name. Christopher.(: Ben likes to punch me. It's hella soft but I still say it hurts to make him feel bad.. LOL

Fire alarm went off at lunch. I was annoyed because it would mean I had to move. Sighh. Lunch was interesting though. Bryan gets all intense over his soulmate. And Dean talks about how hot his girlfriend is. I added a part where he wanted to lick her asshole. ROFL. Sorry Dean.(:

So in Alg, I was asking Wilson if he had Houston and he's like "What? Do I have pubes?" Got okaay on my quiz. LOL. "Mr.Gonzalez is stupid!!" Him- -looks around- LOL. Freaked out over getting a B. I felt better after I saw Wilson's F though. LOLOL poorguy. Made fun of him with Jasmine. LOL.

Afterschool, went to OoS meeting. Was the notetaker to try to stop myself from spacing out. LOL. Went okay, i guess. Zoe kinda annoys me. Got pizza.(: Bryan and Paulo showed up to pick Mimi up. Apparently Bryan calls my glare the "Jessica glare" where i get really chinky and stare at him. Asshole, right? Attacked him.(:< Showed them my stalker/pedo. Scary. He didn't come to class today. YESYESYES.(: Christian made me go outside and work. Then he locked me out.. Ass. LOL. They left and i just wandered and made fun of Christian. Continued the inappropriate drawing on the trash can. I just drew wrinkles and a tongue and stuff. I didn't draw the inappropriate stuff. I thought it was Christian but i turns out, it wasn't him. LOL. Class finally started. Kept drawing on my picture. Drew on Mimi's picture as well since she left it on the table. It's what friends do.(:< Imma show it to her tomorrow. LOL. Hmm, texted them in the corner. Then that one song came on.. I totally froze for a minute. It made me miss you like crazy. I didn't get my kiss afterschool.): You owe me.(:< Then Stacy came to talk to me. "Hey guess what. I cut myself..." I raised my eyebrow and just stared at her skeptically. Then she's like "On accident." Wow. LOL. Went to our class. Did a longg check-in. Stacy kept complaining that she couldn't go to some concert or whatever. Did activities where we had to hold hands. LOL, it was confused but funny. LOL.

Then made shapes with our bodies. Christian's body shits were helluh funny. Ahaha. Then made pictures with it like scenes. Like someone goes and makes a pose or whatever and everyone adds a little something to it to show a photograph. Helluh funny. Freddy took a picture. Ahaha. POST IT, Freddy!xD It was too funny. Then we went outside and did more trust exercises. Like we close our eyes and run to a few people of the group and trust them to catch you before you hit the wall behind them. I didn't trust them at all. Hahaa. Christian was so dang fat, bent my wrist. LOL. Break time. Sat with Jessica &Rebecca. Talked about Jack. Something about Jessica likes him or used to like him a bit? AWWH, cute! Jack's a cutie, i don't blame you. I miss him though.D:

Class again and we read this thing about names. Did this activity about where we got our names from and ect. Got a small notebook for it too. O__O OoS changed so much.. After, bonded with Jessica, Stacey, and Rebecca. Talked about the Jonas Brothers like the fan girl i used to be. OMGGGG, Jessica and Rebecca used to be obsessed too! That's how they met each other. OMG, reminds me of me and Emmy. Got close cause of JB. LOL. I haven't squealed over them a year or so. Talked about Degrassi! Hannah Montana. Pretty Little Liars. Jessica hella spoiled it for Stacy. I want to start watching it, but too lazy. Haha. Squealed over The Notebook. Omg.<3 I felt so girly and shit again. It's been a while.XD

That was basically it. Fun day.(: Theater is getting better each time. Nothing compared to what Drumming used to be though. Jesse, you better be there tomorrow!

"You make me happy. Whether you know it or not."

Okay day &Paublo came back!

Took the bus with sister. Saw Mimis soulmate and avoided him like hell. First period. Sub. Sat with Sophia abs Jasmine talking about poop and mouses and shit. Funny. Spaced out a lot. Sophia drew grudge dpgsvabd creepy girls on my homework. LOL. Kinda offish.

Gym, pickleball. Out of it. Everyone was tired. Accidentally hit AndyT once. Felt bad. And JackyL hit him with the paddle. ROFL got him by Ling and Lin.xD Oh and emberly told me how her hamster was really sick and was dying.)': Saad.

Homeroom, did Cossick hw and read.

Bio, read. Learned to graph shit? Boring.

Lunch was funny. Bryan says all that we talk about is his soulmate. LOL. He won't even wave to her. LOL jeez. Mimi was all on him when his soulmate was there. She glared at her. LMFAOO someones getting their ass kicked. Then be blamed it on me somehow and everyone was freaking out for no reason. Screamed at each other. Helluh funny. LOL. And we argued about how he told me to yell Mimi and Paulo being a cute couple cause they were eating together. LOL him playing the innocent card. LOL. I thought about it but I didn't say anything till he pointed it out and shit. LMAO funny though.

Cossick. Death Cab for Cutie was playing. I don't know if it was hers or the TAs but(: Someday You Will be Loves and Your Heart is an Empty Room. :D Pretty chill. Ben asked for nu necklace then was like "Lingling you forgot your blingbling." .__. ROFL.

Alg, BLOGGINGG(: Wrote "Wilson loves Irene" all over his Do Now. LOOL. I'm glad I'm blogging now so I have more time for homework. History test tomorrow. FML. I don't know anything. So yeah, that's it so far. I'll blog about OoS when I get home.(:

Afterschoool. Jammy almost made me late. .__. Stupidloser. Walked with him and Bryan. Turns out the OoS kids were still waiting for the bus so i wasn't alone.XD Helped Alfie with the drums. Music room. Spent like half an hour or so learning about the history of the drum and where they originated. Kinda blanked out. Oopsies. Finally got started. Got a snare pad 'cause i was too lazy to get up and get a snare. LOL got broken ass drumsticks. Jose switched it for me cause he was scared I'd hurt myself. -rolls eyes- Haha. Why is Alfie taking it so slow and simple this year? Last year, he just jumped right into it and i was confused as fuck. Thanks, Alfie.D: LOL. No, its probably cause last year, me and Jesse were the only new ones and this year, me and Christian are the only old ones. OH, but Paublo camee. Hella late but still.

Lunch, hung out with the adults. Yeeuh. I'm cool. Chatted with Alfie for a bit. Goodtalk. Found out Jesse's suppose to be in class. Where the freak are you, dude? I miss you. It's not the same without you. Paublo coming back made it slightly more familiar.(: Went back. Got on the snare. God, bad memories of the snare. I'd get so confused. I did alright today though. Played next to Paublo. Man, he always adds a little something and he sounds pro as fuck while i on the other hand still occasionally mess up on the little things. Stop it! Making me look hella bad.xD Him and Christian are still making fun of me about my twirling. Shush.

Cristina's just a show off. Mwuaha.(:< I think i finally got it. But i only got it at the end. Fail. LOL. Basically it. I'm glad you're back Paublo. Makes me feel so much better about this class. Jesse, get your ass here.(: After, avoided Francisco and left with Mimi. Hoped the bus would come before he came out or I'd run my ass off. She said he was just waiting there asking when the drumming class was coming out. Oh god.

"And the emotion in your stare was just like you were never there."

Funny day &avoiding the pedo.(:

So busy. Barely have time to blog! I'll try to make this quick cause i still have to do English homework.

Woke up from an interesting dream. Curled my hair because i haven't in a long time. Forgot how fun it was.(: Got out and today was one of those days where i actually felt appreciative of my grandma. She had my breakfast all ready and some grapes to take to school ready. It's nothing big but i still felt thankful. I didn't tell her, of course. School. Walked with Stanley. He sleeps earlier than me and wakes up later and still complains. Geez. .__. Haha. Gave Sophia her poop.(: Happy Birthday again, Sophia!(:

History, notes. Practice quiz. FAILED. I need to study. Test Wednesday. After, talked to Brendan and Jason. Laughed a lot.(:

Gym, ran the mile. 4.5 laps. LOL. Easyeasy. Did some bleachers for fun. Good times in Ramirez's class last year. Haha. Talked about random shit w/Carmen and...Chiemy?

Homeroom. Read and shared my GRRRRRRRAPITOS with Cary.(: Ernie has pretty eyes. I just noticed that today.. Haha.

Bio, basically read the whole time. Randy, gtfo. You're hurt.

Lunch, the usual. Sang Jammy the song. It's too funny.xD I hope you enjoyed it.:D

Cossick, still was laughing about the song. LMFAO. I like this class. I like it when we have debates. AHEM, Ben. Argues with everyonee.XD Funny. Ernie was talking about sitting next to a black person. Then Ben turns the black person into a homeless person, which proved Ernie's point that we are prejudice based on race and culture. LOL. Got our collages back. WTF, we got a C?? Terrence's had barely anything and still got an A. Bullshit. Laughed so much over that though with JeremyL. Ahaha, his fault for putting freaking Muslims and fat people and crying people on there! Gosh! LOL. Hella funny though.

Adv Alg, laughed with Wilson over Liying. He was feeling down cause his toe hurted. I laughed at him so much. Even Gonzo did! LMFAO. Liying kept making comments towards him and shit which made me and Wilson laugh hella hard because i always joke around that she loves him. Funny shit in this class.

Afterschool, went to OoS. Sticky stuff. Haha. Avoided Francisco. He's still creepy though. STOP touching me. Thanks. I love the exercises Freddy makes us do. It's pretty fun and silly. Haha. Went outside and did trust exercises. One person had to close their eyes and their partner would lead them and walk around. Partnered with Jessica. Then we went in and set up an obstacle course on the floor. One person would close their eyes and have to try to get through the obstacle course without touching anything. The way they would know where to go is the crowd shouting directions at them. Pretty fun. LOL. Played telephone. Funny how the shit changes so much by the time it gets to the end. It got from Freddy saying "The sky is blue." to "muhmuhmuh." by the time it got to me. ROFL. And it got to "Don't be sad about the sky. Just because its moving, doesn't mean its goodbye." something like that to "Don't be scared of the sky just because it has Memphis." LOLwth? Funny class though.(:

Took the bus eaarly to avoid him. Mission successful.(: Saw Edmond too. He looked kinda sad though.): Alright, i should really do homework now. Bye.(:

"Hoping my night could be better than theirs in the end."

My weird dreams. .__.

I had a dream that consisted of people trying to rape me, a 'dark' hello kitty store, my grandma giving me this knife that could barely cut bread, and Mr.Kerr getting snakebites!

That's how obsessed and scared i am. .__. STAC, protect me from Mimi's soulmate after OoS. I'm too young to die or get raped. I'm like really, truly, creeped out now.D:

Cousin's house.

Interesting time at my cousins house. Consisted of candy, chores, GSA poster, clubs, music, talking about community service, the past. ROFL. Never in a million years would i have thought I'd be the way i am now when i was in 6-7th grade. Prep days. .__. So embarrassing when i look back. LOL. Her too. Her obsessing over High School Musical. ROFLROFLROFL. "SHH don't tell my friends!" None of our friends would ever believe us if we told them. xD Slept over. Her friend came. Talked about gay sex. How ___ has a boyfriend. QWFGTHBJKL. He never even met him but they did shit on webcam like flashing genitals and.. i won't go in detail. I'm sorry. LOL. Talked about porn. Calenders filled with half naked men for ___'s birthday. Or a masturbating toy thing where its shaped like lips then a tube..yeah. Awkward but hilarious. LOL. Curled my hair. -__- Curled my cousins hair. I gave her Japanese-ish side bangs and tied her hair up preppily. Her facial expression didn't match at all. LMAOO.

Talked about scene and emo people.. -__- Preps. Talked about our useless cousins. LOL. More weird shit. I don't even remember. Watching baby shows.(: Yeah, i don't remember what else but it was pretty interesting. I can't get over how i was a few years ago. EXACT opposite as i am now. -__- So embarrassing when i look back. LMFAO. No one knows and hopefully it stays that way. Like really. It's so embarrassing. I was everything i hate now.xD

Oh and my baby cousin. I put these really long black gloves on him which covered his whole arm and told him to go downstairs and tell his mom and sister he was a hakgwai. Apparently, he knows what balls are, what a penis is, what fuck means, ect. But he didn't know what a hakgwai was. LMFAO. Now he won't stop calling me a hakgwai. LOL that's cute.

Yeah, that's it. I don't normally like going to my dad's house. .__.

(:

(10:07:03 PM): #2: I like how you don't really have to try to look pretty, you just have that quality.

That's sweet. Thank you.(:

Easy day &good weather.(:

Beautiful sunny day! Wore my Mayday Parade shirt cause i was obsessed in the morning.(: Walked to school with Kelly. :D

Spanish. Got in groups. Sophia, Jasmine, and Vanessa or Joanna.. LOL. I don't even remember anymore.D: Did my English flashcards for extra credit.

History was hella funny. So I walked in and the desks were in groups already. And i told Jason that i thought the Chinese dude in the corner was Mr.Houston. And Jason's like "WTF, you're hella blind. He's not even black." and Mr.Houston was right behind him. I laughed so much.xD Then we worked on a poster thing. I spent SO much time being a perfectionist and making the lines straight.. Everyone else was already started. I decided to go on the floor and do it cause the paper was so big. After we were done, i wrote our names. It was like Brendan Miao): Jason Wong):< JESSICA LING(: with a box around my name. LMFAO. Then i was gonna write the date but i wrote 8 instead of 9 so i drew another deformed ass circle under the 8 and made it into a ugly snowman. Then we started coloring in the O's. Theirs was yellow, mine was rainbow and Houston had brown. Then we used random markers and scribbled all over the page.:D Ours was the sexiest but Houston didn't let us present.): He's just jealous. I laughed a LOT in this class today. Thanks boys.(:

Homeroom. Uh..i think i just read.

Gym, it was extremely sunny. I loved it but it wore me out. Pickleball. Urg. Sang Christmas carols.(:

Lunch, i was scared that they would hit me with the football. Gtfo, wannabe hakgwai.(: Luckily, the football hit other people and not me. LOLjk. But really.XD Stupid Jammy refused to come with me to Holoday. Butthole.<3

Holoday, did her homework and lab. Not fun.

Cossick, read at first. Then Ben asked me if i could be his "Guardian Angel". I asked how and he said to help in in Dueces. Ahaha. He was playing against all Asians. You're funny, Ben.xD Helluh lost.

Afterschool, meeting. Ryan left early and discussed with Eric. Blanked out a lot. Slightly awkward at the end.. Yeah. Took the 14 home.

My blog just shortened after lunch because i got too lay to continue. Nothing interesting happened anyway.

I miss you already, lowgong.):

"You were everything i wanted. Everything a boy should be."

Kissed him for the first time yesterday.

Everything that i hoped it would be.

And suddenly, I forgot how to speak.

Drumming isn't the same &stupid creep.

Sunny day today.(: I was expecting a very good day today. Laughing on the bus with Teresa. People probably think we're high or crazy.xD Walked to school. Saw stalker Dat. LOL. Jammy.(:

Spanish. Boringg. Got new students. Me and James didn't want anyone to sit between us cause we like to put our binders and book there. "No, no, no no. don't sit hereee." LOL. Don't remember anything else.

History. Finished boring movie. Read Hold Still. Really interesting book.(: Class read the history book.. Then started on my homework. Jason told me he was imagining me bald. "Why are you thinking about me?" LOOL. Talked about how his pubic hair could lift weights. .___. LMAO. But I fail at folding.xD "How did you graduate middle school??" And talked about how he would dress up as me for Halloween and pick up more guys than me. -__- LMAO how sad. "What's the shape of your bracelet thing?" -Jason. "Your face." -me. Then i realized how creepy that sounded. LOLOL.

Gym. Had a sub.(: Hung out with Vicente, Paulo, Brian, and Ariel. Funnyy. Vicente slept on me. Bunch of sexual jokes. "Stop it. It so hairy!" LOLOL. Grabbed Brian's boobs. Talked about Ms. Noll. Hot. Apparently, when i get poked, i scream louder than when i get hit by a basketball. LOL. Poked- "AHH." Getting hit- "Ah.." I'm cool. :D

After gym, went up to get my bio book. Met up with Jammy, Alan, and David. Got lunch with the,. Long line. .__. Walked back with David. Teased Bryan about his soulmate. AHAHAHA. After lunch, made Jammy walk me to Holaday. Thanks, love.(: But we had an open note test so i ran back to the locker and got my binder. Just on time.(: Easy quiz. Had to turn in homework but i forgot to do mine so i hurried to finish. Watched video. Chan kept throwing erasers at me till he got sent out. LOLOL. Bully.):

English, got pictures taken. Ewh.

Gonzo, BLOGGED up till gym. Did quiz with Jasmine.(:

Afterschooooooool. Saw Edmond and Evan. Two days in a row? You must love to pedo us a lot.xD OoS. Hella people. .__. Drumming class. No one i reconized besides Christian. WHAAT? Butbutbut. WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LOVES? What happened? Jesse? Jack? Paublo? There are new people here now and i have a feeling I'm never going to be as close to them as i was to the others. Sigh. Jesse's name was called on the attendance shit but he wasn't here. PLEASE be here Tuesday, yeah? I miss you. Who is gonna teach me how to skateboard now? Who's gonna offer me bunches of food no one else from OoS can get? Who's gonna call me their favorite cause our names are so similar? Please come back.

Got a new teacher. What was his name? Mike? He was a producer, i believe. He made good beats. It was good to see Alfie again. "Jessica is in the houuuse." Haha. Your favorite student, right? I missed you.(: First hour, we just checked the thing out and didn't drum. Lunch. People kept calling me shy and antisocial. Haha. I don't get that a lot. Christian tried to force me to meet people.-__- Talked to Nikko. Francisco needs to stop poking and touching me, please. Seriously. It's not funny anymore. Back to drumming. The hakgwai who keeps saying "AYEEEE". Annoying. You're not even on beat. Checked out the recording studio then got out the drums. I didn't feel like getting up so Alfie just gave me a ..fuck. Forgot the name of it...for me. LOL. Everyone failed so badly except for Christian. They failed so much that i was in the top 2 in that class.xD Got confused a little because Alfie switched beats in the middle and i didn't know if we had to follow him or not. Got back on track pretty quick though. My hand hurt so bad. So red and swollen.XD I like it.

After that, brought the drums up. Waited for the bus with Christian, Nikko, Mimi, John, Francisco, and other people. Nikko and them fot on the 29 but freaking Francisco wouldn't go in. He was about to, but i didn't so he didn't. God.-__- 8x came and we all came on. Fail Spanish. LOL. Got off. Got on the 14. Francisco kept asking me for my number. No, goddamit. Then he didn't get off at his stop and told me he would walk me home. WTH, NO. Gtfo. Who do you think you are. Trying to grab my arm and shit. No. I just met you yesterday. Stop it. Do i have to deal with this every Monday- Thursday for the rest of the year? My god. You actually creep me out now.-__- I'm lucky he walked the opposite direction when we got off.

I was still paranoid though. I had to check a few times if he was following me and i hurried to text Mimi about it. Jeez. Stupid pedo. Got home safe! Time to do homework and shower. I have so little time to blog now.D: LOL.

Jesse &Jack. Without you guys, I'm hella quiet and anti-social. I guess you're too busy to join this year, huh? I'm going to miss you dearly.

"I'm outdated. Overrated. Morning seems so far away."

OoS was gooood.(:

At the library in English. :D Since I'm gonna be coming home late today and will have less time to blog, I'll start now. Walked to school with Carmen, Erica, and Terence. They saw Randy and said hi to him. What a awkward moment. Trying to hide and keep my head down. LOL.

Spanish, read. Boring in this class.:/

Houston, they put on a boring movie so i just read. Stupid Jason be raping my desk, book, eraser, everything. LOL go away. When he was insulting me, i thought he said "You're cute." LOL. Jason's mean.

Homeroom, assemly. Saw Randy and gave Cary a look and he understood. LOL. Touched Gilbert's hair. Funky.. LOL. Made fun of Chinese accents.(:

Now I'm in English and this shit is so confusing. -__- Eh, I'll continue at home then.

Lunch, Jammy tried to get me to go in the guys bathroom but this teacher dude was like "GET OUTTA THERE." LMFAOO. Went outside. Talked to Mark. LOL.

Gonzo, sat in Andy's seat and forced him to move so i could work with Jasmine. Laughed like hell cause she thought she did hella well on the test but she didn't know there was a back side. I feel so bad for her but i was laughing so hard, i was gasping for air. I had to apologize to this one guy who looked at me. LOLOL. Hotguy has a girlfriend. Yeah..saw them holding hands and making out. Alrighty then. Moving on. LOL.

Afterschool, saw Dat. His last class is 218. LMAO. Saw Edmond, Evan, and Austin.:DD "What drugs are you on?" "What medication are you taking?" Jeez. I don't do that shit, guys. I'm naturally high. :D Dean, Paulo, and Bryan dragged me to Stones. Icecream. "Stop being so inapropriate you guys!!" LMAO. Went to the library. Paulo found my blog. .___. Stalker.. Then i left. Hella out of it.:/ Oh and my wrists felt really naked today cause i forgot my bracelets. O__O Sad. LOL.

OoS. Awkward at first but talked to Jose. O__O I knew he looked familiar. I used to know him back in 8th grade. That one Mexican dude. ROFL. Met this girl named Stacy. Too hyper and preppy for my taste but she's alright. Went in. I squealed over some balls and the teacher was like "Well.. someone's excited." ROFL. Did activites and tongue twisters and stretches. Threw balls around. I can't catch. .__. Or throw. LMAO. The Stacy girl kept saying i looked like her friend Cecilia. Oh, alright. Whatever. Lol, thats nice. But when they said you look like the other Jessica you have to scream "OH HEEELLL NO." Sweetheart that's rude.

Anywaaay, Mimi's soulmate was there.. LOL. "What kind of girl do you like?" -someone. "What school do you go to?" to me. "Bal." "I like Bal girllss." Oh shut up. LOLOL. Then he asked for a hug. Ahaha, i don't even know you.XD Back to class. Did this story thing where one person writes whatever they want till the teacher calls SWITCH. Then the next person writes, but they can only see the last sentence of what their partner wrote. It was helluh random and interesting. LMFAO. My partner was Rebecca.:0 All girls in this class though. O__O And i can't stop laughing in this class. Ahaha.

After. Took the bus with Christian, Rebbecca, Stacy, and Francisco (Mimi's soulmate). Stacy kept telling me about her big giant crush on BryanMartinez. LMFAO. That's nice, dear. "I like him soooo much. He's so cute. He put his arm around me. 5 times." LMFAOOO. Alright, keep your private life private. But i promised her I'd talk to him for her. .__. Took the 8x with Christian and Francisco. JEEZ guys. Stop doing this shit in public. I'm ticklisshhh. I'm glad you two are also. REVENGEE.(:< Talked about how i thought Francisco was like 20-something when i first saw him. He's 16.. LMAO. These two like to touch my hair. .__.

Took the 14 with him. He put his hat on me and was like "Aww, you look cute in hats." LOL. Thanks(: Poking me in a bus isn't a good idea. LOLOL. Everyone stares. When he got off, i gave him the hug he so desperately wanted. LOL. He started picking me up and was like "You're so cute. I wanna bring you home with me." LOL, tough luck, dude.XD

Went to Walgreens. As i was walking back, these 4 guys asked if me if i wanted a doughnut. "Hey, girl with the layered hair." LOL. Then they asked me if i wanted a banana. Met all the dudes. I remember only one of their names. Mike.. LOL, sorry. They were pretty cool though. I thought they were still in high school but they just graduated. Goddamn.. LOL. Mhmm, pretty chill.(: Pretty ironic though guys, I'm eating donuts right now.XD

The day turned good after 4:00.(: Thank you guyss.

"And I got friendship to help me go on."

Going back to OoS(:

I have my first OoS class today. When i think about it, i miss it. Or how it was anyway. I miss Jesse and Jack the most though.

Jack- Spinning outside on the wet grass like retards and times when we sang "I Will Follow You Into the Dark" together are my most fondest memories.(:

Jesse- You teaching me how to ride your skateboard. Haha, you made fun of me, then you fell on your ass. Ahhahah.xD And the other time was the Carnival with you and Christian. When you played that game where you were trying to see if it was boobs or ass. Oh, and when you went into that game thing even though you had sucky Spanish and they were speaking Spanish. And the old ladies kept pinching and slapping your ass. AHAHAHA.

Good times.(: I miss you two. Please come back to OoS this year so we can spend your last year together. Stupid seniors.):

Got accepted &laughteer.(:

Uglyy weather today.

Laughing like a dumbass on the bus for no reason with my sister. Spanish, got in a group with Sophia, Jasmine, and ...either Vanessa or Joanna.. LOL. We mostly talked about toilets. ROFL. Poop the size of a waterbottle. LMAOO. The stalls where you could peek at the other people. LMFAO. When she called on us, none of us wanted to talk so i did. Barely able to talk cause i was laughing though. "What's so funny?" LMFAO. Sophia wouldn't even help me and talk.xD After that, i was still laughing and the guy in front of Jasmine. The Zack guy, i think. I don't like him. He's the only fucking freshman in our class and he acts like he's hella good in Spanish. Anyway, he turns around and looks at me with the stupidest, funniest expression ever. It was like O__________O. Except more ugly. He turned around and Jasmine pointed at him and tried not to laugh while i was trying to breathe. Oh.My.God. LMAOOO. "Your laugh is so contagious." LOL(: Talked to Kelly about her cat. LOL how she traps him under her covers. LOLOLcute.

Walked to gym with her. Saw her Extralarge shirt and started laughing. LOLOL. Cute though.xD Went up. Talked to Kelly. Then Vicente. Glassman came so i ran back over there. Went outside. COLD. She suddenly started being HELLUUUUUH bitchy. So someone said shutup to her and she got hella pissed and decided to 'punish' us. Walking on the track. OOOH, nice punishment.:D Walked the curve and ran the straight. Easyeasy but Donna found it hard. Mr.Gray's former students.. LOL. Pushups on the new grass hurt.:/ She decided to punish us again and made us walk the track till we went in. LOLOL. Stupid girl.xD

Homeroom. Read &talked to Cary. His Spanish shit..LOL. And the thing Sophia but on his binder.. ROFL! She had practice drawing Mexicans on the back of my homework last year. .__. Ahah. Got a free shirt.:D Tried to fold it but i couldn't so made Cary do it. LOL. Fail.D:

Bio, i don't even remember. But fucking Randy. Will you GTFO and STOP staring at me? You don't need to say hi to your friend every 5 minutes and have an excuse to keep turning back. Goddamn. Make me feel hella awkward cause sometimes when im looking at Holaday, you suddenly turn around and we make eyecontact. God. Please. Just..GTFO.-__- No one wants your hurtass. I wish i sat somewhere else but you'd find another excuse to look that way like when i moved that other time. I didn't see you constantly turn around then. Wth is wrong with you. I feel so.. violated. LMAO. Oh yeah.. You hurt. Buhbye.

Lunch, COLD. Talked to Vicente &Mark. LOL, turns out, he was the one who said shutup to Glassman. ROFL. I helluh knew it!XD Someone asked who said it and i shrugged and said it was probably Mark. I was right. Ahaha, i know you well, bestfriend.:D And fucking Ms.Noll asked Dennis to the Sadie Hawkins dance last year. WTHHHHH. Fucking shit.-__- LOL. Like my heart was torn outta my chest.): Kidding. But really. How could she do this to me?)': Talked to Alan &David. LOL. Complained to Jammy about how cold it was. His fault. -__-

English, went to the library. Ben's funny. Ahaha. Me and Diana just sat and talked &made fun of books the whole time. Got the book Hold Still cause i remember Kelly told me it was good.(: Did the shit on the computer. Ehh.

Gonzo, did quiz. Hard. At one point, Liying just let out this high pitched moan/scream. And was like "This is so hardd." everyone bursted out laughing and she didn't even get it. I was all looking at Wilson, trying not to laugh. She didn't even realize it. LOLOL. Everyone was hella laughing and staring at her though. Dumbass.xD After the quiz, he gave us crossword puzzles.:D Worked on it with Wilson. LOLOL. Wrote "Loves Irene" on top of his paper next to his name. when Gonzo gave it back to him, he was like "Wilson Loc..loves Irene." LMFAOOO!! Wilson hella glared at me.XD Ahah. Took notes. Yeah. The hotguy moved like directly in front of me. Yeah, trying to distract me from my quiz? LOL. Not gonna work.:D

Afterschool, wanted to walk alone so ditched Jason, Paulo, and Bryan. Went home. Got a call from.. What was her name, Jillian? Got accepted in Theater and Drumming. It starts tomorrow for me. .__. Oh well. Then found out i got accepted to OoS YAB. ADSFGBHJK. I'm excited.:D I thought i failed the interview. Baby, i think your 'goodluck' worked.(; Haha.

Anyway, that's it. Tomorrow will be better, yeah?(:

"He walks away. Every color turns to gray. And every precious moment's now erased."

I can hardly breathe.

But don't worry about me.

I miss you, lowgong.

Just thought I'd let you know.

The Notebook.

I swear, it gets to me every time. My eyes are going to be so swollen in the morning.):

Stop crying, Jessica. Breathe.

I seriously think Teresa is high right now.

LMFAO.

WTH.xD

Teresa- -comes in the room laughing her ass off- You- You love being bl-black? -laughs-

Me- ...What the hell? Where'd that come from?

Teresa- -keeps laughing, almost spitting the cheerios out of her mouth- I- I can't even swallow this.

Me- That's what she said! LOL.

She's hella random.. LOL.

Cute boy &IanGorilla.O__O

So i guess my mom decided to surprise us and bring us to a fair in Millbrae. I wouldn't have ever suspected. Aha. Saw this little boy singing "Melt with you" he was SUUUUPER cute. I believe his name was Brandon and he was 4 years old. When he sang "I'll stop the world and melt with youu." i almost died. He's so cute! And he was only 4 years old, and he had the nerve to go up on stage and sing. Wow. My mom asked me if i wanted to go up and I'm like "FGHKIJF. NO." LOL. The little boy made my day along with my Starbuckss.(:

Then my mom saw her friend and turns out, it was Ian's mom. What a small fucking world. Ian- the first guy to like me in 5th grade. I hated his guts because of it. Don't judge! I was in 5thgradee. And i still feel some resentment towards him today. I don't even know why. We used to get along just fine 'till someone told me he liked me. So sorry for all the dirty looks and shittalking. I'd make fun of your last name and said it was Ian Gorilla. I actually still remember your last name.. lol. And saying you had a pear shaped head. You did though! It looks more squarish now though. O__O LOL. I wonder if you recognized me. Whatever.

Anywaaay, walked around. My mom bought this flowing water thing. Man, it would suck if you had to listen to that when you needed to pee hell bad. I said that your pee would explode outta you or something with my sucky Chinese. LOLOL. My mom- "Ohmygod. -fp-" LMFAO. Then singing to my starbucks. Yeah, I'm a freak. LOL. Now i feel high. Thanks, Starbucks.(:

What a nice surprise today.(:

"You'll be Romeo and I'll be Juliet."

So if love is a drug,

then I guess I'm addicted.

Get it together, Jessica.

What is wrong with my emotions today? Bursting into tears over nothing. Then i could be laughing the next moment. Jeez. Get it together.-__-

I feel like a Lowell student.):

Ugly weather today, but i was hopeful it'd get better. Walked to school with Carmen, Erica, and Terence, i believe. Spanish, we had to wait hella long for the sub. Me, Clark, and Mimi went into Ms.Noll's room for the time being. LOL. Talked to Kelly, Sean, and Clark. "Hey stupid!" Haha. Did my work quickly then read and music. "What's a HOMO-nym?" James starts laughing.-__- Sor-ry, i didn't know how it was pronounced.D: LOL.

History, practice quiz which i failed and boring movie. Music &reread the chapter since i didn't get it when Houston read it with us.

Homeroom, no food. Read.

Gym, hungout with the girlss. Pickleball. Carmen went to the clinic and it wasn't the same without heer.): Got tired so we just sat. Carmen came back. Made house of paddles. LOL. I'm a loseer.

Lunch, tried to find someplace where we could work on our powerpoint project. Walked around everywhere and at one point, Paulo disappeared.. LOL. Nothing was freaking open, goddammit.-__- Ew, Jammy is hella hakgwai. Him and his stupid hakgwai music. LOL.(: He walked me to Holaday. Wouldn't go inside, of course. Haha, that's cute.xD

Holadaay. Hate this class. Holaday said i was out of my seat.. Uh, you put me here.. So she moved me again. GODDAMN. Fucking oldass doesn't even know where i sit.-__- Started talking to Kevin and doing extra credit shit. "LINGLING. You look out of it.):" -Chan. Eh, i think its mainly just the class. Then he asked to copy my other worksheet so i gave it to him. Then i made him come help me with the rest of my worksheet. He helped me on half then circled random shit for the others.-__- Then he decided it would be fun to poke me. Not fair that he's not ticklish.D: He says he is but only in certain spots. Apparently, i almost found it but i stopped before i got it. Haha. He lightly twisted my arm but it still hurt. JEEERK.): Then he got sentout.D: LOLOL. Afterclass, he was outside bullying me again.): Hahaha.

Cossick, time went by pretty quickk. I want a CAST hoodie.:D

Afterschool, went with Terence and Diana to the library. Carmen and Erica came later. We all worked on it for so freaking longg. Cracked hella jokes cause me and Terence were so fucking confused as to what to put. At one point, i just copied and pasted a WHOLEE bunch of shit and they were like "Ohgoddd." but i erased like 11/12 of it.xD Diana finished first, then me, then Erica, Terence was hella slow. LOL. We tried to get powerpoint to our things. It was blocked though. LOL. Carmen was on tumblrr. LOLOL. Pretty funny though. I'm glad i had wonderful company even though i have better things to do on a Friday.xD

Then after Terence finally finished, we walked him home. We walked behind these three girls who were smoking. Smelled like fucking weed. Gross. Said bye to Carmen and Erica, and took the 14 home. Mhmm. I'm just glad i finished and we don't have to present it.(:

Alright day.
I hate how i get so overly emotional.

"I'm confused and i bruise. Yes i do."

I have never had such strong feelings for anyone before. This kind of scares me.

PickleROLL(: &JAAAACK. the interview.

Today, the sun came out. Beautiful.(: Took the bus with my sister. Snickering and commenting on people. LOL. Walked to school. Randy was right there. EW. Why are you everywhere? God, get a life. Walked with Jason. Talked about the sun and hakgwais.

Spanish, me and James are such losers. We look at each other and start laughing. Talked about where i wanted to visit. AFRICA! Cause there's commercials of the skinny kids and in South Park, there's this fat lady eating all the food. LOLOL. I wanna be there and get some food. LOLjk, but really. Hella lucky she didn't call on me. James- -whispers- "Call on Jesica." And then she called on him. LOL. Bitchh. She never calls on me cause she doesn't remember my name.XD

History, took notes and read.

Homeroom. LAS UVAS. LOLL. But i like to say GRRRRRRRRAPE-ITOS.(: We ate almost all of it besides like.. 3. Did History.

PE, gave a grape to Janet. Brought the bag outside then went upstairs to tell the sub to come down. Hung out with the girlsss. Paulo came and i told him to gtfo 'cause i was hanging out with all girls. "Oh yeah, that's hella rare." LOL. Played pickleball for a while til.l we got tired of it and started just rolling it to each other. Kinda like golf, but we passed it back and forth. We called it PickleRoll. LOLOL. Fun. Carmen hit me in the stomach with it once.XD Then we got hot and tired so we just sat there.(:

Lunch, Diana said there was bookclub meeting so we couldn't do the project.

Holaday, tried to make Jammy come in with me but he was too scared. LOLOL. Took notes, worksheet, then music+rest. While certain people next to me were talking about drugs. Jeez.

Gonzo, talked to Wilson. He's hella funny. Threw away his DoNow. LOLOL. Um, whatelse. Talked to Andy a bit. Tried to share a seat with him but his fatass couldn't even make room for me.):<

Afterschooooool, i got my goodluck. It was the best "GoodLuck!" i've ever gotten. Half cause it was coming from you. Walked around in a circle. SAW. FUCKING. JACK. PATTERSON. OMGGG. Haven't seen him since June 5th! He had cookies! Asked for one. He was hanging out with his friends. That hot guy that i saw the other day, yeah, he has a girlfriend. And they have matching highlights. Neon green. They're cute together. Jack has cute frineds. LOL. Thanks for the cookie and i hope to see you SOOON!(: "Now, if i see Jesse, my life would be complete." Aha, flashback to when he made fun of me on his skateboard and fell on his ass. Karma, biatchhh. ;D Ahaha, i miss you guys like crazy.): Went to some volunteer group and asked about it. We were too young.-__- LOL.

Walked to OoS. I was so scared. Talked a bit. They thought we were gonna be late but we were a minute early.(: I was shakingg. I tried to stop myself, but i couldn't. Haha. Slightly awkward. I kept smiling like a dumbass. Partly to decrease the awkwardness, partly because thoughts of you always make me smile. I don't like Zoee. But i still acted hella nice to her. Hugged Christian, then left. I have a feeling i won't get in, but that's probably me just overthinking everything.

I'm just so lucky to have you in my life.

"Every day without you just makes me miss you more."