Agh.-__-

Eh, i have nothing to do today. And it feels so AWKWARD. Cause I've been out every Saturday since ..i don't even remember when. And now I'm at home with more than enough sleep. I wanted to go to EcoFest today but then i had a feeling Mimi's brother wouldn't let her go. Talk about psychic. I would go but i don't know where it is, and i don't wanna go alone. But i was looking forward to it. Not anymore though. Fuck it. And of course, i had to wake up at 8am this morning. I know it's too early to be saying i have nothing to do cause it's only 9:12 but i can feel it. WHY isn't there community service today? And Mimi canceled on Cary and didn't wanna go to Japan Town anymore so..i don't know. PLUS, my voice is like gone. So i guess STAC really wanted for me to stay home today and make me heal. But i have nothing to distract me from you today. And i just want to SCREAM. I thought i needed rest. But..i don't want it. And sure as hell i don't want to get started on Ramirez homework. I'm just so out of it. Maybe tomorrow.:/

I don't even know whats happening. Not to offend anyone, but the people I'm with everyday just seem so dull. Like they can be talking about something and my mind will wander someplace far off. Or i can care less about what they talk to me about. I don't think that's a good thing.-__- I need a new life. I like how mine is going right now but it can be better. It will get better. I'm looking forward to summer because i don't have to see certain people, AND my friends for a while. And hopefully i will miss them and want to talk to them or see them. But i feel like the people i ACTUALLY want to be around, i barely get to see. Maybe like once a day, or a few times a week. Cause they can actually make me laugh till i think I'm gonna die. We all talk and laugh and just have an awesome time. Like i can totally be weird, retarded, self around them.(: And all of them are guys, so i guess Nguyet does have it tougher, being my only friend that's a girl. Maybe it's my sickness messing with my mind, but i can't use that as an excuse for everything.

AND 14 more days left till the Art Walk. To say that I'm nervous is a big understatement. I don't think i will do well. Like at all. I refuse to play the snare. I refuse. I definitely know i will mess up. No doubt that i improved but still, it's scary. I think the only other group that should be nervous as well is the dancing. We have to perform live. And its me and Jesse that are new at this. Before this started, i didn't know a single thing about playing. Whereas Christian, Paublo, and Jack have been playing for quite a while now.

I guess I'm done ranting. But YOU need to come make it better. Empty hope though, I'm sure. I don't even know what happened with us. Well, whatever. Bye.

"I would jump across the sky cause i think i can fly. And I'm flying. I'm flying away."