Girls..?

I don't understand it either. My natural hate for girls. Maybe I'm crazy, cause i see other girls with her friends. Most of which are girls. They're her support system. The kind of people that you go shoping with, cry with, talk about their boy problems with, or have sleepovers with. It kind of makes me sick. Am i not normal? But i have always prefered guys over girls. Even though before, my friends were mostly made up with girls, it kind of bored me. They would sit around talking about how hot someone was or how cute something was. I would be lost in my own thoughts. They don't interest me, i guess. The girls i really hate, are the preppy ones. They are stuck up, arrogant, and full of drama. They aren't loyal to thier friends, they're loud, they just make me wanna scream. But i know, i used to want to be one of those girls, believe it or not. I used to want to be looked up to, hated, and longed for. But i've found some state of mind, luckily.

I just don't get girls. I seriously don't get how they can be so annoying. I am aware that i am a female, and i don't want to change that. I am sure. But i prefer to hang out with guys. Reasons? They are understanding, funny, carefree, loyal, dramaless, strong, and just straight up fun. Sure, they talk about stuff that i am clueless about sometimes. And sure, they can annoy me to the point where i wanna chop their balls off. But that still makes them 100x times better than girls. For one, they don't PMS. LOL! Kidding. Guys to me, are the same thing as girls to a normal girl. Like, regardless of their gender, they're just fun to be around.

Girls have their girl friends. My guy friends are the equivilent of the girls you're friends with. But i'm not sure why it matters so much just because they are guys. And honestly, some of the guys that i am friends with consider me a guy also. And i think that it's the best compliment ever. I may not be the most polite or whatever. I don't know. But i can be girly sometimes. Haha, i have my moments. Not all girls are how i described though. I have a couple girl friends. Okay, one. Maybe two. Like some girls are cool, they don't make me wanna strangle the shit out of them. But most girls are just so full of shit.

Hmm, for example, one girl. I was gonna write her name out but i decided to be nice. Wait, no. I'm not nice. So AshleyL, if you're reading this. You are such a lovely person. I admire how you can hate someone just because you're totally jealous of them in everyway. Haha, you hate me cause I'm skinny. But you're just fat. So you like to accuse me of anorexic, are you sure you're not just overweight? I love how you talk about me. Saying how i 'left' you that day. Funny thing is, i don't like you and you don't like me so why is it so weird that i left you by yourself? Oh, i know. Cause you feed off attention so when no one pays attention to you, you get pissed off. Well, guess what, love, your friends could care less too. Frankly, talking about your friends behind their backs doesn't make them stay with you when you need them. That's not how you make friends, honey.

So whoever hates me, please let me know. Cause i will have more respect for you if you do tell me. Just come up to me with a "I don't like you." with a reason and walk away. Chances are, i dislike you also. Especially if you're a female. I think that would make my day. Cause last year, i wanted haters. I wanted people to despise me, don't ask why, I'm not normal. But i was looking forward to having people hate me in High School. And i still do. When i hear about someone who hates me, i think that i have succeeded in something. Why? I have no idea. It's just one of those things i enjoy, like being alone, or not liking girls. I really can't explain it. But i don't know, a lot of things i do, i have no explaination for. I have yet to figure out how my brain works. But its different from most people, i can tell you that.

So again, whoever is being a stalker and is reading this, come clean please. And don't mind me if i laugh in your face. Sometimes, i can't control myself.xD But overall, i think i'm nice. Frankly, i can't be mean to someone who's nice to me. That's why I'm nice to most girls. They talk to me, and i have to smile and act nice to them. Cause i would feel horrible if i was a bitch to anyone who was darling to me. Even if i know it's just an act. I bet you're thinking, 'WTF goes on in that brain of hers' LOOL. I wonder too. Whoever i'm really friends with can tell you that i'm really not all that nice and sweet. Of course, i can if i want to be. And i am when i have to be. But usually, i'm amazingly sweet to the people i can't freaking stand. It's just the way i am. And to adults(besides my family members), i can't be mean to them either. 1) cause they have authority. And 2) i just CANT. They are older and stuff and i feel like i need to respect them.

Anywaay, i'm done. Because i don't feel like talking about this anymore. LOL. Goodnight everyone.(: Sweet dreams.