Why i've been so bleh lately.

I feel so tired lately. I mean, i know everyone is. But i feel like I'm taking on too much. Which isn't even a lot. Really, the only days i get rest are Mondays, Fridays, and Sundays. But then Mondays and Fridays, i have school. And Sunday is the day where i have to do all my homework. But Wednesday is kinda my fault. I hang out with people, but that's kind of like its a fun, stress relieving day. Then everything else is tied to drumming, which i am 100% committed on. And community service, which i am equally committed to. But both of them require a lot of energy from me and usually leave me feeling like every part of my body is bruised. I just really need a good sleep.:/ PLUS, I'm currently on my period. Oh joy. That's bad enough to make me moody without everything else piled on top of it. So Monday, Monday's are the worst. First day of the week, i just hate Mondays. Tuesdays, drumming. Wednesdays, hang out day. Thursdays, drumming. Fridays, school. Saturdays, community service, which is fun but very tiring. And Sundays are just cramming work days.

So therefore, I've had very little patience lately. Like, you say something stupid, and i either glare at you or yell at you. That's not like me. But i just really need a vacation. I want to just have a week where nothing is happening. No school, no friends, no work, no nothing. Just me catching up on my rest and having down time. But really, that's not possible to freeze time for yourself. I really need a vacation. Like now. I'm so glad there's only one more month of school. One more month of all this stress. But then again, who else will be there to make me laugh. Even though i laugh at absolutely everything, and nothing, i doubt i can be happy around family. I don't know how other people love their families. Mine can go suck it.but

But anyway, i guess I'm not used to having shit to do. Eh, i really just need life to slow down for a second so i can breathe. So my apologies for snapping at anyone. For having such little patience with everyone. When i settle in for living in the fast lane, it'll be better. I promise.(:

"Living life, life in the fast lane. Not that hard, i know i can't complain."