Better days. :D

I forgot this part on my blog on Sunday. So when we were picking up trash, we walked by the stage to this okay looking boy beasting on his guitar. That, of course, made me squeal like a fangirl. Then Mimi pointed out how he was out of our league cause he was on stage and we were picking up garbage. T__T LOLOL. And he kept staring at us when Mimi said that he wasn't bad looking and walked by him. LOOOOL. Then another time was i saw people playing so i ran over to them going like "OOOOH GUITARISTS." turns out, they were in masks so i was like "Forget it!" and we left. LOL. That reminds me of the time when i saw shirtless guys at Lick and was like "OMGGG." -stares- and the time in China where we were wondering in some mall and a screen came up showing male models. I was like "OMG, MALE MODELS!" -stares- and my mom was like "Jessica Ling!-__-" LOLOL.

Okay so today was a fairly good day. Woke up late again. Didn't do anything to my hair. .__. Ate mashed potatoes. School. Beliz, ate grapes. Read my book.

Gym, getting really annoyed of Janet always having to borrow my sweats. -__- Played tennis. Then pretended to play. Ugh.

Homeroom, read.

Holaday, ate my lunch, notes, did homework, read. Jason said i finally looked happy today. Ahahaa.

Lunch, i fail at being a girl. Talked about sexual shit the whole time. Cum.. LOL.

Cossick, don't remember. Not much.

Gonzo, nothing special.

Afterschool, walked with Andy and Kelly to the busstop. I was trying to go on other busses but Andy was begging me to take the 54 with him. I don't like the 54, it turns!): But i took it with him anywaay. I made fun of his shortness and he said i was 'buff'. Teaase. LOL. Got to OoS. Went in the kitchen with Claudia and Mimi told me my class left. .__. Ran down and Alfie was coming out saying he left some stuff. So i took my time and when i went back up, i couldn't find them anymore. Then Khalil came and we both couldn't find them. -__- Then they suddenly appeared downstairs and we ran to join them. WTH. LOL. Played the shakers first. Agh, solo. Hella hard for me going first. .__.

Then played the middle with he srtap across your shoulder. Let me tell you, that shit hurts like hell. Not at first, but after about 10 minutes, your shoulder starts giving out because the middle is heavy enough as it is, but you have to hit it, therefore constantly pulling ll weight on one shoulder. It just hurts so bad. .__. Complained about it and Christian and Alfie heard it. He told me to put it on my left shoulder when I'm playing with my right hand. Christian just agreed that it hurt like a biatch and offered to trade drums when we got back from break. :D

Break was fun. Ate hella donut holes when we got out since we were first. But once the other people came, they just scooped it up and shit and took all of it. It was gone in an instant. .__. Played that game where you put your hand on a surface and stab the gaps in your hand. My hands are hella small so i kept stabbing myself. -__- But i still kept doing it. Fail. LOL. Then sharpied all over Jose. :D I just like messing with him. Otherwise, he's eh. He's awkward. He'd make a comment that's not even funny then start chuckling and we're just like ...lol... And he kept missing his fucking note on the one! Annoyed me half to death. Made me wanna go like "FUCKTHIS. I'll play. Fuckyou. Get off." But i kept my cool.. Anyway, the boys all ganged up and started messing with me. Why is it always me?! Not that i have a problem with it since its you guys but still. LOLOL.

Anyway, went back in and played the snaree. I love the feeling that I'm getting better and better every time i play. Last year, i hated the snare. I hated the hips. I didn't like the middle or bass either but it was all i could play. This year, I'm starting to fall in love with the snare. In fact, i think i already fell. It's pretty amazing. Maybe cause I'm getting better. Maybe because i just am less self conscious of mess ups because I'm not the newbie anymore. Either way, i love to play the snare the most out of anything else now. Even if it does hurt my crotch sometimes. LMFAO. And my arm gets so tired and sore.xD Greeat practice. Felt like throwing up after. .__. Not good, but yeah. LOL.

Left with Mimi. Messed around with Christian and he said "That's how Sam died." when i pushed him then stumbled backwards, almost losing my footing on the brick thing. Told him it wasn't cool to joke about that so quick. Talked about our nonstop meetings. Christian thinks this is the last week of them. Got on the bus with then. Mimi's soulmate left for some reason. O__O Talked about hot teachers at CAT. LOL. And how i fail at being a girl because i don't even have that much girl friends. I'm not sure if i can even count up to 5 of them. .__. Christian asked about the theater people and i mean, sure. They haven't been with me very long but they're decent people and most of them are fun to be around. But Becca's leaving forever and Jessica is leaving for a little while. Christian told me the reason why. So many deaths lately. -__-

Took the 14 home and yeah. Drumming is my high. Maybe not as strong as before but the passion is taking it's place so it's all good.

"No one is harder on me than myself."