I think my life is finally coming together and getting clearer. You might wonder how i can even think with the crazy schedule i have.

Monday- Thursday- OoS classes. Percussion &Theater.

Monday, Friday lunch- Drama club.

Wed 1-4, meetings.

Fridays 4-6, meetings/work.

Saturday, community service.

Sundays- catching up with all my homework and sleep that i missed.

Every single day, i have something. But the truth is, i need all of these things. They're my biggest distractions from everything that's going wrong. These things make me feel important. It feels like I'm not just like everyone else. School. Homework. Call it a day.

It makes me laugh to see how many other people are complaining about how stressed they are. Oh, you have school and homework. So does everyone else! I, on the other hand, am at OoS almost every single day for classes and work. Then on the weekend, i may have more meetings and/or community service. I don't even get to see my mom at all most of the week. And my complaints are still minimal. So when i see some normal student going like "I'm soo stressed. I'm so tired. I need a break." Haha. I think i need one more than you. But we're not going to get one and we're just going to have to deal with it.

I like the hectic lifestyle i have now. Sometimes i really want to just be normal and hang out with friends instead of saying "Oh sorry. I can't. I have work/ a meeting." But.. I've never been normal so what makes me think i can start now?

I still wish i had you with me through it all.