Who i am, who i want to be.

I wish i had that quality some people have; the one that makes people fall in love with you the minute you talk to them. The one that attracts everyone, the one that allows you to get along with everyone. The hilarious one who people want to be around. The people who make a big impact on others in a short period of time; that's who i want to be. But no, I'm just an awkward girl who can be really quiet or really loud at the wrong times. The girl who can't get along with everybody even though she was born to be a people-pleaser. The girl who would rather be alone than socialize even though she craves attention. The girl who tends to say the wrong things because she doesn't think before she speaks. The girl with the dirty mind. The one who can't have deep talks because she'd rather throw bad punchlines to ease the tension.

Here's to who i want to be,

It's about time everything about me changed for the better. I've changed a lot already, but there is always room for improvement. I will always be jealous of the people who are naturally hilarious without trying, the people who are extremely charming and sweet, the people everyone loves, and of course, always, all the talented people i meet. I will always want to be these things, but i need to learn to be happy with what I've got. I'm confident about my looks, but there's still so much I'd change about my personality. I want to accept every single part of me, good or bad.

I want to be the girl who gets through everything with a never faltering smile on her face. I want to be known as the confident one, even if that confidence may be a little bad for me sometimes. I want to be the talented one, the funny one, the considerate one. I want to stop judging based on first impressions, or without any justified reasons. Ultimately, i just want to be a bigger and better person, every single day.

Always,
Me.