"I got F'ed!"(:

I was originally going to make a long rant/blog about what's on my mind. But I got the inspiration to write a song. My song turned into a poem and this is what I did in Biology:

I try so hard to please everyone.
Yet, it's never enough for myself.
My heart filled with curiosity.
My mind filled with doubts.
I try to keep a smile on my face.
Hoping that it will someday become real.
Genuine laughter is rare these days.
I'm not saying my life is hard.
Or even that I have it bad.
If you compare, I have it quite easy,
So why am I not happy?
There's so much about myself I want-
No, I need to change.

I'm so useless. I can only write when I'm infatuated, happy, hurt, or depressed.-__- Or, of course, if I'm forced to. School was stupid as usual.

Drumming was chill today. Bits of high points here and there but it's not like it used to be. I got on the snare, but Alfie told me to get on the middle cause "I got it all down." In other words, I'm not good enough to play the snare. I understand, i really do. Last year, i would die if you told me to go on the snare. But now, i actually want to play it. It's fine though, I understand completely. We need to get it all together for the final performance. I even suck at the middle! Monica had to correct me and bring us back on track. Monica! The girl who's a beginner. The girl who doesn't play half the time because she doesn't know what's going on! The girl who acts all buddybuddy with Jesse.. Okay, that's irrelevant.. Why do i screw up so much? -__-

Jesse told us a funny story about how when he was in 8th grade, he was on the 43, talking to "Two beautiful girls" and someone from behind pantsed him. Then he ran off the bus crying. LOLOLOOL. Oh, how cute. But that was 4 years ago.XD Kahlil hugged me and humped me. "OHMYGOD, I'm getting F'ed!!!" LOLOL. Yeah, I'm innocent, i didn't even say the F word.(: I got F'ed like 5 times today though. At some point, i had to keep running away. Played CHESS! Well, Jesse and Kahlil did. I just tried to understand it. Bleh! Ew, Francisco was so close to me. I decided to be nice to Jose today. LOL! Blahblahblah. Whatelse, Jesse taught me this 'cool' trick on the skateboard. I was screaming and holding on to him. LOLOLOL! I'm a skater now, dawg! :DDD OH, and Khalil's moan "OhOH!" LOLOLOL. It's way too hilarious.

"You shine so bright, it's insane. You put the sun to shame."