Life.

Life is currently being a bitch to me. Why can't happy times last longer than a day? Days like those, everything is okay. Days like this, i don't know why i bother. I can't relate to anyone. I don't like my 'friends'. The friends i do like, they're going to leave me. This is the last year i have with them. Honestly, I'm so afraid of what's going to happen when they go. So scared. I know i seem like the outgoing type, but i don't have much friends. Not at all. I'm very antisocial and tend to shy away from people. I feel like the outcast. I want to know how it feels to be accepted and welcomed.

I need stability, but everything's changing. Everyone's changing. Maybe i need to change too, just to keep up with everyone. But i am changing. For the better and for the worse. I'm so stressed, i bitch at people now. But, I'm also more confident.

The only way i know how to deal with it.. Time for some chocolate. I only eat chocolate when I'm depressed.