A Lover Died.

I dropped my knife as I realized what I have done. The shiny silver stood out in the big pool of red. I looked at my victim as my breathing staggered. "Oh my god." I said to myself as I leaned against the wall behind me. The only sound now was the heavy rain and the distant cars rushing by. The street lights were the only thing lighting the dark alley. His face started to haunt me. His open eyes had watched me cut him up and murder him. His mouth was slightly open, blood still pouring out of it. I buried my face in my bloody hands and a smile crept on my face.

I'm not crazy. I'm not. Then why would i kill an innocent man who i had no problem with? Because of her. I did this for Katie. My best friend and the girl i have been in love with for as long as i could remember. My heart rate sped up, not because of the deed i just did, but because the face of my love filled my thoughts. I could feel my pain disappearing. I got out my cell and punched in her number, which i had memorized.

"Hello?" she chirped cheerfully. That happiness wouldn't last for long. I was about to break her.

"Katie, it's me." I didn't know how to continue. His body just layed there on the wet pavement, taunting me.

"What's up, Nick?"

"Well, I..uh." She always had me at a loss for words. "Alex. He uh. He is dead." I expected her to cry and scream and everything but all i heard was silence. "K-Katie?" I didn't know how continue.

"I just.. I heard you wrong." she laughed forcefully, "I thought you said Alex was dead! Silly me."

"Yeah, Kate. That's what I said." I confirmed.

"How did this happen? How do you know? Did you see the killer? Who was it?" She attacked me with questions and it made me sick how much she cared about him.

"Can i come over, Kate?" I ignored her questions.

"Nick. Please. I need to know." she cried.

"Oh, love. Don't cry." I cooed to her.

"How do you know he died? Are you with him?" She bawled into the phone.

"Well, yes. He's here. It's real bloody. You don't want to be here." I figured that she would put the pieces together and i wouldn't have to tell her.

"Where are you?! I'm coming. I need to be there." she pleaded.

"Okay. I'm at the alley behind his house. Hurry." I sighed. In a few minutes, she would be here. At the scene of the crime. I hung up the phone and sat on the wet floor.

Alex was Kate's boyfriend. They were totally and completely in love. It disgusted me, no matter how selfish that sounds. All she would talk about was him. It was always him. I've known her longer. I was her best friend. I was the one who actually cared for her. I love her. But she's just too blinded by Alex to see it. Now that he was out of the way..

"Nick!" she gasped for air as she ran towards me. I looked at the floor. I hated it whenever she cried. I couldn't live with myself if i knew i was the one who caused her tears.

After a while of her uncontrollable sobbing i dared myself to look at her. Of course, she was on her knees, next to Alex. She mourned him and cried out her love for him. My heart felt like it was being squeezed. Eventually, it would explode.

"Did you see who killed him?" she asked quietly once her sobs subsided. I grunted and shoved my hands in my pockets.

"Nick! Please. Please just tell me who did it." she glared at me. I couldn't tell if the dampness of her face was from her tears, or from the rain.

"He begged me not to.." i admitted after a long silence.

"You. You!" She growled at me in disgust and her sparking blue eyes were now glazed over in hate.

"Now, Katie. Stop freaking out for just one moment. Please." I pleaded with her.

"Stop freaking out?! Are you out of your fucking mind? Get away from me. I- I don't even want to see you. Ever." She was tearing out my heart and stomping on it.

"I can explain! Please. Please listen to me!" I screamed in frustration.

"How can you possibly explain this?! You killed him, Nick. I loved him more than anything! Are you out of your mind? You killed him! You should know better.." She screamed at me.

It felt like she just tore out my heart and laughed in my face. 'I loved him more than anything'. I could almost feel someone repeatedly stab into my chest. Kinda like what i did to him..

"No. I don't know wrong from right." I shook my head. "But i know one thing for sure."

"What is that, Nick? Please. Humor me." She spat as she turned away from me.

"I love you." I offered her. "I'm in love with you. I'm so in love with you." I didn't know what her reaction would be. Hate faded from her eyes but they still held no emotion.

"You killed him." she sobbed and collapsed in my arms.

"I know. I'm sorry. But I.. I couldn't handle the pain. Seeing you two together. I had to do this. I'm so sorry." I tried to make her understand. She couldn't hate me. She couldn't.

"I understand.. You're my best friend. I never thought you would.. I didn't think you could.." she shook her head, not knowing what to say. She looked at Alex one last time and fresh tears came.

"Oh, love. Please, don't cry. I'll wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life." I grabbed both her hands and waited for her response.

I could see the flashing lights in the distance. The sirens from the police and ambulance were getting louder. She let a few more tears escape and she nodded after searching in my eyes. She quickly grabbed my knife from the pool of blood and started running. Did i mention how in love with her i was?

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I want a guy that will kill my current boyfriend/love just so he can be with me. Haha. It's so romantic and sick at the same time.(:
Inspired greatly by the song Bloody Valentine- Good Charlotte. If you listen to it, you'd know how much this is based on that. It may be a bit all over the place because i wrote the beginning, then the end, then the middle. I don't know why. It may be really messy, i apologize.