Oh, mom.

I like how one minute my mom tells me that I'm ugly and blahblahblah is prettier than me. And I'm just like "Alright, i know." and then the next minute, she says she's gonna enter me in those model pagent thingies when I'm 16. If I'm so ugly, what's the point of entering? LMFAO, sillygirl. I'd never win. Those girls are talented in real things. I don't know what I'd say if they told me to talk about myself. I'm too different to be in those contests. You of all people should know how I am. I hate going out in public. I love to sleep all day and dig for food at night. I hate going out because of the possibility of seeing someone i know. I just.. I wouldn't stand a chance against those girls who cover themselves up in makeup. Eyeliner is my best friend. And even that, I barely use. Those girls probably are part of something bigger. They're probably accepted, and they fit in. Me? I would stand out so fucking bad, it wouldn't even be funny.

So let's not embarrass me and you in front of the world. I know i used to dream of entering. That was when i was more normal. I actually thought that i would have a small chance of even getting in, let alone competing with all the other beautiful girls. They're beauty queens, mom. Their world is totally different than mine.